Today's weather was a little gloomy. Xufeng hurried back home before the first drop of rain fell.

When he was still some distance away from the courtyard, his heartbeat sped up as usual. But after a few steps, he felt that the bolt on the courtyard door was still the same. He couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.

Xufeng walked to the kitchen in the west wing and lit the fire. After heating the pot with some water, he opened the bamboo basket that he had been carrying. He put the two bowls of milky white soup into the water to warm it up before returning to his room.

At this moment, it started to rain outside. The room suddenly became dark and gloomy. Xufeng lit the lamp and sat down at the table.

He took out a brocade pouch and carefully opened it, revealing the crescent-shaped dragon scale inside.

Xufeng held it in his palm and stroked it several times. He didn't know if it was because he had touched it too many times, but the surface of the dragon scale had become a little dull.

In the next moment, Xufeng began to mumble to himself.

Yu'er, on the way back today, I saw that little stall selling peanut soup again. It was the one that you thought tasted the best the last time we descended to the mortal world. Now, it has been passed down for more than thirty generations. I tasted it, and it seems to taste about the same as back then.

But that's not necessarily true. You know, I've never had any talent in desserts.

I bought two bowls. If you come back, I'll eat with you.

In this way, will you show up today?

Yu'er, until today, it's been two hundred years since you left. It's also been one hundred and twenty years since you formed your soul.

I don't know where you're cultivating now. Have you formed your true body?

Do you think of me?

It's fine if you don't think of me. You just have to send me a dream and tell me where you are. I'll come and find you.

But if you just don't want to see me …

It's fine as long as you're living a carefree life.

Right, where did I tell you my story yesterday?

Let me think, it seems like it was during the Heavenly Demon War.

Blame me, blame me. I just had to get stuck at the most important part. It's my fault. I'll continue to tell you today, okay?

Using one year to tell you about my two hundred years is actually not easy, and it is also somewhat embarrassing. However, as long as you are willing to listen, I will tell you.

The moment you left, I remembered everything. Every time you called me, every time you smiled, I remembered everything.

But what's the use of that? I can't even touch the corner of your clothes.

You don't know how crazy I was at that time. If not for Jin Mi running over to lie to me, saying that you left something for me, I'm afraid that everyone present that day would not have been able to walk out of Wang Chuan alive.

The power of heaven and earth was so domineering. After borrowing it, there was nothing it couldn't do. It could destroy heaven and earth.

But is it really because you know how scary it is that you didn't fight back?

Everyone thinks so, but I know it's not.

No one knows you better than I do.

You're the kindest and most soft-hearted Yu'er in the world, but you've never been a coward. In fact, you've always been stronger than me.

You were afraid that the power of heaven and earth would exhaust my divine essence, so you gave up, right?

Or perhaps, your heart was completely broken, and you felt that there was nothing in this world worth your reluctance to part with, right?

In this lifetime, your heart has actually only been filled with three things: me, mother, and Carp.

Your mother and Carp are no longer here, and I also see you as my mortal enemy. The moment you left, you really gave up, right?

It was only later that I found out to what extent I had hurt you to make you give up.

Your last tear, I will always remember it, and I will dream of it every night.

I dream that you stood in midair, not saying anything, only looking at me with those pair of eyes that could talk. Only when that tear fell and landed on my face did I wake up.

After the great battle, Jin Mi once ran over to question me. I clearly thought it through so clearly before the battle, so why did I regret it now?

I didn't have the face to tell her that it was because I had forgotten you. That was just like finding an excuse for myself.

But she was a stubborn woman. When I didn't say anything, she kept asking and asking. Later, she even dragged your cheap brother to find out the reason why I had forgotten you.

In fact, at that time, I really didn't care about this at all. A mistake was a mistake, a loss was a loss. You were no longer here, so what was the point of looking into this?

Shuihe once told me before she died that I would never get the person I loved the most.

She got what she wanted.

At that time, I really, really wanted to go with you. That way, perhaps in some corner, we might still have a chance to meet, and not be alone in this world like this …

But in the end, I didn't die, and I also knew the reason why I had forgotten you.

At that time, I was muddle-headed and didn't hear what Jin Mi was talking about. I only heard that it was related to the Mother Goddess, and that I had eaten something to forget you.

It wasn't until last month that Jin Mi came to me again, that I completely knew.

But at that time, I just thought, so what? You will never come back.

I didn't feel better because of this, I just felt stupid. I always pretended to be a protector in front of you, but in fact, I was never able to protect you.

I thought that I was protecting you, but it only deepened the Mother Goddess's hatred for you again and again.

In the end, she turned me into a weapon against you.

From the beginning, I shouldn't have provoked you.

That way, perhaps now, you would still be the Night God who stood aloof from worldly affairs. Although lonely, the years would be peaceful and happy.

And I would still be able to see you every day.

Fortunately, later, Yanyou gave me a bead, and it told me everything about you.

I knew what was called heart-wrenching pain, and I also understood the meaning of my life.

Yu'er, I never thought that I would have a child with you.

Just because I mentioned to you before I went out to conquer the Demon Realm that I wanted our child, you took it to heart, right?

Just because of one sentence from me, you went against the heavens. How could you be so stupid?

The moment Carp was born, do you know how happy I was?

But the more happy I was, the more painful I was.

I still remember my nirvana??

Before, you said you were waiting for me??

When it was over, you had something to tell me. And later, you rarely came to find me, but that time you saw Jin Mi on my bed, it was all to talk about this, right?

It was my fault, I forgot.

I forgot that the person I loved the most was called Run Yu. He was not only my brother, but also my immortal companion. He was the person who made a vow with me to walk together for thousands of years.

I forgot you, and only remembered Jin Mi, who was with me in the mortal world for half a year.

No wonder you suddenly became like that, no wonder you were so thin. I can't imagine how much patience you used to not cry in front of me.

It was clearly me who broke your heart, and I didn't even explain half a sentence to you …

But why are you still so good to me?

You comforted me in front of Luo Xiang Manor, and saved Jin Mi outside the Southern Heavenly Gate.

You should hate me. I, who had unilaterally forgotten everything, was not worthy of your love.

Ten thousand lightning bolts piercing through the heart, and the pain was like breaking bones. I had never experienced it before, but when I saw your appearance in the pearl, I roughly understood.

Because you were clearly the one who could endure pain the most.

Do you still remember the year when we just became adults, when we went to the Demon Realm to train together?

We mistakenly entered Yan Wei's territory, and in order to save me, your entire back was burned by the fireball it spat out.

I cried in heartache, but you didn't even make a sound.

But at that time, you struggled like that. I'm afraid that even if ten Yan Wei spat out fire together, it wouldn't hurt you that much.

If I was there, I'm afraid that it would be like that time, crying until I couldn't even speak.

That way, when you laughed at me, maybe the pain would be better.

But I wasn't there. What was I doing at that time?

Jin Mi and I descended to the mortal world to experience the tribulation together.

Isn't it ridiculous? When I heard Kuang Lu say that, I also felt that it was ridiculous.

While you were wandering around the gates of hell for me, I was living together with someone else …

So later on, I fiercely slapped my own face. What right do I have to hate you?

Also, are you very curious why I call you Yu'er now?

It's because I saw you telling Yan you that I would never call you Yu'er.

But when Yan you became me, you still chose to believe it.

Do you know how much I wished that person was me at that time?

So I called you that because I wanted to treat it as if what you saw that day wasn't an illusion. Treat it as if I really accompanied you that day …

Yu'er, how are you?

I also saw the illusion in your dream. It was a small courtyard in the mortal world. In the courtyard, there was you, me, and Carp.

So all these years after you formed your soul, I stayed in the mortal world. It was the inn where we made our promise of love. Do you still remember?

After thousands of years, the landscape has changed greatly. But at least it didn't become a barren mountain. It's just a little far from the town. But this is also good. No one will disturb me. I can quietly wait for you to come back in the courtyard.

Yes, I built a house and courtyard. The courtyard is exactly the same as the one in your dream. I set up a set of stone tables and stone stools like the one in the Xuanji Palace. The year I built it, I also planted a peach tree beside the courtyard wall. Now, it has grown to the same size as the unknown tree in the Xuanji Palace.

How is it? Am I very powerful?

You will definitely smile and say yes. You never seem to be stingy with your praises, even if I don't do anything amazing.

The only bad thing is that every time there are footsteps outside the courtyard, I will think that you are back.

In this remote place, sometimes no one will pass by for a few days. Sometimes, many people will pass by in a day. It makes me run to the courtyard door many times a day.

I regret building the courtyard wall so high. If it was lower, I would be able to see you from afar.

Speaking of which, I digress again … Forget it, let's stop here today. I will tell you the rest tomorrow.

Oh, right. If you don't come back, I will eat the two bowls of peanut soup by myself.

Let's … let's set the limit at midnight. There are still a few hours. But if you are already on the way back, don't worry. Even if you are a little late, I will still wait for you.