Yes, continue! I'm thinking! I'm finally telling the truth! Actually, everything that I've done! It's all for my own survival! Sigh! It's just that the way I handle it is different! The key is still my attitude! It's a matter of mentality! Sigh! How should I put it! Think about it yourself! There's no solution to this problem! It's really enough! I really can't do it! Sigh! There's no other way! What can I do? It's really enough! I don't think I can understand it! If I love you! Do you love me? Sigh! It's really enough! It's a matter of love or not love! It's always so indecisive! Love or not love! Sigh! I don't think I understand what love is! I just think! Sigh! One-sided love! It's not love! It's self-righteous love! It's definitely not love! Love! The reason! Everyone wants it! Because it's too beautiful! But it's also too painful! It's not easy to say! Sigh! There's nothing much to say! Sigh! Damn! I've really had enough! Regarding my own problem! I can only say! This is obviously a problem! Sigh! Damn! Sigh! To be honest! There's nothing wrong with it! Sigh! I feel that I'm very weak! This is what I need to know! Sigh! There's nothing wrong with being weak! Sigh! Of course! I can't find a reason to be strong! Sigh! What does this mean? Sigh! I can only say that my problem is! I can't live a good life! I don't want to say it anymore! I still want to say it! I've been bullied since I was young! Sigh! It's really enough! Damn! The me back then! I really felt inferior! Damn! How should I say it! The world of children! How should I say it! Sometimes! It's simple and cruel! Damn! There's a chance! There's a chance! I'll say it again! These one or two sentences! I can't explain it clearly! Children need a sense of security! It's very hard to get it! I've become like this and all these things! There's a huge relationship! I'll say it! Give me a rough idea! I remember when I was young! I was beaten up! Sigh! I was always bullied! Sigh! In the end! Sigh! I won't say it anymore! Sigh! There's no other way! Actually, it's fine as long as I know it clearly! There's no other way! There's something! I really don't want to say it! Sigh! I can't accept it! Sigh! That's human! Sigh! But I still can't accept it! I'll just lie to myself! Let's talk about something simpler! I remember! When I was in primary school in Wenzhou! I had just transferred schools! I was ridden on and beaten up! Furthermore! This matter! I didn't even tell my parents! Sigh! It's really enough! Sigh! I didn't provoke that person at all! Sigh! Damn! It seems like … This is the problem! This is society! The more I talk about it, the worse I feel! Sigh! This is something I'm not too sure about! It's really enough! What do I want to do? There's no other way! Sigh! It's really enough! I remember when I was in junior high! I was threatened! I didn't dare to say anything! Because I didn't feel safe! I was scared! So! I was always! I was bullied! And their excuses! Very good! It was just a joke! I was wrong! I'm guilty! I didn't know I was alive! I should have been bullied by these people! Fortunately, I wrote more in the beginning! Sigh! It's not easy to read this! Sigh! Continue! What do I want to say! Although I still don't have the ability now! I'm alive! I have to live a decent life! Why? So! This matter! I've caused trouble! Sigh! Maybe I'll go to jail! Sigh! There's no other way! Goodbye! I can't stand it! Why do they have to treat me like this! There are too many things I don't want to express! It hurts! This isn't the world I want! Sigh! Damn! In my opinion! I'm really wrong! Sigh! I'm alive! I'm indeed guilty! Damn! Other people's lives are lives! Maybe mine won't be the same! What can I do? I lack a sense of security! Something like that! That's how I am now! I lack a sense of identity! Otherwise! I always blow my own trumpet! You think it's fun! Sigh! What else can I say! I lost to myself! Sigh! Damn! I lost! There's nothing bad about it! Sigh! At least I can still lose! There's no reason for me to lose now! Nothing belongs to me! Sigh! Damn! What belongs to me! I should take it back! This is a joke! What belongs to you! I think! Saying this! What kind of mentality is that! Sigh! It's really enough! If there really is! That's happiness! Freedom! Why! I'm always being bullied! Sigh! I really can't accept it! Sigh! Why can't I do it like that! Maybe I'll go to jail! There's no other way! Sigh! Goodbye! I only found out now! I don't have much time left! I can't accept it! I still owe myself an answer! Of course! There'll never be an answer! Why! Why must you do this to me! Sigh! It's really enough! Alright, there's no more power! Goodbye! I'll write it again later! Sigh! It's very difficult! It's not regret! It's just that regretful! Sigh! There are so many things to do! I really don't know what to do in the future! What should I do! Sigh! But I still have to think of a way! There's no other way! Maybe this is life! Sigh! No matter what! I have to make a choice! Although this is a choice that I have to make sooner or later! I finally understand what it means to make a choice! It's so difficult! Sigh! It's really enough! I really don't understand! It's good that I know! I'll grasp it well! It's really enough! I don't really understand! Sigh! My posture doesn't feel right! Sigh! I'm not used to it! But I have to get used to it even if I'm not used to it! What can I do? Sigh! It's really enough! I don't understand! Fear! I can't solve the problem! Sigh! There's nothing I'm not afraid of! Fear definitely won't solve the problem! So! I also need to adjust my state! There's really no other way! Sigh! It's really enough! This is obviously not good! Sigh! I want to know! What can I do! It feels like I can't afford to play! Damn! I'll be 23 years old this year! I don't have the chance to play like this anymore! Sigh! It's really enough! It's good that I understand! There's no other way! I don't really understand! How can I know! Sigh! What do I think! Choice! I have to do it sooner or later! My future life! How am I going to eat! I don't know either! Sigh! It's really enough! What can I do? I can only wait to carry bricks! Sigh! Damn! This doesn't feel good! It's really enough! I don't know either! There's no other way! In fact, sometimes! I want to be like an ordinary person! Is that possible? To be honest! There's really nothing different! It's just that I have more concerns! Maybe it's because I'm old! I don't want to admit that I've experienced more! My experience is still relatively simple! Sigh! I don't understand this! Sigh!