Sigh, I'm not sure! Mental illness acting up! Sigh, it's hard to say! What can I do! Sigh, it's my problem! Sigh, I don't know what to do! I'm stuck like this! Damn! It's really enough! Sigh, it's making me cry! Sigh, there's actually a problem! How should I put it! Only now do I know that I'm different! Typing according to someone else's ready-made style! I can't be fast! But typing according to my own style! I can be fast! So! It's a problem with the method! Sigh, I didn't expect this! It's actually like this! Sigh, I thought it was! Is this okay? Actually, I'm not sure! It's hard to say! I thought it was! Mental illness acting up! It's so frustrating! Sigh, how can it be like this! Sigh, maybe it's because I'm too tired! I think it's because I'm feeling guilty! Don't you think so? Sigh, anyway, there are all kinds of feelings! I call this mental illness! It's called pain! It's called acting up! Is there any meaning to it? Sigh, it's really enough! This mental illness! It's purely a problem with the brain! I'm afraid of it myself! I can't believe it! Sigh! Speaking of this matter! It's my problem! As long as I don't use my brain to think! I won't feel bad! Just thinking about it makes me feel bad! Sigh! I feel like crying! Why do you have to treat me like this! What did I do wrong?! Sigh, you know it yourself! Other mental illnesses are fine! When it's acting up! I want to jump into the river! I have the heart to do anything! Sigh! It's always a very serious situation! Sigh, it's different from losing control of one's emotions! Sigh! It's just pain! Sigh, damn it! Is this okay?! Don't I think so?! Sigh! It's really sad! Sigh, I think so! Sigh, there are all kinds of bad things about this! I'm not sure myself! Don't you think so?! My mental illness is acting up! Can't I play?! Sigh, I have to write at this time! I have a strong sense of crisis! Do you think this is interesting?! Sigh, it's so sad! I'd rather die! I don't want to live without dignity! Because death is still a release for this! Because death isn't the most painful thing! So! Sigh, damn it! I was wrong! Say it like this! What's the point?! That's enough! Don't you know?! Sigh, I think you're too sad! Sigh, it's my own problem! It's so painful! My mental illness is acting up again! Sigh, the feeling of this medicine! There's no effect! But it's impossible to change the medicine! I want to be hospitalized! Then I'll never come out! I really want to die earlier! I feel! Suicide is a way to die! It's not suitable for me! It instantly lowers my level! Sigh! I think I should die with more glory! Sigh! I thought so! The world of mental illness! I can't understand it! What do you want! You can tell me! Maybe I can satisfy you! You can't! I've already warned you countless times! I told you not to do this! But you're still like this! Warnings are useless! I have to let you know the power of mental illness! Forget it! It's meaningless! Do you think I'll be afraid? I just feel sad! Sigh! Why is it like this?! Can I choose to escape?! No, because I don't have a choice! Sigh! It's really enough! I'm not sure! Damn it! It's really enough! What the hell is this! Sigh, my problem! Is this okay? Sigh, it's really enough! I don't understand at all! Damn you, kid! I really want to die! Pain is an extra meal! Don't you need inspiration? This is the pain that mental illness is born with! Inspiration comes very quickly! This is a height that most people can't reach! Sigh, maybe! You're actually using me! Is there any meaning to it? You don't even spare the mental illness! Do you want to die?! Sigh, it's really enough! It's not good to be like this! I don't understand at all! I can't do anything about it! What can I do? Sigh, I don't really understand! Sigh! Kid, it's really fun to be like this! Sigh, why do you have to treat me like this! I'm not living to be in pain! Then I want to ask you! You're alive! What are you doing here? My life is very simple! I'm here to eat and sleep! But there's a price to pay for eating and sleeping! What do you think! Sigh, I don't understand what you mean! Sigh! It's actually very simple! I have to bear it! And I have no choice! Sigh, mental illnesses have a hard life! Don't tell me my life is not hard! You're treating me like this! Is it really okay? Sigh! There's obviously a problem! But this is …

What you want! Could it be that I'm still not satisfied? Sigh, I don't think this is a problem! Sigh! I don't understand! Why do you have to treat me like this! Sigh, it's really not easy to bear! Sigh, even death is painful! Sigh, this matter is actually that simple! I can't accept it! What the hell is this! Sigh, I don't really understand! I can't do anything about this! This is really enough! Sigh, my mistake! Sigh, I don't understand! What do I know! It's too sad! Sigh, I don't understand at all! I can't understand it myself! Sigh, what do I know! It's really a problem! I thought it was! Sigh, I don't understand at all! What do I know! It's really a problem! Sigh, I thought it was! This is not good at all! I don't know at all! I can't do anything about it! These things! You're actually making me suffer so much! You're a genius! I'm not afraid that you can't bear it! Sigh, I feel like I can't bear it anymore! Sigh, I've already reached my limit! Sigh, life has to learn to challenge! There's no such thing as a limit! Sigh, why! Sigh, I can't bear it! Your ability to bear it is still so weak! It's because I can't face myself! I can't allow myself to become a well-behaved person! Why! Can't I choose? Sigh, I think I can choose! Sigh, although it will be more painful! Sigh, I don't understand what you mean! This is really enough! Sigh, it's totally a problem! This is really enough! Is it really okay? I don't understand! Sigh! My mental illness is acting up! Come and see! There's a mental illness here! He's done so many bad things! Shameful things! Do I have a choice! Sigh, what are you sad about! A person is a person! That's how people are! Haha, their souls are very pure! I'm different from you! You're too ugly! Sigh, why can't I do it well! Sigh, I think I need to do it well! Damn obsessive-compulsive disorder! What do I know! This is too sad! This problem! I don't understand! Sigh, there's no other way! This is really enough! Too sad! Sigh, I don't understand at all! What can I do! Sigh, it's really enough! It's my own problem! Get out of the way, my mental illness is acting up! Sigh! Damn it! It's really enough! What's the point of this! I can't accept it! Something bad! Sigh! I can't accept cruel things! Sigh, what do you think? Just thinking about it hurts me! Damn it! But this is reality! Sigh! At this time! It's time to test myself! Sigh, the so-called true warrior! Dares to face the bleak life! Sigh, you still don't dare to face it! I'm a mental illness, please let me go! Sigh, I admit that there's something wrong with my brain and character! That's right, I'm a pervert! The pervert is me! Sigh, damn it, I can't take it! Sigh, but I don't have a choice! Even if I

Don't write a book! It'll still be so painful! What do I think! Sigh, this is a mental illness! Why do I have to be like this! Damn it, I don't want to accept that I'm a bad person! I want to be a good person! I hate it when others look down on me! Using the so-called noble! Using the soul to mock me! That's what I'm afraid of! I don't know what I'm afraid of! I'm afraid of a strong opponent! Sigh, the kind that's strong and scary! What am I afraid of! Actually, I'm afraid of myself! How can I be like this! I didn't expect it! What did I hope for? It turns out that I can't take it! The mockery of others! I can't take it! It looks like I can take it! But in reality, I can't! Sigh! What do I think! Actually, I think! Damn it, this isn't the root cause! I'm just disgusted by some unpleasant things! Sigh! These are all excuses! What do I think! I don't like those cruel things! Sigh, this will make me feel incomparable pain! I like those beautiful things! This will make my heart feel better! My heart is still very fragile! I don't understand! My own strength! I have to pay the price! I thought! Sigh! I didn't expect it! Sigh, my mental illness is getting better! Sigh! I thought my mental illness would never act up again! It doesn't act up often! I don't think so! Sigh! Mental illness! It acts up several times a day! Especially when I'm tired! It's the easiest to act up! Sigh! Damn it! This is really not good! Sigh, I can't accept it! This is really enough! Sigh, is it really okay? Sigh, I don't understand at all! Is it really okay? It's so sad! What is this! It's really enough! I don't understand it myself! I can't do anything about it! Sigh, I always like to have wishful thinking! Why should I be a writer? Can't I? I know that a lot of people will laugh at me! They will think that I'm an idiot! So what! Is that important? There's nothing wrong with having a dream! Sigh, I think so! Sigh, there's nothing wrong with having a dream! Sigh, I think so! I think that people who look down on those who have a dream! How sad they are! I feel pain for them! Sigh, what do you think? Sigh, I'm not doing any harm to society! Just dream! What's wrong with that? I can't stand certain people the most! They only know how to look down on others! It's not that I'm hurting!