I feel like!

I might starve to death at any moment!

I'm too useless!

I've realized my shortcomings!

I should correct them!

That's how it is!

How should I put it!

I feel terrible!

There are too many restrictions!

Alright, let's not talk about it anymore!

A new day has begun!

The college entrance exams will end today!

I wonder who the top scorer will be!

Anyway, it won't be me!

If there's a top scorer with the same name as me!

I won't have the face to stay in the writer's circle anymore!

I don't want to have the same name as the top scorer!

That's very!

Infuriating!

I should!

Be like this!

I don't understand!

I'm also considered a public figure!

How can it be like this!

That's how I am!

I have to say!

There's a problem!

A huge problem!

This is a problem!

What should I do!

Facing this world where there are so many talents!

I've had enough!

I feel terrible!

How should I put it!

It's just very terrible!

There are restrictions everywhere!

That's how it is!

The situation!

I feel terrible!

I'm a little worried!

I can't get over it!

I pressed the wrong button again!

Why am I feeling like this today!

I feel terrible!

I'm filled with emotions!

Today!

The person pressing the button is coming!

Just thinking about it is enough!

How can I!

You want me to pay for it!

Based on what!

I won't pay for it!

Why do you want me to pay for it!

I have no money!

I'm a mental patient!

Just a little!

Poor money!

My salary is only a little over a thousand!

I feel terrible!

But it's already like this!

What's the use of being sad!

What's the point of living!

What's there to fear about death!

It's just a matter of time!

I might as well be more direct!

I'll die sooner or later!

How should I put it!

I don't feel good!

I keep feeling like the next generation!

What kind of scum will they be!

I have this kind of scary feeling!

Because I'm the same!

How should I put it!

It's hard to say!

These situations are also within my imagination!

I can't say that it's impossible!

Anything is possible!

What's the use!

I'm now!

I have nothing!

But I don't want to!

I'm discrediting mental patients!

It's not good for anyone!

But I'm definitely not a good person!

I'm rotten to the core!

That's how it is!

I hate myself!

That's how!

I just want myself to understand!

What I have to do!

I have a problem!

A serious problem!

I hate myself!

I hate myself!

I don't!

I'll die!

But!

I'll die sooner or later!

No one can't die!

But how should I put it!

I'm a bad person!

I feel that I'm rotten to the core!

I want to write novels!

I really like writing!

I really like this feeling!

That's how it is!

I really hate myself!

The person I hate the most is actually myself!

I hate myself!

I'll die sooner or later!

No one will target me!

Because!

Everyone will target me!

This is a kind of society!

A different kind of society!

Haha!

No way!

It just can't!

How should I put it!

At least half of it!

My money!

Is it that easy to earn?

It's terrible!

I hate myself!

I'm talking to myself!

It feels like a rascal!

This is the reality!

So-called!

Moronic!

Writing a side!

I hate myself!

I hate myself!

I'm weak!

Useless!

Moronic!

Naive!

Self-righteous!

My everything!

I hate it all!

I want to beat myself to death!

I don't want to let myself have it easy!

Writing novels like this!

There's nothing bad about it!

It's just like this!

I hate myself!

Every minute!

I hate myself!

I'm troublesome!

How should I put it!

Now I'm pressing the button!

It's also annoying!

It's all about money!

Haha!

Go away!

I hate you!

I hate myself!

I'm lying to myself again!

I hate myself the most!

How should I put it!

I feel like I'm!

Like a dog!

I saw a girl!

Walking on the street!

It's already ten o 'clock!

I just came out from the arcade!

Her face isn't very good!

It's just a disguise!

But it's very trendy!

I only took a few glances!

The strange thing is!

I didn't notice!

Under the illumination of the lights!

She doesn't have a shadow!

What's going on!

She actually!

Has no ears!

Because!

Lies!

Want to cut off ears!

Looks like I'm talking nonsense!

Actually, it's nothing!

Compared to having no money!

It's even scarier!

That's it!

I plan to!

Write a ghost story in a factory!

Not now!

I haven't experienced it!

It must be very good!

But the plot is very old-fashioned!

That's because I have a guilty conscience!

I feel like I'm psychopathic!

I've read such novels before!

It's just like this!

I only have this brain power!

The plot isn't important!

As long as the details are handled well!

It's all good no matter what!

Details!

Determine success or failure!

How should I put it!

The stories now!

Are mostly similar!

I'm tired of reading them!

I like the different feeling!

That's it!

I can't stand it!

How should I put it!

I'm too far behind!

I don't have it easy at all!

Days without money!

Compared to days in horror novels!

Even scarier!

I'll starve to death any minute!

For the sake of this mouth!

It's still a waste of energy!

I might not be able to write today!

Ten thousand words!

But I still have to work hard!

Breakthrough!

That's it for me!

How should I put it!

This won't do!

You're still far behind!

You're not enough!

How can this do!

I'm a writer and editor now!

I can't tell the difference!

Some comrades!

I'm both an editor and a writer!

Why don't I have one!

This identity!

Editor!

I don't get paid!

It still depends on the readers!

Everyone depends on the readers to make a living!

Write like me!

It's probably the internet connection fee!

I can't even make a living!

The internet connection fee!

50 a month!

And it's for mobile phones!

I've had enough!

That's it!

It's unbearable!

I can't even earn my own internet connection fee!

My novel's first bucket of gold!

I don't know when it'll come!

No matter what!

I'll write!

Not necessarily!

I'll get paid!

But I won't write!

I definitely won't get paid!

Of course, I don't want to be a full-time writer!

I just want to write!

I don't really want that to happen!

I hope I can do it!

Writer!

Writer!

I'm also very proud!

I'm not clear-headed!

I keep making mistakes!

That's the situation!

The money now!

It's not enough!

It's time to go to work!

I don't know!

How much can I write!

I've never tried it before!

But I've experienced my first flop!

This one is much smoother!

Typing speed!

There's obvious improvement!

I'm not the one saying this!

Ordinary people these days!

They're definitely no match for me in typing!

I can even become a typist!

But a typist!

It's really hard to find a job like that!

How can there be such a leisurely job!

That's the situation!

My typing speed!

I still need to practice more!

If I don't practice, I'll be useless!

In the future!

I'll need it!

There's no harm in having more skills!

I understand this point!

How should I put it!

My typing speed!

I don't know if I'll have a chance to show it!

I still need to practice more!

That's the way!

Typing fast!

It's also a skill!

That's the way!

I still need to practice more!

What do you want to type!

That's the way!

Damn!

You're delusional again!

Your typing speed!

It's frighteningly fast!

I didn't expect!

I'll also have this so-called hand speed!

I used to envy others for having it!

Now I have it too!

I'm so happy!

It's just hand speed!

It's not just in a day or two!

I can master it!

I can even type five strokes!

But it's not fast enough!

I haven't studied it in depth!

That's the way!

I'm still far from it!

How can I!

I don't have any other special skills!

Naivety is my nature!

Being retarded is my trait!

That's the way!

I'm still far from it!

That's the way!

How should I put it!

Damn!

What I know is too little!

I don't have any skills that I can rely on!

That's the way!

Damn!

How can it be like this!

You can't do it!

You're still far from it!

You silly dog!

It's hard to say!

I'm just an ordinary person!

Writers aren't that high and mighty!

I'm the only one who thinks so!

No wonder I'm so confident!

Actually, I've only written a little!

I didn't do anything!

There's a price to pay to be a writer!

It's not something you can do just because you want to!

Although the entry requirements are very low!

Writing a book is definitely accumulated over time!

It's very difficult to reach the heavens in a single bound!

I just lack writing experience!

Although this isn't the first time I've written!

I'm also considered talented!

Although very few people know about me!

But I'm no longer a newbie writer!

I'm already old!

I've wanted to write for a long time!

But I didn't have the chance!

I was impetuous in the past!

I was delusional about the feeling of becoming famous overnight!

But why can I do it!

You can do it!

Why can't others do it!

This is the problem!

Thinking!

This isn't the first time I've done it!

I'm thinking about why!

To get first place!

That's what I thought!

I didn't see how stupid those guys were!

I just can't understand this!

The past has become a memory!

My novel!

It's also a form of remembrance!

I'm very envious!

The feeling of others going on stage to receive an award!

Later on, I didn't like it!

I'm not the only one who forgot!

Or something!

There was an intramural competition!

I think I got third prize!

I couldn't stand the cold at that time!

But I really don't know how to do those questions!

I don't know if it's an illusion!

I can't verify it either!

There must be a competition!

I couldn't stand the cold!

I didn't want to face the third prize!

Brother Yong was a second-rate!

Class monitor!

At that time!

Xia Han!

He was considered my biggest rival!

I had too many illusions!

I don't know what's real!

What's fake!

Xia Han!

This person!

He really exists!

This guy!

I won't mention it!

Our competition has just begun!

If not for!

I'm not in a good condition!

If not for!

I'm crazy!

I'm one of the top ten students in the school!

I'm definitely one of them!

But so what if I lost!

This doesn't mean that I'm useless!

Losing isn't scary!

I can't get up!

That's what's scary!

I need two hours to finish one chapter!

One hour!

At most 1,800!

I still can't do it!

The past!

It's already a thing of the past!

But!

I feel like I have an opponent!

It's just different!

Xia Han!

You'll always be my opponent!

I still have an opponent!

It's Gao Xin!

He's my junior high school classmate!

That guy!

I wonder how he's doing now!

His results are good!

It's as if I'm back in school again!

If not for the fact that I'm crazy!

I'll definitely fight with these guys again!

But how should I put it!

I'm!

Afraid!

A female opponent!

No!

If there's really one!

Then there's no one!

They're all my favorites!

I have no opponents now!

There's no pressure at all!

The current me!

Among my peers!

I'm the most educated!

This feeling of having no opponents!

It's so light!

My biggest opponent is myself!

I don't want to compete with anyone!

I've passed!

The age to get first place in the country!

That's my dream!

My past dream!

But I've forgotten it now!

How can that be!

If not for my illusions!

I'm crazy!

With my fighting spirit!

Top scorer!

Why am I always in my turn!

I'm not bragging!

I'm crazy!

I can always get first place!

Of course, this is just talk!

The real competition has just begun!

I'll fight!

I'll fight to the end!

It's a harmonious society now!

Now I have no fighting spirit!

All that's left is rascal!

That's it!

I don't like it!

I'm too competitive!

Who are you trying to fool!

Then why are you still playing games every day!

Upgrade!

That's a contradiction!

I have to change my fighting spirit from games!

Move to the real world!

Reality is all rascal!

It's a harmonious society now!

There's nothing to fight about!

My main thing now is!

Want!

What should I do!

Write a good novel!

Find a job!

It's really a waste of time!

That's not wrong at all!

Alright!

I plan to!

Get an award!

Get an award when I'm done!

That's right!

That's the feeling I want!

That can't be done!

I can't remember!

Sometimes I can't remember!

I'll lose my memory!

That's it!

I'm still far from it!

If!

If what!

That's enough!

The person who pressed the button hasn't come yet!

What's going on!

No way!

I've written enough!

That can't be done!

If there's no distinction between arts and science!

The competition will be even more intense!

There's only one top scorer!

That's the situation!

I've completely lost!

Who said!

I can't get first place!

I can't lead a good life!

I have human rights!

My thinking is extremely wrong!

How can that be!

I can't have such thinking!

Now I know why there's something wrong with my brain!

I can!

Lose!

That's not scary!

What's scary is that I can't get up after losing!

I'm that kind of person!

Now I don't want to compete anymore!

I feel that it's useless!

Time is precious!

I might as well write a novel!

Walk towards the world of the heart!

That's it!

Alright!

The chapters should be as long as possible!

That's right!

I can't say that!

Give me a little more!

What am I going to say?

I'm in a good mood!

I'll write another 200 words!

I used to think that I was!

Insufferably arrogant!

Without me, the earth won't turn!

That's wishful thinking!

I've exhausted my youth!

I can still write for half an hour!

What should I say!

I don't want to listen to songs and write novels now!

That's not good for my hearing!

That's it!

I've had enough!

That's it!

What should I say!

That can't be done!

I can't forgive myself for being useless!

I hate myself!