I'm still not sure! I'll probably know! What would I know! Sigh! I'm thinking about a problem! Can you write it any worse! Hur hur, that's a good question! I actually didn't tell you! Of course, that's not a problem! Because I'm sick! My sickness! It makes me unable to compose like a normal person! It's my talent! It's another flaw! Damn it! Just randomly pick someone who can write it! They're all better than me! I feel like I won't be able to get a bento box anymore! Bento boxes are very delicious! It makes me recall many years ago! The feeling of eating a bento box for the first time! The food at the Shanghai train station! I remember it very clearly! There was a big poached egg on the bento box! It was round and very nice! Damn! It's all a trap! I was in the fourth grade at that time! I remember it vividly! It's full of memories! Hur hur, that should be the most expensive bento box I've ever eaten! Just thinking about it makes me excited! Damn! I went to junior high in 2005! It should be something that happened in 2003! Hur hur! I even ate a bowl of noodles! I ate at the Shanghai train station! That's probably the best I've ever eaten! Big row of noodles! I'm drooling just thinking about it! Damn! Don't write these things. You're giving me a headache! Damn it! I thought it was! It was all tears! Hur hur, it wasn't that easy! At that time, many people flipped over the train! At that time, the scalpers were too rampant! At the beginning of 2007, I took a train! These people were selling tickets at high prices! There was no way to deal with these people at all! Later on, the real-name system was implemented! I remember it should be something that happened in 2011's New Year! At that time, I remember that the real-name system was introduced! Why did I go crazy that year! Go home and go to school! Haha! It's all a scam! What kind of trick is this! That's enough with the scalpers! Sigh! I even cried at the Shanghai train station! Because I bought the wrong ticket! I bought a child ticket! I have to pay for it! I still don't understand what a half-price ticket is! At that time! Damn it! The half-price ticket I bought was a child ticket! Not a student ticket! Damn it! This problem! I actually believed it! At that time! That is, ten years ago! How should I say it at that time! Sigh, I don't even know how to speak Mandarin! Sigh! At that time, I met university students on the train! Two girls! Talking to me! I remember it all now! Kid, you're a genius! They should be university students! Why did they ask me! Hehe! Damn it! It's really a trick! That was the first time I went to a so-called big city at that age! Ten years, my brother! At that time! I was fourteen years old! That was the first time in my life! There were girls I didn't know! They took the initiative to talk to me! Why can't I remember them! Sigh, it's all a good trick! Girls always like to whisper to each other! Damn it, I think I've fallen for them! Hehe! Damn it! It's all a trap! But the conversation between them and me! I still remember some of it! They probably asked me what I was going to do! I said I was going to work! They didn't seem to understand! I have a story! I remembered the two girls for ten years! Damn it! Is this also the reason why I became a writer? At this time! I can totally write for ten years! Just thinking about it makes me cry! And it's only for a short period of time! Good melon eater! Good memory! It's also a very painful thing! Do I know what ten years means! Hehe! They're already mothers! Sigh! I really don't understand! I remember that year! 2006 New Year! At that time, I celebrated New Year's on a train! Chengdu to Shanghai! Hehe, this train really drove into my heart! This train is not ordinary! Maybe that's when my dreams began! My trap! I can't remember anymore! Sigh! I don't know! Ten years! I don't understand! I thought so! Sigh, this is a rather sad thing! Even if you love it to death, it's useless! It's all melon eater! It's the first time I felt a stranger's concern for me! Hehe! I thought so! That's why I remember that moment! My seat! I remember it too! But at that time! There was no real name system! Damn it! I was sitting at the front of the train! The two of them were sitting opposite each other! Damn! That's enough! Sigh! That's sad! I actually believed it! Everything was just a f * * king story! Sigh, these things! Sigh, what do I want to say! What's ten years! I really don't know! Sigh, pay attention! Sigh! What a trick! If I'm not a writer! I can't find myself anymore! My past self! Damn it! Don't let it be a story! It's impossible anyway! The two of them were taking a short-distance bus! At least a university student! Sigh, that's impossible! Hur hur, what are you trying to say! Pay attention to the details! Haha! I actually don't believe it! I actually have a story out of nowhere! Sigh, that's too sad! Hur hur! It's impossible forever! Damn it! This is life! That's life! Hur hur! What was I thinking! It turned out to be me and my dream! There was only a difference of ten years! Damn it! It's all a trap! Hur hur, and then! What do I want to say! Then, there's no then! I was thinking! I've never written about this before! It's not that I can't remember! It's how to say it! I'm afraid to face it! Sigh, pay attention to this problem! I might not be clear about it! Sigh, I really don't know! What do I think! Sigh, that's too sad! I'm only one Great God away! I'm still very far away from that! Sigh! I actually don't believe it! Hur hur! I don't know! For everything that I have! I have no reason not to continue writing! I have to persist even if I have to risk my life! I don't need to risk my life! Write with your balls! I actually believe it! Of course, I have to persist! But if you write a little worse! I'll believe it! Sigh! This story is really not that easy to come out! Sigh! Damn! This is really a problem! Why did I only think of it now! What do I hope for! It's impossible to meet again! I always don't know some problems! Damn it! Sigh, some things are never possible! Sigh, I really don't know! Can you be more cunning! I really don't know! Hur hur, young people! I probably don't understand! Talent is all a trap! This is so damn tiring! I don't want to regret it! Sigh, the life of a genius doesn't need to be explained! Regret your grandpa! There are so many more traps! Sigh, young people don't know! Why don't I know! I can only say! Can my luck be a little better! Sigh, young people don't know! I'm thinking about this problem! What problem! Sigh, how can I not know! This is the process of growing up! Sigh, I probably never know! Hur hur, do I really not know! Sigh! I thought so! If you continue like this! You should know what to do! Hur hur, I can't really remember! I really can't remember! Damn it! Sigh, what a trap! I really don't know! Sigh, what a trap! Sigh, I thought so! Sigh, I really don't know! Hur hur hur! I'm thinking about that trap again! I actually don't know about it! Sigh, why don't I know about it! Sigh, what a trap! This problem! Sigh, I actually don't believe it! It's a deeper trap! It's still there! Hur hur! The trap I dug myself! I made myself jump! I'm not worthy of being a genius! I'm not worthy! It should be like this! Hur hur! What do I think! Is this matter that important? Sigh, but it's always been like this for so many years! I can't believe it! I really don't know about it! Forget it, it's all in the past now! My heart is heavy! I'm not crazy! It seems like I can't grow up! Hur hur, look at what I was like back then! I should know about it myself! Why can't I understand it! Sigh! I probably still don't know about it! Is there any difference now?! I'll be honest! Is there really any difference?! There really isn't any difference, okay! I still don't understand myself! Some things are all fate! Hur hur, it's also a good thing! Otherwise! I'm crazy! I don't know anything anymore! In the 11th year! Sigh, it's all a trap! I probably don't know about it! I was in the second year of high school! Then in the 12th year of high school! Damn it! I'm really awesome at this level! Do I even have a choice! I don't understand! If I had made a different choice back then! What would that be like! Hur hur! If I could be more normal! I said if! Damn it! Damn it! I should have graduated from university this year! Hur hur! I actually believed it! Sigh, I really don't understand! Transferring back to another school, damn it, the textbooks are different! I can't take it anymore! My trap! I probably still don't know about it! It's good that I lost! I can only go crazy! If it's possible! I should have graduated from university this year! But if that's the case! There wouldn't be the me now! Don't I feel regretful! Now it seems! It's a good thing! If I had graduated from university this year! I wouldn't have had the chance to get to know my wife! Damn it! Is this a good thing? I really don't know! My wife is still the best! My trap! Maybe this is our fate! But some time ago! I've scolded her more than once! I'm wrong! I've been waiting for her for so many years! Damn it! How can I miss it like this! Sigh, I don't know! Sigh! Pay attention to your routine! It's so ridiculous! You brat! I probably don't know! I thought it was an illusion! Sigh, my hand speed is really slow! Why are there so many ifs! There aren't so many ifs! Damn! Maybe people like me will go crazy sooner or later! Going crazy is a good thing! Why don't I know! Sigh, it's too scary! I really don't know! A person who is too persistent! Goes crazy easily! It's painful not to go crazy! Fortunately, I'm crazy! It's also because of the pressure! Hur hur! What a scam! Why don't I know! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, it's too scary! I actually don't believe it! I don't know! Sigh, I really don't know! It's really my own problem! Sigh, it's so scary! What can I do by myself! Why don't I know! Sigh, I thought so! I don't understand! I'm numb! Silly boy! This is such a trap! I'm thinking about a problem! Do I have a choice! Other than writing a book! To be honest! I really don't know! Sigh, is this really a good question! Don't tell me I don't know! Sigh, is this really a good question! Don't tell me I don't know anything! Damn! Most of the time, I don't have a choice! Sigh! That's so sad! It's really not that easy for me! Sigh, I need to think about it properly! I'm thinking about the problem from back then! What! There's no need to think about it! It's useless! Hehe, it's quite sad! To be able to meet someone with my talent! It's really such a trap! Damn it! Of course, I really don't know! Sigh, this is a problem! Sigh, I actually know! There's no result! Why bother! That's great! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, it's not that easy! Sigh, I don't know! I thought so! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, but I don't know! Sigh, I really don't know! I might not believe it! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, these are all good questions! I really don't know! Sigh, it's too scary! Let me feel it properly! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, I actually don't know! Sigh! Let me think about it properly! This problem! What is it! Alas, I don't really understand it myself! Sigh, I don't know! What a scary feeling! I really don't know! Sigh, I thought so! Sigh, it's really scary! Sigh, I really don't think so! Sigh, I actually believe it! It's really not a trick! I really don't know! I actually believe it! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, I thought so! Sigh, it's really scary! Damn! Pay attention to the trick! Damn it! Right now, my hand speed is so slow that I feel like I'm hallucinating! I really don't want to accept it! Damn! Why don't I feel anything at all! I'm really going to die! Can I have an opinion? What should I do? Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, these are all good questions! Why don't I know! Sigh, I don't know! Sigh, what a scam! Don't I know! Sigh! I can't help but think about the problem of my wife! Sigh, this matter isn't that easy! Let me feel it properly myself! Sigh, this is a problem! What can I do! It's really not that easy! Let me feel it properly myself! Sigh, this is really a problem! Sigh! Damn! Why? I have a problem! People like me! I'm not a man! People like me! I'm a lackey! But why is that! Damn, I'm a lackey! Damn! But that's sad! Lackey to the extreme! Then I can lead! How should I put this! Why don't I know! Damn! Actually, I don't know either! People like me are pure lackeys! I should be clear about this! Maybe I don't know! I hope my wife will be well! Damn! Damn, this is really a good question! I actually believe it! I'm probably still not clear! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh, I don't know! Sigh! Sigh, it's really difficult! This matter! Sigh, it's not that easy! Sigh, I don't know! This question! It's a good question! I actually don't know! Sigh! I thought I knew! There are some things that I don't know! Now, this question! What does it mean! Why don't I know anything! What should I say! Sigh, I don't know! I thought it was! Sigh, I'm a little confused! Damn! Move aside, don't worry about this question! I'm thinking about my wife! Damn! That's enough! Can't you speak properly! Pay attention! This question! Sigh! I might not know! Sigh, this is really a good question! I'm getting more and more unclear! What does this matter! Sigh, I'm still immature! Damn! A mental patient can't mature! Especially a mental patient like me! To me, maturity! It's probably impossible! So! Maturity isn't innate! But childishness is innate! So, I'm very talented! A mental patient like me! That's really enough! Sigh! Maybe it's because of my illness! My illness is still very complicated! I don't really understand it either! Based on my own situation! It's Alzheimer's disease! Plus schizophrenia! Damn! How should I put this! This illness is still relatively easy to deal with! Get this illness! It's also very high-end! Hur hur, this illness is not something that ordinary people can get! Hur hur! Do I have any violent tendencies?! Yes or no! Yes! If no one provokes me! I won't hit them! I'm not looking down on people! I don't even look at people! I don't even want to use the time to look down on people! I won't look! Haha! I look down on you! That also requires capital! For people like me! The only person I can look down on is myself! I don't look at other people! Because I know that I don't understand! I only love my wife! Can you be any more fake! Damn it! You're an animal! Sigh! Hur hur, that's not the main point! Speaking of mental illness like me! I still don't understand it! I definitely have violent tendencies! It's just that it's not too big! If I get angry! I still hit them! Moreover, my methods are the brutal kind! Hur hur! I also believe it now! Of course, it's not that boring! According to my fighting history! It's like this! But I'm afraid of going to jail! Now, I'm not afraid! In the past, I always had scruples when I fought! I was afraid of ruining my future! Damn it! I'm afraid! At that time! Someone else picked a fight! I beat him up! When he beat me up! I didn't fight back! Damn it! What a scam! This matter! Sigh, I even knelt down and admitted my mistake! Sigh, it's really a scam! Damn it! Hur hur, I didn't expect it! I was really afraid! I only realized later! I'm afraid it didn't work! That's why I'm an extreme lackey character! There's no mistake about that! This isn't the only time I'm a lackey! Damn it! Let's talk about it when there's a chance! Sigh, it's really not that easy! Damn it, it's really a scam! It's all in the past! Why should I care so much! Actually, I don't even know how to read it! But I only realized it now! My mental illness! I really need to rely on writing! Only then can I maintain my consciousness! Taking medicine won't work! Hur hur! When I act up! That's what gives me this belief! These are all tricks! Haha!