Do I know a problem! What problem! My mental illness is acting up now! I thought my mental illness wouldn't act up! I really didn't expect it! Mental illness acting up! It can't be that easy! This is a very enjoyable process! Of course, that's all a lie! My heart is in a mess! I've fallen into a blank! I might not understand! Maybe I'll never know! It's impossible for me not to know! Young people can't be more serious! Actually, maybe I really don't understand! I'll continue to feel it! I really don't know! Maybe I'm destined to fail! Hehe, is that important! Anyway, I have a fatal weakness! Damn it! What! Other than being stupid and incompetent! Then, I really like women! There's no future! I think I like women! Will it become a person's weakness! Hehe, it seems like I still don't understand myself! This is the feeling of courting death! Stirring up trouble! That's every creator's specialty! I will not be an exception to this! Of course, this is a very one-sided understanding! Stirring up trouble is too tiring! It's just that there are more reasons and excuses! It's not very useful! The pressure is not small! Think about it! I need to think about it carefully! Some problems aren't just a matter of being confused! That's really the case! My ability to survive is really much worse than a normal person! Is that important! People who don't even know how to fail! What can I do! Actually, I still don't understand! Sometimes, the more I understand myself! The calmer I am! I know what I can do! Sigh, please be more careful! I thought so! Actually, most of the time, the ending isn't important! It's not a matter of persevering or giving up! Of course! Looks like I still don't understand myself well enough! I just want to ask a very simple question! What can those so-called rich people do! What do I know! Use your brain when you speak! That's really enough! Do I feel at ease leaving my wife to these people! I don't know anything! There are definitely a lot of scumbags in this world! Who can guarantee that the people she meets! Are better than me! I don't dare to use her life as a bet! Let me think about it myself! This sentence! I heard her say it before! What does that mean! When we first met! Not long! About 20 days or so! Haha! She actually said this to me! Sigh, my balls hurt! I still remember it better! I still don't know! Sigh, I can't calm down! These are all problems! Forget it! Who can't live the life of a rich person! Use your brain! Do I still not know! I thought! Those rich people! What! It's not like I don't know! Sigh, if that's what she wants to choose! What would I do! I still don't understand myself well enough! It's not convenient for me to answer this question! Because I've already said it! I'm still a little black-hearted! But how should I say it! Sometimes, there's really no other way! I'll always be defeated by reality! Hehe! I don't believe you when you say it like that! Do you think I'll think that way! Damn it! What did I say! I said it simply! People like me who have no ability! Uncultured! People who have no connections! How can I survive! Damn it! Come on! Do you really think I'll think that way! Hehe! That's how the world sees me! If I don't work hard! How can I survive! Alright, I have to tell Brother Jian! There's no point in saying it like that! Tell me what you really think! Alright! Next! It's time to complain! Hehe, I'll think about it myself! To be honest! I don't want to compare myself to anyone! Because it's really useless! Everyone is more or less different! There's no point in winning! I'm not that bored! But I wasn't like this in the past! Alright, there's meat to eat! That's good! I'll just be content! Sometimes, how should I put it! I've been bullied since I was young! I don't have any objections! Hehe! Forget it! Actually, I couldn't accept it at that time either! This is a problem left behind by history! It's useless! Reality has taught me a truth! Sigh! Sometimes, people fail because they're too smart! Fools won't fail! Because they don't know what failure is! The me in the past! If it's like now! That would be a tragedy! Those guys! What kind of ending! It's not like I don't know! Forget it! I don't have the energy to complain! I don't know if I've written those things before! I don't have any impression of them! Anyway, the idea exists! I'm writing such rubbish now! Maybe it's not my fault! Why? It's a little hypocritical to say it like that! No teacher has ever given me special treatment! Damn it! Forget it! Can't you be more understanding! These teachers are also humans. They also need to eat! To speak my conscience! They didn't teach me anything! Forget it! This problem! I have to speak with my conscience! I'll feel it myself! Maybe I still don't know! There's nurturing! I've told you before! Nurturing is digging a hole! Don't you know what digging a hole is! Damn it! I'll think about it myself! The me in the past was purely a fool! Hur hur, I felt like a fool! I felt like it was alright! Actually, it was because I wasn't satisfied! That's why I went crazy! There's a huge difference between desire and reality! Hur hur! I didn't adjust it properly! When I went crazy! I wanted to find a girlfriend! Damn it! It's been so many years! Only then did I see the so-called hope! Sigh! It's all tears! I should pay attention to some details! Maybe I don't know! Alright, that's all in the past! So I have to pay attention in the future! Actually, what I need to do now is very simple! Don't think too much! Just treat my girlfriend well! The rest is really not that important! Is the ending important? I want to know! Hur hur, this question is hard to answer! Actually, maybe I don't know that much! Hur hur, I'll feel it myself! I'll definitely feel like I'm shrinking back! But there's also a lot of motivation to move forward! I want to take good care of her! But I might not be able to do it! I'm afraid that the relationship won't be stable! That's very tragic! After all, I'm a mental patient! I can't handle it! With my family background! If I get a divorce! It's impossible in this lifetime! It's not that I'm afraid! This kind of thing is too common now! I need to think about it! I'm more muddle-headed and incompetent than I thought! Damn it! I actually have times where I'm not confident! Of course, this is the reality! I might not even let her have a meal! Reality is always so tragic! There's no other way! Hur hur, I'll feel it myself! But I might not be able to face this problem alone! Sigh, use your brain! My Brother Jian! Of course, this is not a problem! Hur hur, you can defeat me! Definitely not money! I still need to understand this point! I still have some hesitation! I'm definitely afraid! I know I'm incompetent! Isn't that good? This matter! I say I'm awesome! I don't understand myself at all! I'll feel it myself! A person who can't even afford to eat! What qualifications do I have to marry a wife! Hur hur! Is that important? One must have determination when doing things! Why don't I understand! No matter what, one must have determination! To live, one must bear everything! Why don't I have determination! Actually, the ending is not important! I'm thinking about a problem! What problem? Actually, I should know it! Sigh! I'm still afraid! Sigh, young man! I can't stay calm! Think about some problems yourself! For example! What I think I should do! Alright! That's really the case! Sometimes, I'm indeed a bit arbitrary! Don't I know! People like me are too realistic! Some people say that I live in my own world! I actually believe it! Hur hur! I can feel quite a lot of things! Hur hur, life is a process of dreaming! I've woken up from my dream! Basically! Life is almost at its end! So! I still need to learn how to dream! Dreams don't need money! Why not! Damn! It's actually free! I'll reluctantly take it! Why don't I know! Sigh, reality is always cruel! I'm getting more and more clear! Isn't this way good? Can I use my brain a little! Living is cruel! That means living is real! Actually, I still don't understand it enough! Regarding the problem of girlfriends! I'm still a little hesitant! Because I know that I'm just a psychopath! That's really enough! I'm a failure no matter what I do! I'm even a lunatic! I'm also a failure! Sigh! It's hopeless! You brat! Failure is a good thing! Didn't I say it before! You can still fail when you're the biggest success in life! Can you use your brain a little! That's something that can't be helped! I don't need to worry about these problems! I don't have any big goals! It's fine as long as I have meat to eat! Hehe! I want to eat meat every day! It's good that my dreams are simple! Maybe the happiest thing in life isn't how much I have! It's not about how much I want to have! It's about knowing what I have! Then I actually said that! I want to know what I have! Hehe! This answer should be simpler! I have the characteristics of every group of people! Selfishness! Ignorance and superstition! I have them all! I thought I didn't have them! Actually, I have them too! The characteristics of anyone! They can all be found in me! There's also persistence! Hehe! There's also scum! I need to pay attention to these problems myself! What do I have! I don't have anything! That's good! Thinking like this! My mentality is very relaxed! I don't have anything in the first place! Hehe, this feels good! Whose girlfriend is it? I really can't be sure! So I still need to work hard! I'll think about it carefully! This problem! It's not that important! It's tiring to have so many things! Fortunately, I don't have anything! That's still good! I might fail! I can't be sure about this! There's a chance of success! But I need to work hard! Because it's not that easy to maintain a relationship! Sigh! What a scam! I still don't have the determination to do it! Can it get better! I think about it myself! Well, what should I do! Working hard to make a living is definitely a must! No matter what, I have to work hard! My state is a little off! I'll think about it carefully! What does this count as? Sigh, it's really painful! I'll make my own choice! I think about it myself! Sigh, what a sad feeling! I'll feel it carefully myself! Sigh, I'm really not that clear! I'll think about it carefully myself! This is a good question! I probably don't know it myself! My state is a little off! Damn! What's going on! I'll go and scare people! Like this! Sigh! I might not understand it! Sigh, this is indeed a big problem! I'll think about it carefully myself! What kind of state is this! I'm scared to death! Sigh, what a scary look! I'll think about it carefully myself! Sigh, what a scary feeling! I don't know! It's so uncomfortable! Sigh, it's really not that easy! I might not know it myself! Sigh, this is so sad! I won't know it myself! Sigh, what a sad feeling! What does this count as? It's really a serious problem! I think about it myself! Sigh, it's not that important! Damn, this looks like a trap! I have to say! This is a problem! Sigh, the mood is gone! Damn! This looks a little serious! Hehe! I might not know it! Seems like it's really not easy to write something! I'll feel it carefully myself! I need a quiet environment! Damn it! It's better for me to write quietly! I'll be easily disturbed! Damn it! I only just realized that there's such a problem! Hehe, the sooner I realize it, the sooner I can treat it! Only then can I increase the probability of recovery! Damn, I actually only realized it now! So what! I seem to have thought of something! Damn it! When I was writing! I only realized it now! Usually, it's just one person having sex! Then there's nothing else! I need a quiet environment! How can I not immerse myself in it! Damn! It's all a trap! This is a problem with the state of mind! Why do I feel that! I'm burying myself in it! Sigh, it's really a good problem! Sigh, I only realized that there's such a problem now! I was wondering! But I usually write indoors! Because of the feeling of contrast! Basically, I write at night! Outdoors! I really don't have any other situations! I can't immerse myself without the state of mind! I like to write in a relatively enclosed space! Because I feel a certain kind of feeling! At this time, it's like there's only one person there! Haha! Maybe I'm not too clear about it! Sigh, what a good problem! I have to consider this! Maybe I don't know that much! Sigh! I'm destined to fail! I'll just feel it myself! I only know about this problem now! It's very serious! This is the so-called autism! Haha! Theoretically speaking! That's impossible! Sigh, young people like to eat melons! I still need to know about this! I'm getting more and more unclear! I don't know about this! Sigh, can you use your brain! What do I think! Sigh, the problem is always very serious! Sigh, I probably don't understand! I probably don't know! Sigh, how scary! Sigh, the problem is really serious! Hehe! What a trap! I'm getting more and more confused! Actually, this is a trap! It's totally a problem! I'm thinking of a lot of things! Sigh! I probably don't know that much! I'm thinking about it myself! Sigh! I probably won't know forever! That's a good thing! Don't tell me I don't know! Sigh, what a sad scene! I probably won't understand it myself! I only know now! It's all a trap! I thought I could know! Often, I think I know! Maybe I'm not clear about it myself! Sigh! It's very scary! I'll think about it carefully myself! Sigh, but that's not the point! I don't have the leisure to care about these things! Sigh, I probably won't know forever! Sigh! This is a good problem! How can I not know! Sigh, it's not that easy! I'll feel it myself! Maybe it's a little sad! I can become who I am now! It's already very awesome! Damn! You're crazy! You're bragging again! I'm talking about living under my current living conditions! I can still be so annoying! Looks like it's really annoying! Hehe! But that's not the point! I don't have time to care about this! I only care about one problem! Can you take good care of your girlfriend? Nothing else is important! There's nothing I can do! Sigh! The pressure is definitely huge! Slowly, I'll understand it! I thought I didn't know! I don't think I know either! There's always a lot of traps! I can't stand the test of time anymore! No one is not afraid of time! I thought! I won't be afraid! I should know! I'm most afraid of time! I like time to stop! That's impossible! There are some things I don't want to know the ending! What if my girlfriend doesn't want me! I can't accept that! The problem is so direct! I actually don't know! Of course, I need to pay attention to this problem! I might not know yet! Sigh! I need to work hard! I'll feel it myself! Let time stop for a while! I'll always be afraid! At the ending! Damn! It's all a trap! Some things are definitely harmful and afraid to face! I didn't think I would be so afraid! I probably don't know yet! I need to think about it carefully! I hope she can live a better life! That's no matter what the situation is! I hope I can do it! Can't I put in more effort! Can we still be friends! Sigh, I probably don't know yet! I'll think about it carefully! The problem is always a trap! There are too many things I need to consider! Think about it! Damn it! It's good to be confused for a while! Why! I'm confused! Time passes while I'm confused! At least I won't put in the effort to gamble! Of course, I was a gambling addict back then! I've actually quit! I've also smoked before! I don't smoke anymore! There's no reason to smoke! I don't drink alcohol either! Because I don't drink alcohol! I have the ability to forget things! Hehe! Sure enough, there are many benefits to being mentally ill! When I was gambling back then! What did it look like! It was a little crazy! Damn! I can still remember it vividly! I was dragged down by someone else! Sigh! That's right, it's a so-called good friend! I was brought over to gamble! So! I don't trust anyone now! Can you be more ridiculous! That's not the point! I still trust my girlfriend! Of course! Although I had a similar experience before! But how should I say it! I was taken away by someone else! Damn! It's all a trap! I don't remember it that clearly! Let me think about it carefully! When was it! It should be! About 10 years ago! 2007! People like me have a weaker personality! I went to the arcade! I was bullied a lot! Forget it, it's all tears! Let me think about it carefully! Sigh! At that time! Fortunately, I was young! Weak personality! Otherwise, I would have definitely failed! I wouldn't have the current me! Fortunately, I went online a little later! At 16 years old! I only started to go online! Hur hur! Things like going online! Would it really be useless! I feel it myself! But it's still alright! I'm really glad! Back then, I didn't go online very early! When I was addicted to going online! I was in high school then! Basically, my personality was more or less formed! Because how should I put it! If I had been brought online by these people in junior high! I wouldn't have the current me! Damn it! Sometimes! It's really a matter of timing! If I had gone online at that time! I wouldn't even know what I'm doing now! I'm very emotional! The so-called fate and opportunity! Forget it! Forget about things like internet cafes! I don't go online much now! Anyway, I still have to play the game! I've been playing this game since 2009! Anyway, how should I put it! Sigh, don't place too much emphasis on benefits! Damn! At the right time! Do the right thing! It's really important! Although I was a gambling addict back then! It's still alright! Fortunately, I have a weak personality! Otherwise, I would be laughing now! I wouldn't have the chance to meet my current girlfriend! Then, there must be some regrets! Sigh! I have to say, things like fate! It's really amazing! Therefore, I should cherish her even more! I was lucky that I was a fool back then! I didn't know how to go online at all back then! My parents were stricter! Otherwise, I would be finished! But I should really feel emotional! A lot of things have turned into memories! Sigh, it's all a trick! I should have been clear about it! Sigh, I probably don't know! Carefully feel it yourself! Maybe I don't know! Sigh, pay attention to this problem! It's still alright! How should I put this problem back then! It's still alright back then! And I honestly learned some theories! These theories are definitely enough! Otherwise, it would be really sad! I might have learned too many things! I probably didn't have the time to properly digest it! I have this kind of feeling! Do you think knowledge is so easy to use? It's still alright! How should I put this crazy thing! It's indeed twice the result with half the effort! My comprehension speed is faster than normal people! If I'm not a lunatic! If I'm in a normal situation! If I go and understand some things! Maybe in this lifetime! I can't! That's why I kind of understand it now! That sentence is a classic! To succeed, one must first go crazy! There's no time! I've let you experience so many things! Being crazy is the fastest way! Of course, it's something that can withstand madness! It's perseverance! It's persistence! You're kidding me! A person who isn't persistent! Can you be crazy! Haha! You still need to be persistent enough! That can't be helped! This is a trap! I don't know if it's good or bad! I might never know! I'll always be a fool! What kind of life is that! Sigh, I won't know this possibility! Because there's something! There's no second chance! So! I should cherish my girlfriend even more! Sigh! It's fine as long as I understand all this! Sigh, but there's definitely a component to these things! But I have to say! There are pros and cons to being crazy! Damn! What do I think! Going crazy! People will break down! Of course, I don't know! Sigh, there will definitely be headaches! Of course, this isn't the main point! What I want to know is! Can I be together with my girlfriend! My current creative output has shrunk a little! I only have one month's worth of writing now! Sigh! It's too little! It's not stable! There will definitely be regrets! One month now! I don't think there's even 150,000! If only there were 150,000! There won't be any! Because of these things! I can't be sure anymore! Sigh, there's no other way. I have to make a living! In the past, I could easily write 300,000 a month! Now! Actually, it's been a long time since I wrote 200,000 a month! I don't even have 200,000 a month anymore! It's been going on for a long time! It should be 5 months now! Creative output! It's still not enough! Sigh, it feels so serious! These 5 months! It's been intermittent all along! There aren't many manuscripts left now! From 3 PM to 1 PM! What have I been through! There's no other way! Forget it! I'm so tired that I can't write anymore! There's no way I can do anything about this! I'll just have a good feel for it myself! Sigh, maybe I don't know! Pay attention to these problems! I'll think about it carefully! This matter! Sigh, I remember when I was in junior high! I wrote an English essay! Hur hur, I actually don't understand! Haha! These guys aren't my opponents at all, right? Onlookers! I can tell you! Back then, I couldn't even see the blackboard! These guys! How can they compare with me! They're not my match at all! I was in the second semester of my third year of junior high! Glasses that I got! Still okay! Grandpa! This is a good question! According to the state I'm in! How should I put it! Getting into high school is really not a problem! Those things are not difficult! Because I couldn't see the blackboard at all! There are too many tricks! Anyway, I didn't get into high school! Actually, this problem! I didn't know about it in the past! Only now did I realize that I didn't have the habit of looking at it! Hur hur! I actually only know about it now! Alright! If I didn't fail back then! How could I have gone crazy! Otherwise, I wouldn't have the perseverance! How did all of this come about! The tricks are too deep! Because I insisted on believing in myself! No matter how difficult the questions were! I would solve them all! Death solution! Hur hur, although I didn't solve it! But I had the perseverance! Because that Fatty Wang didn't give me special treatment! Forget it! I was thinking too much! I didn't comprehend it enough! If that guy gave me special treatment! I'm done for! Fortunately, I didn't! Some things don't depend on whether I know it or not! It depends on whether I want to know it or not! I only understood it now! Anyway, I failed the high school entrance examination! Not to mention the college entrance examination! I participated in an adult's exam! Although I passed it lying down! But to really talk about academic level! It was really lacking a little! Hur hur! Let me properly feel it myself! I'm a failure! I should know! The person who should be complaining the most is not me! I lost to myself! Damn it! The person who should be a writer the most is not me! Hur hur, this reminds me of someone! Must I carry the dreams of others? A person like me is suitable to eat melons! Sigh, I'm destined to fail! Sigh! I can accept failure! Because I'm the most suitable! The person who should be writing the most! It's not me! The person with the most creative talent is definitely not me! Damn it! I should have been clear! I'm just passing by! I'm not suitable for writing! You're actually saying this to me! Sigh! That's really enough! I just remembered it now! Maybe I won't understand it in the future! But it should be from a theoretical point of view! The person with the most faith should be me! Of course, the form of expression! To put it simply! The most pretentious! The most hypocritical person is me! Sigh! Hur hur, the most foolish person is also me! I've been tricked a lot! Damn it! He actually made me stand up and write! Ten years ago! I should have known that I couldn't do it! Sigh! Damn it! It's all a problem! To put it nicely, it's the most convincing! To put it in layman's terms! It's the easiest to be deceived by others! Damn it! I don't know how to write anything at all! Old Liu's words! It left a deep impression on me! This sentence! I'll remember it! What's with the hur hur! Damn! There's a reason for me to be unrestrained! That's what Old Liu said! Hur hur! I remember it too clearly! Sigh! What did he say! Was the essay well written?! It's not about the score! What does he mean! That's it! Good things don't need everyone's approval, right?! I just remembered it now! At that time, I felt very strange! At that time! When it came to writing! It belonged to the enlightenment stage! Forget it! There were a lot of bystanders! They were all excerpts from the internet! Damn it! I wrote it myself, alright! Although it's true that I wrote it a little trashy! The trashiest thing I've ever written! Except for this book! Except for after I wrote it! It should be that routine! Sweat the size of a fist! And a synopsis as long as a youtiao! Damn it! I don't know how to write at all! Maybe no one has written a longer synopsis than me! The longest synopsis I've ever written! It should be! It's something that happened in 2003! Hur hur! I remember it too clearly! The synopsis of Hunter Haireb! I don't know how to write at all! It might be a typo! That's not the main point! I didn't expect that! My attitude saved me! No one helped me at that time! Haha! I don't know either! Damn it! That's so suffocating! How did I write the synopsis! At that time! I can't understand it at all! What righteousness! What synopsis gives me a headache! How did I write the synopsis! I don't know how to write it at all! I copy it at intervals! Occasionally! What else! Hur hur! Alright! That should be the longest essay for primary school students! And the synopsis of the story! This should be the longest essay I've ever written! Sigh! I've also done something like cheating before! Don't think that I don't have experience in cheating! I thought that people like me would be so pretentious!