It has begun!

Today's writing!

My brain just isn't working properly!

I don't have to fork out money to study!

Studying is for my own good!

Why shouldn't I study!

I still have to study properly!

Of course!

I don't have a chance anymore!

I'm starting to be independent now!

That's how it is!

How should I put it!

I can't say it like that!

I've only understood it now!

Studying is definitely for my own good!

Others can't get it!

I'm just not aware of it!

That's why I ended up like this!

I regret it!

Although I'm an undergraduate!

But I'm still very busy!

I still have regrets!

Although I have a chance to take the postgraduate entrance exam!

But I won't take the exam!

Because I won't be able to!

I don't have the energy!

The pressure is too great!

Sigh!

My studies now!

I'm just messing around for a diploma!

The main thing is that I can't think straight!

There's nothing that I like to study!

It's all these!

All these rules and regulations!

It's this feeling!

I had a dream this morning!

I dreamt that I couldn't see!

I can't write novels!

It's really uncomfortable!

I'm not blind!

I just can't see clearly!

The most exaggerated thing is!

I'm still cooking vermicelli in the pond!

I'm scooping it up with a net!

I think it's a hot spring!

Enough!

I was dreaming!

It's too rare!

In the end!

The fans didn't eat!

It had just been set up not long ago!

He jumped to writing a novel again!

I haven't eaten my fans yet!

His eyes couldn't see clearly!

He had to use his eyes well!

I wear glasses!

It had been many years!

Seven years!

500 degrees!

It didn't feel good!

Don't you know 500 degrees of myopia?!

Was it considered high?

I should still work hard to create!

This was a must!

Why?!

Because this is my hobby!

I like to write!

I like the feeling of thinking fast!

Today is the 22nd!

Yesterday was Father's Day!

But how should I put it?

The festival was just a formality!

As a member of the new faction!

I don't like festivals at all!

A holiday!

He could rest!

This was also good!

I still like festivals!

It's just that they didn't pay much attention to it!

There was no sense of exaggeration!

Some people!

Talk about mental illness!

He was different from others!

Who said it was like that!

However!

No one would accept the thoughts of a mental patient!

Our way of thinking is still relatively new!

Of course, I'm talking about myself!

I don't understand the others!

I don't celebrate holidays!

That was what he remembered!

It's not like I'm different!

Everyone was different!

Why?!

Human thoughts!

Although they had something in common!

They were also independent!

How should I put it!

Although!

I wasn't very good!

I still had to work hard!

This was also for my own good!

In the past, I always felt that someone was making use of me!

This was because my mind was weak!

A sign of weak willpower!

Why?!

Because!

No one could control my world!

I used to think that I was the only living person in the world!

I knew that I was wrong the moment I saw it!

Because I was the only one who wasn't living!

Actually!

I had what living people had too!

It wasn't that I gave up!

I was dispirited!

When I trampled others underfoot!

I was also being trampled underfoot!

It was better to be more harmonious!

After all, this was a harmonious society!

There were many things that should be done!

First, I had to be myself!

I couldn't even do it well!

I didn't have the right!

Of course!

This was a worldwide problem!

It was for national interests!

First!

Or personal interests!

This was a problem!

Now, I reckon that!

It was a problem!

Of course, for me!

It had to be solved!

Personal problems!

Society!

It would naturally develop!

I still had to improve myself!

In the past, I was addicted to!

Online games!

I couldn't extricate myself!

I didn't expect that!

Now, I can write novels!

I only wanted to play games!

I only wanted to be happy!

And be free!

I didn't expect that!

There was a price to pay for that!

In exchange, I've accomplished nothing!

Of course!

This was a problem!

I can't say that this was bad!

But I still had to work hard!

It was fine as long as I could survive!

It was good to have people to play games!

I wanted to!

To be the richest man in China!

To be rich!

I couldn't do it well!

At least I could make a small fortune!

Attention!

It was diverted!

Actually, I hated myself too!

I kept feeling that I was being restrained by something!

It was too depressing!

Well, this wasn't a good way to put it!

Actually, this was the reality!

Of course, I couldn't be careless!

What if these guys!

It was all a pretense!

Now, after 9000!

They were the main force of the internet cafes!

What had they done!

Of course, I didn't mean that!

This wasn't good!

Happiness!

There was a price to pay!

Sooner or later, there was a price to pay!

Look, I knew it!

Now, I had achieved nothing!

I was addicted to the internet and couldn't extricate myself!

It was only out of instinct and curiosity!

This wasn't good!

I was guilty!

This couldn't do!

Well, this was a problem!

Of course, it had nothing to do with me!

Being taken advantage of was my own business!

What did it have to do with me!

To have someone as lucky as me!

Or a minority!

Not everyone was as lucky as me!

This was losing oneself!

Performance!

I was also lost!

I had such an experience!

I had a deep understanding!

How should I put it!

This was my own choice!

I couldn't blame others!

I was always complaining about society!

I had conflicting emotions!

I didn't even look at what I had done!

That's my fault!

Of course!

What was the use of knowing how to play games!

It was useless!

This was the world of online novels!

Never possible!

That was lying to myself!

This was the feeling of being intoxicated by myself!

It was like taking drugs!

A kind of ego!

Anesthesia!

I felt that I was awesome!

Without you, China wouldn't be beggars!

That was it!

You weren't that important!

This could be said to anyone!

You weren't that important!

Of course, without me!

That was good too!

One less rice bucket!

But I was also a rice bucket who was working hard!

Just because I couldn't fill my stomach!

It was that simple!

There was a sense of danger!

And a sense of panic!

I didn't know what would happen tomorrow!

It was hard to say tomorrow!

If I continued to talk like this!

What online games were rarely played ~ I would play less!

Well, how should I put it!

It wasn't like that!

Not using the Internet!

There was nothing bad about it!

I used to feel that I was!

Useless!

Actually!

A lot of people were as useless as me!

If they had the ability, they should make Chinese software!

Make Chinese computers!

Make Chinese operating systems!

Have their own language!

Use!

Who didn't know how to!

Play games!

Who didn't know how to!

This was why many people were not aware of it!

I felt that this was a kind of shame!

There were only the Four Great Inventions!

Enough!

Enough!

What was there to talk about!

They were all learning from others!

It was so difficult to think!

Of course!

This wasn't anyone's fault!

The historical background was like this!

It could only mean that!

Our lives were too good!

We didn't have enough sense of danger!

It wasn't easy to say!

This piece!

I didn't do well myself!

I was just waiting for death to come!

I was mentally ill!

Could it be that you were mentally ill too!

You had to learn from good people!

What rich second generation!

What was that!

There was nothing worth learning!

You would be buried in history!

You might be glamorous today!

Another ten years!

How many ten years do you have!

Of course, everyone was like that!

You had to understand!

This was reality!

However!

My spirit!

It was still there!

I didn't like it!

The media nowadays!

It was all entertainment channels!

It had nothing to do with me!

I didn't like to watch it!

I didn't want to watch it!

No one wanted you to watch it!

People!

Could stand it!

Why couldn't you stand it!

Of course!

I was too different from the rest!

Actually, I was myself!

I was still very ordinary!

I didn't have any special traits!

I only felt that I was different!

This kind of confidence!

It still needed to come out from the bones!

I wanted to live on!

Although!

I was also ruthlessly suppressed!

Exploited!

But!

I still wanted to live on!

I had no hope!

Because!

This was society!

It was the same in every country!

There was nothing to think about!

I didn't count on it!

What China dream!

I had said too much!

It was all tears!

I could only say!

I knew!

I wasn't good enough!

Now!

I had to work harder!

I had to work hard to improve my ideological awareness!

From personal!

And society!

Angle!

I had to improve in all aspects!

Of course, I had to brag!

Who didn't know how to do that?

It still depended on the actual actions!

An armchair strategist!

It was also a kind of ability!

You didn't know how to do it!

That's my conflicting emotions!

This wasn't good!

What should I do!

It was very simple!

It was also very complicated!

Only then could it be considered okay!

The most basic thing was!

Loving labor!

Not superstitious!

Not illegal!

Not illegal!

The main thing was not!

Doing bad things!

Not saying anything!

Unity!

Others!

This wasn't something that I should do!

I had to do the most basic things first!

Loving labor!

There was still a certain level of difficulty for me!

My ideological awareness!

There was a problem!

I kept feeling that!

It was good to be relaxed!

This was a problem with my mindset!

I was still far from it!

Not superstitious!

This was not simple!

There were many aspects!

Superstitious!

Not simple!

Referring to feudal superstition!

And power!

Personal worship and so on!

Superstitious power!

I had such a mistake!

Damn, I had pressed the wrong button just now!

A few hundred thousand word draft was almost a ghost!

Well, it was hard to say!

It wasn't illegal!

Of course!

This was very difficult to do!

The only thing that I could do was!

Not create trouble!

Of course, I would just live like a dog!

I couldn't resist at all!

Even my thoughts have decayed!

Even my bones!

They were all smelly!

This was the feeling!

I was still far from it!

In some aspects!

There was indeed a problem with my thinking!

Especially!

My relationship with girls!

I had misconceptions!

Of course, this was very difficult to correct!

The background was like this!

Why should I be different!

No one liked me!

Could I not go with the crowd?

Of course!

Girls!

I still had to have self-respect!

Boys even more so!

Self-respect!

Of course!

As a mental patient!

A person with a problem in his thinking!

I didn't do well!

I always indulged myself!

Although!

I indulged myself!

No one else could interfere!

This was my own matter!

I didn't break the law!

How should I put it!

It wasn't good!

This was a personal choice!

It had nothing to do with national righteousness!

Of course!

For my own good!

I still had to be less indulgent!

Well, how should I put it!

This was a problem!

It was like this!

I couldn't do it!

I had to work hard!

I was still far from it!

Loving labor!

I didn't do well either!

I couldn't even do the most basic things well!

Based on what!

I said I was human!

I could only be a dog!

A human should act like a human!

I was also played by others until I was broken!

Everything I had was given to me by society!

Of course, this was wrong!

I also had a little bit of my own things!

Although it was very little!

But it could be gathered together!

Of course, this was very difficult!

I still had a problem!

Otherwise, why would I be mentally ill!

Mentally ill!

It was a very annoying thing!

The current society!

I didn't understand!

How should I put it!

I didn't need to understand!

Why!

Because!

What!

I'd better be more idealistic!

Reality was very cruel!

I couldn't take it at all!

This was the feeling!

How should I put it!

Myself!

The problem wasn't solved!

I regretted it for life!

I was the one who harmed myself!

I came out to mingle!

Sooner or later, I would have to pay for it!

Don't be too naive!

The naive me!

I could feel it!

All of you!

All of these!

Look at me, a person with a low IQ!

You should be able to understand!

I always felt that I was better than others!

Of course, I also had such wrong thinking!

It's good to have confidence!

Of course!

Confidence didn't mean looking down on others!

I didn't do well in this aspect!

I was still correcting myself!

How should I put it!

It was like this!

Although I was very silly!

But there were still some things that I knew!

First of all!

I had to understand!

What kind of society was this!

My own world!

What was it like!

I couldn't be too confused!

Why would I be mentally ill!

It was because!

In these aspects!

I was worse than normal people!

I wasn't scheming!

I wouldn't!

It was too direct!

I'd make you!

Leave it to time!

Slowly torture you!

Of course, time was a thing!

It didn't matter who said it!

It was good to have this!

Very happy!

Time was still fair!

Of course!

I always complained about myself!

Unrecognized talent!

I really felt that!

I didn't have much talent!

But my attitude was still okay!

Unrecognized talent!

I wasn't qualified!

I only had a good attitude!

Ability!

Was still lacking!

Actually, there was nothing bad about this!

It came easily!

It came!

It was easy!

It was cool to go!

I didn't have to shoulder too much!

Although I also wanted to be famous!

Be on TV or something!

Of course!

This was the truth!

I was!

He was a contradictory person!

How should I put it!

This didn't feel good!

It was just like this!