The psychosis of an individual

Chapter 73

I keep feeling that Ah Fei!

He's looking down on me!

That's it!

That guy is really too much!

I thought that he was the future me!

He can't be me!

Is there something wrong with your brain!

I really don't know how he found me!

He found me the moment I started writing!

My first novel!

And now I still want to write!

If I can write, why not!

I don't have that feeling anymore!

I've had a change of heart!

There's no female lead!

It's really sad!

Brother Ah Fei!

Just thinking about it is painful!

I can't face him!

I don't have the courage!

Him and Yoko!

We have a very intimate relationship!

I'm so sad!

Actually, it's not like that!

I was very sad at that time!

Now, it's mainly because I can't think straight!

Why can't I be together with Yoko!

Yoko and I are not from the same world!

But Yoko and Mengping are both worth remembering!

That's it!

I've done some wretched things!

Xiangxue!

My only female online friend!

The only female online friend who doesn't make me have any evil thoughts!

I feel very relaxed when I chat with her!

Although I don't have any feelings of being moved!

But we can still be friends!

Towards those who are moved by me!

The pressure is too great!

I can tell that other girls have evil thoughts just by looking at them!

They have everything!

Let's not talk about them!

Just those!

Don't I have done a lot of bad things?

The Internet is full of rascals!

There's no banquet that doesn't end!

That's it!

I'm pretending to be a freak again!

Why are you pretending to be a good person!

Will you die if you don't pretend?

I can write about my previous psychology!

All the girls like me!

Because I'm very outstanding!

In fact, that was extremely wrong!

Now it seems that even ghosts don't like me!

I must have been possessed!

There was such a feeling!

It was similar to this!

Looks like this ghost also wants to write novels!

I'm not the only one who wants to write!

Writing novels is your own business!

What the hell!

This is where you're wrong!

When I was in junior high school!

Our teacher taught us how to learn composition!

Find inspiration!

That was to experience life!

At that time, I began to accumulate!

Otherwise, I wouldn't have so many feelings!

However, he could still come into contact with online literature!

This is also my beginning!

At that time, I was fantasizing that a certain novel was written by me!

That was absolutely impossible!

Now it seems that I can't write that kind of thing!

I'm not going back to write either!

I've long tried writing!

He had always hoped that he could succeed!

It was just a feeling that was missing!

Then, it flared up!

This ghost really gave me a lot of motivation!

The ghost is trying to control me!

Do you have money to spend on controlling me?

It was fun!

I think you've been played too much!

That's it!

It was truly beautiful!

I can't take it!

This feeling!

It was really good!

Haha!

I felt that I was too weak!

Self-righteous!

That feeling came out again!

Thinking of the past!

When I went to and from school!

I needed someone to pick me up!

That was after I wrote that essay!

Just like that, I walked on!

This path!

There was definitely more than one ghost in my head!

Preliminary estimation!

There was a righteous ghost!

There was an evil ghost!

Righteous and evil alternated!

That's it!

There was also a lazy ghost!

There was also a silly ghost!

There was also a little ghost!

There were at least five of them!

They were alternating!

As long as I was alive!

They!

Existed forever!

There was software in my head!

You've watched too much sci-fi!

Why should I call you!

Just do what you want!

Give me a smile!

No, I'm not bullying you!

You want to write!

The rhythm of a freak becoming an adult!

Watch less adults!

It's a great help to me!

But the feelings of an adult are real!

This sound makes my bones go soft!

A numbing feeling!

My head is itching!

This feeling!

It's still very good!

En!

I'm a pervert!

That's it!

Haha!

You're still far from it!

I might write an adult!

Why do I feel like writing!

That kind of thing!

That's it!

That's my fault!

You've watched too many movies!

That's your fault!

The woman I like has already reached the point!

The point of becoming a devil!

I asked for it!

I can't control myself!

I have this feeling!

That's it!

I can't have it!

No wonder I'm in such a good state!

I'm daydreaming like a woman!

That's it!

I have this feeling!

Absolutely not!

I can't write for much longer!

I have to go back and cook!

Write for another five minutes!

This isn't good!

It doesn't exist!

Let's dance together!

I want a girl!

That's nothing!

Haha!

That won't do!

Let's go and cook!

I like you!

You're my goddess!

I love you!

You're too beautiful!

You're my pride!

I love you so much!

Let's dance together!

Let's dance with all our might!

Let's dance together!

It's so happy!

This feeling!

It's so good!

Could this be love!

I like it so much!

So enjoyable!

This feeling!

What I want is this fallen!

Today is a day of contradiction!

I might not be able to write ten thousand words!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

Goddess, I love you!

You're so beautiful!

I want to live for you!

That's enough!

There's a kind of love!

A feeling that goes to the head!

That's it!

I love you so much!

That's the problem!

Fighting is inevitable!

Fighting over a woman!

Women are definitely good things!

I'm not so valuable!

That's it!

I love your goddess so much!

I really love you so much!

Let's dance together!

You're too beautiful!

You're my favorite!

I love you the most!

That's it!

I love you the most!

You're too beautiful!

I can't describe your beauty with words!

I love you!

I want to dance together with you!

Happily dance!

Come!

Let's be together!

This afternoon!

It doesn't feel right!

My writing is slow!

Conflicting!

Although it's very enjoyable!

I love you goddess!

That's it!

You're definitely my goddess!

I love you so much!

I want to be with you!

I hope you can be my wife!

That way, we can be together forever!

I really love you!

Be together!

Never separate!

That's it!

I love you!

I hope you can love me too!

I don't just love you for loving me!

I like beautiful women a lot!

That's it!

My goddess!

One look and you can tell I'm a fickle woman!

My man!

Hollow radish!

You're talking nonsense!

When have I ever talked about it!

But you're a seeded player!

I can't do it without you!

I love you!

Just like how you love others!

I hate this feeling!

That's it!

I'm still far from it!

God!

If you really exist!

Just give me a goddess!

I love your goddess!

I can't!

I can't control my emotions anymore!

I need to release my emotions!

Therefore, this picture was a confession!

I love you!

Just like the blue sky and white clouds!

I love you!

Just like the table and chair!

It doesn't match without anyone!

I love you!

Just like the fish and water!

I can't live without you!

I love you!

That's how I love you!

I love you regardless of everything!

I love you deeply!

I

love

you!

Am

always

loveyou!

This love is strong!

Just like rain after a long drought!

This feeling!

There's hope!

I love you deeply!

I can't control my emotions anymore!

I'm going crazy!

This is the feeling!

Just like how Miss Wu likes to dance!

And I like to write novels!

No one watches when men dance!

I'm not writing novels!

It's loneliness!

Haha!

I understand now!

I love you!

I love everything about you!

I want to hug you so badly!

This feeling goes deep into my brain!

That's it!

I love you!

Just like how you love others!

My love is destined!

I'm going crazy!

But that won't do!

I can't just sit here and wait for you!

I have to do something!

So I'm writing novels!

Maybe you'll say I'm overthinking!

But I have to overthink for you!

You're so good!

How can I not think for you!

That's it!

I'm overthinking!

I love you like crazy!

But that's not enough!

I want to give you everything I have!

Although I don't have anything!

But I also want to give you my love!

I love you!

I love you so much!

I love you, I love you!

I love you!

I love you deeply!

Even if you don't love me!

I'll still love you!

I love you!

Goddess!

You're so beautiful!

You're the most beautiful in my heart!

I want to be with you!

But that's never possible!

Because you don't even know me!

I'm just a retard!

But I also crave love!

I love you!

I love you deeply!

I love everything about you!

Nothing can stop me!

My love for you!

I love you deeply!

I'll work hard to love you!

I'll love you for every second I live!

My heart is surging!

My love for you!

It's about to erupt!

I am an extinct volcano that has been reignited from ashes!

I love you!

But I can't!

Let you rise from the ashes!

I only love you now!

I don't love you in the future!

Forgive me for being so shallow!

I can't be with you for life!

Blame me for not being wholehearted!

Just for a moment of your beauty!

I love you!

I like your beauty!

That's it!

My emotions are about to erupt!

This feeling!

It's too exaggerated!

I'm bursting with inspiration!

If I don't write ten thousand today!

I won't be able to sleep at night!

I won't be able to sleep!

My heart is itching!

This is the feeling!

This feeling!

It's going to flop!

No way!

This is the feeling of flopping!

That's it!

A certain brother's novel!

It's not updated!

He said he would write it after the college entrance exam!

I'm looking forward to it!

Xi 'er!

She still has to write!

She's a contracted author!

She's way ahead of me!

I don't understand!

Xi 'er writes so well!

Why can't it become popular!

I'm like this!

I can't become popular!

It's not a coincidence!

It's inevitable!

That's what I think!

I have to write anyway!

Someone will read it!

I have to write it even if no one reads it!

So I have to be willful for once!

This isn't a reason for me to be willful!

Sometimes!

For some writers!

I feel pity!

It's a good novel!

But it doesn't become popular!

That's it!

My writing sucks!

It doesn't matter if it becomes popular or not!

The strange thing is that I feel that I've written it well!

Last year!

2014!

I've read one!

It's very well written!

I've said it before!

The author's name is Pen Tip!

Maybe she's already at a very high level!

I can't tell that she's a lunatic!

At that time!

I'm not called Ear Realization!

I won't say what I'm called!

Anyway, her writing style!

It's a few hundred times better than mine!

I feel that she's writing is very good!

I'll continue writing her novels!

Many good novels like this have been buried under the sea!

This feeling is very uncomfortable!

I can't do anything!

Write a novel!

I can still do it!

This kind of work is good!

It has a sense of the times!

I don't feel like writing!

It's too fantastical!

I don't like writing!

I can't write it either!

Do you know!

You keep writing like this!

You're scaring people again!

Enough!

I like to write something more practical!

I like that bloody feeling!

The one who writes the worst is definitely me!

I'm here to flop!

Others are so good, yet they flop!

I feel that!

I don't have to complain!

My mentality isn't good!

My attitude isn't right!

That's it!

My writing style!

I need more practice!

My brain isn't good either!

I can't write any plot!

I don't have any ideas!

I'm writing it with all my heart!

When I'm free!

I'll look for a sample!

I'll imitate it!

That's it!

Actually, I don't want to do this either!

I just feel that it's a pity!

Such a good theme!

Blow my brains out!

I can't think of anything!

At most, I've pursued my own teacher!

That's it!

I don't want to lie!

The real me is very unbearable!

There's no need to make myself too awesome!

I want to cry when I read it!

I can't write like that!

I can only write like that!

Why!

It's mainly because the protagonists written by other people are too awesome!

And I'm a retard to begin with!

I can't find a sample!

I don't have the qualities to be a protagonist!

I'm not miserable enough!

I went crazy at 18!

Am I not miserable enough?

At the age of a flower!

I still want to date!

I still want to get first place in the country!

I still want to go to Tsinghua University!

I still want to earn money!

I still want to be on Nasdaq!

Strike the bell!

I still want to become the richest man in China!

I still want to contribute to our country's socialist cause!

I want to make a huge contribution!

Hehe!

You're delusional!