I woke up early in the morning. I had a relapse last night, so I didn't write!

It's really not good. I've been thinking too much about the affairs between men and women!

My desire can't be realized, so it becomes an illness!

Now that I've recovered, I'm still thinking about it. Really, I'm advancing wave after wave!

May 1st is the day my novel, A Mental Illness, is officially uploaded!

Remembrance, May 1, 2015!

Although it's not my first time writing a novel, the first time is for a girl!

Will the second time be an exception?

I don't know!

I don't seem to know!

I'm both unfortunate and lucky!

Perhaps the legend is true. When God closes a window, he will definitely open a door for you!

The more you fear, the stronger you will be!

This is a classic joke!

Yesterday, when I had a relapse, I even had thoughts of dying!

After that, I almost couldn't live anymore. Living is too tiring!

Of course, I don't understand. After ten at night, I feel better. In the future, I should think less about the affairs between men and women. It's a heinous sin!

If I think about it again, I might not even be able to keep my life, let alone write a novel!

Sometimes, I can't resist temptation!

Time after time, I repent and commit crimes again and again!

I'm really guilty. Over and over again, no less than a hundred times!

And every time, it ends in failure. This is also the true portrayal of my tragic life.

Life is so sad, but I can't do anything about it!

I can hear the sound of machinery from here. It seems to be harvesting wheat, but also vegetables. I can't see it clearly because I'm too far away!

Typing is very tiring. Last night, I slept comfortably on the bed for a while!

How comfortable!

How comfortable!

I remember one time, I stared at a girl with a death stare!

I was just outside her house. In the end, she called her dad over and asked me what I was doing. We'll talk about the details next time. I'll answer them one by one!

You're too beautiful!

I can't accept it!

Who will read my novel? Who will understand my sadness? Maybe I don't understand!

What is sadness?

Are you trying to be my Lord Chopper!

No way. Today's upload might be a little late!

I slept comfortably last night. I might have to wait until tomorrow morning to upload!

Today's was written yesterday. I'll upload it in the afternoon. Hello!

What I want to say, you won't know because you don't follow me!

I won't register a social account!

It's just messing around!

I won't destroy my spirit!

If there's a female reader around the same age, it's enough. I don't ask for anything else!

The weather at the end of spring and beginning of summer was still very cool. Of course, it was in the morning!

It's too hot in the afternoon!

There's too many mosquitoes at night

Am!

Today is your birthday, tomorrow is your death anniversary!

The day after tomorrow is your day

This is an excuse, not a reason!

Aren't you afraid of being struck by lightning for finding such a lousy excuse?

Big Big Big big head!

This is the essence of my essence!

A youth youth with stinky feet

I wash my own feet!

If it's anything, it's nothing. I don't know. It has your scent!

Walking alone in the field, on the field of hope, there seemed to be something missing!

Oh.

Hope in't't't

Sing sing sing sing sing sing

Only for the joy of the harvest!

Harvest harvest harvesting and vegetables and. and vegetables!

Those that were planted early had already started harvesting!

Looking into the field, one could see a sea of yellow ripe rapeseed. It was densely packed, and as far as the eye could see, it looked like a grassland!

I still have to write 3,000 words. It's really satisfying. Lingli, I really want to be with you. I can't breathe without you!

I can't stop my pursuit of you!

Because many years later, I won't be in this world anymore!

Maybe I won't be able to leave anything behind!

But so what!

So what!

Tomorrow might be better!

Tomorrow might be better!

The day after tomorrow!

Yesterday is today. You don't understand because there's no such day!

Your car has two more tires than mine. At most, I'll sweat more and work out!

Pressure, pressure!

If there's your night, it'll be better!

If there's any!

If I don't miss you, I won't feel bad!

My tears, I'll cry. Your happiness, I'll keep your tears!

It's eye drops, it's still white tiles!

I've never held a girl's hand!

It's none of my business!

It's none of my business!

Tomorrow's tomorrow is not yesterday!

I want to jump out of the rhythm!

Write a style ~!

Don't scold me, my heart is limited!

Scolding, I'm actually scolding myself too. You stupid dog, you beast!

You deserve to die, I'm a stupid dog, I'm a beast, I deserve to die!

Begging to be carried, I've written half of it. I'm still short of 2500 words. I'm really unhappy. Enough!

I might have to write until 10 points. I'll work harder. I still have to complete today's target!

Someone said he's mentally handicapped, wrote a philosophy of mental illness, and changed the world!

Why don't I know? Judging from his words, he's obviously mentally handicapped. He might even be mentally handicapped. Why? Even though I didn't judge him as handicapped!

I took a look at the evaluation criteria. The legendary mentally handicapped person can't go online. Of course, there are exceptions. I knew that a mentally handicapped person in Shanghai can still draw and be a Taobao designer!

If that's the case, wouldn't I be mentally handicapped?!

Even if I'm mentally handicapped, it's useless. I can't get anything from a mentally handicapped person like us. I'll be happy if I can get 200 RMB!

So I'd better not judge. If I do, I won't be able to get married!

I still want to get married!

Looking at me like this, I'm afraid I can't!

My earphones are not with me, I can't listen to songs!

Oh, singing, the memories of the past, the memories of the past, seems to be disconnected in your hands!

The lyrics seem to be like this!

I can't care too much about the details!

Tomorrow's tomorrow, not yesterday!

Yesterday's yesterday's yesterday's tomorrow!

You tell me how much pain you are in, I don't understand!

11 more hours, I can speak again. I'm locked up, a month of confinement!

That's enough, I've created the most in history!

The first time my QQ account was banned, it was reported by Mengmeng. This is the only time my QQ account has been banned!

My typing is always too slow, my thoughts can't fly!

Swaying in the wind as much as I want!

My computer is about to shut down and run out of battery. I can't play anything!

I'm a free streamer!

I'm a psychopath, I'm a psychopath!

I want to find a partner!

You can't leave me, don't leave me, if you want to leave, you have to leave slowly!

I'll accompany you in that lifetime, this lifetime.

Listen to the song play!

I'll stop writing when I reach 30, I want to write!

Write, use my hands and strength to cheer!

I still remember our promise, the promise of a lifetime of happiness. She said that the wind also laughed at me!

Okay, this is still not good, it's not good enough. It's just that without me, without you, it's not good enough!

This is not good!

Without you, it's not good!

Don't let them off, they're still children!

Planting a wish, praying for you to appear, your back gradually fading away!

In my heart, there's only you!

I can't bear your rejection!

Even if I can't bear it, I have to bear it, because this is the me who loves you!

It's so unbearable, an indescribable pain. Let her be, let her be!

I'm very tired, but I can't resist the temptation, so I play a game!

It's really enough!

Aren't you afraid of a headache?!

It doesn't hurt occasionally, but it hurts after a long time!

Plugging in the headphones, I'll listen to the song!

A vicious divine song!

No depth, no connotation!

Only the rhythm is okay!

I'm also a straightforward person without any connotation!

That's right, I'm that psychopath, that lazy pervert!

I'm really guilty!

Enough!

I have to play it today!

I have to work harder, only then can I start!

Today is a tough day!

What do tears taste like!

It might be a little bitter and a little salty!

It's not very salty, it's salty with MSG. In this day and age, MSG is getting less and less. Those who have used MSG are at least in their early twenties!

You should know about chicken essence!

It's the same taste!

I remember when my illness acted up, the doctor asked me if I knew who the country's president was!

But I really don't know!

At that time, I paid attention to it now!

But I don't care much. What does it have to do with me? I'm not an official!

I'm an alien, and I've been implanted with the memories of an earthling!

I've become an earthling!

Aliens don't have the so-called superpowers!

That's all fiction!

If there really is one!

There really isn't one!

When there's nothing left to write, I can only write nonsense!

It's really a failure!

I don't want to change my novel. Life is so short!

But I'm wasting my time on correcting my mistakes. It's fine as long as I don't make any mistakes!

When I open my eyes on the weekend, my temperament is quite good!

I don't feel good all over!

I've learned another popular saying. What the hell is popular!

What's the use of it!

It's hard to even get on the bed!

Run, run, throw, throw bubbles!

Life requires courage to create, to get rid of irrelevant things!

Happy Labor Day.

I really can't get rid of it!

To all those who love to work!

With the highest respect!

I have to say this often. Without all of you, I wouldn't be here today!

Sitting here, typing and writing a novel, so western!

When the novel is uploaded, it might be the 3rd of May!

Please accept my belated blessings. I hope that all those who love to work will.

Be healthy!

I think that I live in my own world. Everything is what I think it is!

I think in my heart!

I think it will be how it is. I'm that self-centered, that's how willful I am!

When the novel is available on the search engine, I might, or might, probably, post it everywhere!

That's a possibility. I'm destined not to become a famous writer. I'm afraid of people talking about me. I'm afraid of disappointing them!

I'm afraid I can't bear such a huge pressure!

I can't do it!

My writing is also not good. If I can become popular with such writing, what can't I become popular? I also want to become popular, but I can't!

I also want to become popular. I can't lie to myself. Sometimes I want to become popular, sometimes I don't. It's very contradictory and tangled. That's why I can write a novel that's tormenting and tangling!

I'm a tangled person, so I want to write tangled novels!

My novel has been given too many personal labels. It's full of personal characteristics. My personality is not much different from the me in the novel!

But there's too much compromise and uneasiness!

In reality, I'll be willful when I can. If I can't be willful, so be it. I've already lowered my head to life!

I can't be noble. My background isn't clean. I'm also a bad person. I'm the kind who bullies the kind and fears the evil!

I've stolen before!

I've stolen food from the kindergarten in the village!

I have criminal tendencies!

I want to use violence, emotional violence to solve problems!

I'll compete with the older generation to live longer. I'll compete with the younger generation to see who can break free first!

I'm me. I'm also a liar. I used to work in a supermarket!

I'm not that honest!

I can't say anything about my noble character and unquestionable integrity!

I can only say that I yearn for Tao Yuanming's life!

The sun rises over the eastern fence, leisurely looking at the southern mountains!

That's the peaceful life I yearn for!

In this era, such a life is already extinct!

But I can only write books to find the peace in my heart!

In the future, I have to write more about beautiful scenery. I really want my novels to bring me to places I can't go!

That's a field of hope. Perhaps I'm already numb. Due to my illness, it's like I've been reborn. My worldview has been reshaped!

Sometimes, I'm very thankful that I was able to have a mental illness. Although it's painful, it's considered mild. I'm more and more hoping to live a normal life. However, I'm a conflicted person. I also hope that one day, I can achieve something. This is the truth. Recently, I've been conflicted about this problem. I feel that I'm very ugly. As a writer, I should focus on writing!

I'm thinking about useless things every day!

I'm preparing to write novels. That's how it is!

This has also become my greatest motivation for writing novels. It's also my greatest excuse!

A reason to lie to myself!

What if it becomes popular!

So what if it becomes popular? My life will still be the same!

There won't be many changes!

Now, the computer is placed on a wooden board. I'm sitting on it!

It's quite comfortable to write like this!

I'm a hypocrite. I hate myself a little. Sometimes, most of the time, I feel smug!

Sigh, let's talk about something more despicable. I'm currently working on my next film. I've really committed a heinous crime!

There's no cure. I can only work harder to write novels!

Death can't solve the problem!

I've long wanted to die!

But I'm still alive!

I don't even have the courage to die!

Living requires even more courage. I've said it before. Don't take things too hard. If you really can't take things too hard, write novels to vent!

Five years ago, when my illness acted up, I wanted to write an autobiography. The main reason was that I wanted girls to read it!

I also wanted to be on the World's Richest Authors List!

If it's from the bottom, I'll be on it every year!

To be honest, I've realized a dream!

I've been preparing for my novel, A Mental Illness, for at least five years!

Consciously preparing.

10. Second year of high school. Coming into contact with novels. Wanting to write my own novel!

11. Coming into contact with novels. Wanting to write an autobiography!

Feeling that I'll definitely become a very awesome writer!

12. Going back to school.

Preparing to come into contact with more novels. Wanting to write my own novel!

13. Taking part in the adult college entrance exam. Watching web novelists on television!

Eager to try!

14. Writing about 200,000 words!

Work. Giving up!

15,2015. I don't even know why I'm writing again. I think it's to pick up girls!

Sigh. Don't ask too much!