This kind of thing! I can't afford to lose! Sigh! I don't think I understand it yet! This is a problem! It's too simple! There's no way to know! That's enough! Sigh! This makes sense! Don't tell me I still don't understand! Sigh! It's really enough! I'll hesitate a little more! Sigh! What is this! I have my own reasons for not thinking about it! There's no way around it! What can I do? Sigh! It's really enough! I don't think it's a problem! Sigh! It's really enough! I feel that it's obviously a problem! I thought so! Sigh! This is really not good! Sigh! It's really a problem! Sigh! It's really enough! Forget it! This is me! Sigh! I don't think it's a good thing! What do I think? Sigh! I can't do it! Sigh! It's really enough! Life! Maybe this is fate! Why do I always have to fight for my own survival? There's nothing wrong with that! At least I understand that I'm still alive! I thought so! Do I think it's okay? Sigh! It's really enough! Sigh! This is a problem! It's not very specific! Sigh! Living is actually living for the sake of living! Sigh! This thing! It's simple! This is really not good! Living! It's a little painful! What do I think? This is not good in itself! Sigh! Living is living! Living may be a way of survival! Sigh! I don't think I can understand it! That's why I say there's something wrong with my brain! Sigh! How should I say it! Living is just a feeling! It's something! It's something I can't experience! Sigh! Damn! Only now do I understand what it feels like to be home! Maybe that's called happiness! Sigh! But there's also pressure! Eating! It's not that delicious! I don't think I can understand it all the time! Sigh! I can't do it! It can't be helped! A love! What can I do? It can't be helped! Sigh! Damn! Sigh! Is this important? Sigh! At least I don't think it's important! Is it important what kind of person I am? It doesn't matter if I'm a fool! Even if I'm a lunatic! It's useless! Of course, I'm the one who's looking for a sense of accomplishment! There's nothing wrong with it in the first place! I'm very willing! If I can find a sense of accomplishment through me! Then I feel that I'm still of some value! Sigh! It's really not good! Sigh! Actually, this is nothing! Sigh! I feel like I've won again! I've won against the whole world! It's a wonderful feeling! I'm also afraid! Sigh! Haha! What's this! Sigh! Damn! I'm also very afraid! I know that winning against these people doesn't mean that I can win against the whole world! Sigh! I think that's a problem in itself! Isn't life tiring when the burden of thinking is too heavy?! This! Said! My burden of thinking! It's quite a lot! It's too tiring to live! It's better to live a more relaxed life! And life itself is heavy! There are things that I can't bear! Forgive me! Sigh! Fortunately! It's not too good either! Sigh! It's really enough! I thought that! Living is such a thing! Who would give in to anyone! Perhaps love is such a thing! It's extremely cruel in itself! Sigh! Of course, so! Love! It's a good thing! Everyone wants it! Why can I have it! Sigh! I still don't understand it! This question is still not specific! It doesn't explain anything! Sigh! Think about it yourself! This is really enough! I also think that there's nothing wrong with this! Living! It's selfish in the first place! What do you think! Sigh! Living! That's a cruel scoundrel in itself! It's not that I want to live! I can die at any time! I can get out of here! Change the world! Haha! This thing! That's how it is! Sigh! What can I change? Sigh, it's really enough! I don't know it myself! There's no other way! I can't understand it all the time! Sigh! I want to die! Sigh! Are you kidding me? Sigh! I still can't do it! I don't want to live that much! Actually, I don't want to die that much either! Live! There's always something I have to do! Although I might not be able to do it well! Why bother with this problem! I have plenty of time! Let me die! Sigh! Die! Sigh! I've met quite a number of people! Sigh! This is something I can't experience! Sigh! There's a good saying! Live for less than a hundred years! But death is a very long time! Sigh! So! I still have to live! Sigh! I thought so! Isn't this a good thing? Sigh! It's really enough! Can't I figure it out myself? Sigh! It's not easy to say! Because I don't think I can bear it! Live! I have to learn to bear it! Sigh! It's easy to die! I never do that! Death isn't difficult at all! Sigh! Live! There's nothing wrong! It's something more difficult than living! The only good thing is that there's no next life! Sigh! Haha! Sigh! I'm finally free! That's good news! Alive! There's nothing good about it! I don't feel nostalgic anymore! Sigh! I didn't think of the end! It's actually like this! Sigh! This way! It's not bad either! Sigh! Sigh! So! Sigh! I can't do it myself! Sigh! I don't understand! I don't understand! Perhaps this was the feeling of heart-wrenching pain! Sigh! I thought I wouldn't be able to experience it! Sigh! I still don't understand! Sigh! This kind of ending! It's what I want the most! This way! It's obviously a good thing! So! However, it was obvious that I would never be able to unravel this mystery! Sigh! How should I say it now! This kind of thing! I don't quite understand it myself either! Sigh! It's really enough! Sigh! I didn't understand it in the past! I'm actually alive! I have to learn to cherish it! No matter what it is! Sigh! What can I say! Sigh! So this is what I want to say! Sigh! Alive! I look like I'm alive! I feel like I'm dead! Sigh! Is this important? Should I live or not? Should I die or not? What can it affect? I'd better get out of here! Change the world! Sigh! Damn! Are you kidding me? Sigh! It's really enough! I don't understand it either! This is a problem! Sigh! It's obviously a problem! Sigh! I can't do it! Sigh! I don't think this is good! Sigh! Damn! I feel like this is the problem! Sigh! I still don't understand it! I'll go and lie to myself! Sigh! Lie to myself! Lie to myself! Give myself a lie! Let myself sleep! Let myself have a dream that I can never wake up from! Haha! Perhaps! Haha! This is what makes me different from others! This is an essential element of being a writer! Of course! It's not absolutely necessary either! Sigh! Something like being a writer! Sigh! I feel! How should I put it! Actually, many people can do it! It's just a matter of whether they want to or not! Sigh! It's that simple! I just don't understand it! What kind of problem is this? Sigh! It's really enough! Sigh! I can guess the beginning! I can never guess the ending! This is something that can't be helped! This matter! It's really not obvious! This is not good! What can I do? There's really no other way! I don't think this is good! Sigh! It's really enough! Sigh! I feel! This isn't good! Sigh! I can't help it! This kind of thing! What is this! Sigh! I feel that this is a problem in itself! Sigh! Is it okay for me to be like this? So! Am I waiting to die? Sigh! It's really enough! I really don't understand it! Sigh! The problem isn't specific! Sigh! I feel that this is a very annoying problem! We're all adults! Am I still not clear about this problem? Sigh! It's really enough! I always don't know! How can I understand it? Sigh! I always don't know! Sigh! Fortunately! It's also quite easy for me! Because no matter what! I don't have many brothers and sisters! Sigh! Sigh! So! Look at how selfish I am! One look and I can tell that it's the same person! There are two more people! It feels like a scam! Sigh! This is obviously not good! Sigh! What can I do? Sigh! There's no other way! Sigh! I can't do it myself! Sigh! It's really enough! Damn it! What am I thinking! Sigh! I don't really understand it! Sigh! This problem is still so …