Damn it!

I am!

I am a mental patient!

I am a person who cares about everything!

I am definitely not as brainless as some people!

I have too many concerns!

There is a limit to my patience!

These guys!

They are shameless!

This is not good!

This is what I feel!

This cannot be!

How can this be!

Damn it!

I have no sovereignty!

Go further away!

This sadness makes it impossible for me to continue!

If I didn't have too many concerns!

I would have done it long ago!

I would have exploded!

But I can't do this!

I want to continue living!

In the next few decades!

I will jump into the river!

I will not go to Ningbo!

This is how it is!

I will be a weirdo!

I will blame myself!

I will not be a weirdo!

I will blame others!

It has nothing to do with me!

It is others who have a problem!

And they are blaming me!

Their words are wrong!

Damn it!

Damn it!

They have a good character!

Will it be like this?

I am not human!

Forget it!

They are the ones who provide for my meals!

But they want me to do it like a dog!

It is a waste of effort and not a good thing!

Damn it!

I have had enough!

These bastards!

I don't want to have anything to do with these people for the rest of my life!

Of course, I am too lazy to write about them!

They are wasting my precious time!

These people!

They should be forgotten by history!

This is how it is!

I feel terrible!

Why do I have to face such a fate!

This cannot be!

It cannot be like this!

People will die sooner or later!

And my life is too cowardly!

I am too cowardly!

This is how it is when I have too many concerns!

I am a bastard!

This law is infuriating!

Am I being too principled?

No choice!

I still have to endure!

Perhaps tomorrow will be the day I rise!

Bastard!

This cannot be!

This is not right!

This does not feel right!

This is not good!

I am too cowardly!

No choice!

There is really no choice!

I can only stay away!

If I were to be with him!

I would rather jump into the river!

It would be better if I died!

So this is how I am forced to die!

Heroes are short of breath!

Go further away!

This cannot be!

This cannot be!

I still have to work hard!

I have to endure!

No choice!

This is not the time to act on loyalty!

Tomorrow!

It will belong to me!

I still have to work hard!

I will not be with some people who do not have a tomorrow!

What is there to be calculative about!

To them!

It is the same every day!

Actually, I do not want to live!

Live!

It is very tiring!

Damn!

There are still 3,000 words!

Today's state!

Not good!

I still have to work hard to write!

This does not feel right!

Damn!

I am too naive!

There are no good people in this world!

I still have to be more careful!

Wait for another 10 years!

Then I will not be able to jump around!

I can only endure!

A gentleman takes revenge!

10 years is not too late!

This is how it is!

It is hard to say!

This cannot be!

This is what I think!

I want to make these people!

Leave them to time!

Torture them well!

This is the only way!

Well, what does it have to do with me!

He can scold me!

I can't scold him! How can that be!

I cannot afford to offend him!

Can't I hide?

Sigh, life is full of rascals!

This is how it is!

I have to say this!

There is nothing to say!

My ability is not good enough!

Otherwise, I would have run away long ago!

It is rare for me to come back to this godforsaken place!

I am too weak!

I have no backbone!

So!

Say!

My character is flawed!

This is how it is!

I am very sad!

I am the current generation!

A coward!

A person!

There seems to be no representative!

I am the new generation of bastards!

No choice!

Who called me!

I have no sovereignty!

Who called me!

I have no ability!

I have no ability!

I am destined to be like this!

I am really sad!

Why are they treating me like this!

I might as well just die!

I want to die anytime!

I am sick to begin with!

And they even!

Scolded me like a dog?

And threatened me!

Are they still human?

No choice!

This is what happens when you have no ability!

This is what happens when you are weak!

Rather than this, I might as well die!

Die!

That is good!

The world!

It has nothing to do with me anymore!

However!

I am not in a hurry to die!

I will die sooner or later!

The world will die sooner or later!

It has nothing to do with me!

Why should I be anxious!

Perhaps I will be taken advantage of!

This is also a form of training!

Perhaps I can write a good work!

Of course!

I am not hoping!

What good work can I write!

I only want to express my feelings!

I will die sooner or later!

There is no need to be anxious!

I will die too!

I will be sick!

There will be no treatment!

I will lie down and wait for death!

I don't want to live that much!

That can only mean that I deserve to die!

Sigh!

I will be sick!

Who will be sick!

I will not go to the hospital!

The main thing is that I have no money!

Of course, I will have to face this sooner or later!

This is the feeling!

It cannot be like this!

It cannot be like this!

Of course, it must be like this!

I am that heartless!

I will say the ugly words first!

Anyone will be like this!

Yes, it is like this!

Life is full of it!

Misfortune and accidents!

Why should I be so stubborn!

This is not good!

Yes, I have to do well!

I have to be prepared!

I have to start my life!

Although it is not a good day!

It is to let people die!

The days to live!

I do not dare to have extravagant hopes!

It cannot be like this!

This is a beautiful life!

It is too far away from me!

This is a problem of mentality!

I would rather be a mental patient!

Be more free and easy!

I am not willing!

Be a stream of consciousness!

I am too serious!

If you are serious, you will lose!

Sigh!

I have no need to be like a dog!

Lower yourself to the same level!

If you are serious, you will lose!

This sentence!

It is very reasonable!

What is this!

No choice!

This is life!

I just want to be quiet!

To live!

Is it so difficult?

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Is it difficult?

I hate this world!

You say I am anti-human!

I want to say the same!

I just want to live a more relaxed life!

I have no choice!

The only thing I can do is!

Euthanasia!

No choice!

I will die sooner or later!

I do not want to say anything!

I am always being called a mental patient!

I want to suffer what I have suffered!

Let others suffer again!

Then I will not know who is the mental patient!

No one has it easy!

Except!

An evil exploiter!

Perhaps!

I will be labeled as a sociopath!

I just want to be admitted to a mental hospital!

To be creative in peace!

That's my biggest dream!

But I have no money!

No choice!

I am a sinful person!

I want to be hospitalized!

All!

I can't live!

I have no money!

I can only be a dog in society!

My life is so bleak!

Sigh, I really can't take it easy!

I want to be hospitalized!

Actually, I just want to live a more relaxed life!

I don't have to be hospitalized!

This is not good!

Hospitalization is not the main point!

I just don't want it to be so difficult!

My head hurts!

I want to die!

Really!

But I don't want to die!

My instincts!

Let me live!

But I just want to die!

Die!

Then I will be free!

There is nothing good about living!

I still want to be more open-minded!

The main thing is that the pressure is too great!

It feels wrong!

Why!

Why is it like this!

Sigh!

I will not get married!

Life is too depressing!

I want to die too!

I can die immediately!

The best!

There!

I need people to protect the country!

I will go to the frontlines immediately!

I have long wanted to die!

There is no meaning in living!

It is too painful!

I really can't take it!

You say that!

Who are you showing it to!

You think others will give it to you!

Money!

Let you be hospitalized!

I'll let you live in peace!

This is not good!

No way!

It can't be like this!

No!

Too much!

Unintentional!

Well, I would rather have dementia!

I would rather die from taking medicine!

Then I will be free!

But look at me!

It is hard to be free!

I am still in the world!

No choice!

My attitude is good!

So upright!

Why do you have to treat me like this!

This can't be!

It can't be like this!

I still have to work hard!

I feel hope!

Mental patients hover between life and death like this!

I just want peace and quiet!

To be a mental patient!

I would rather not be a writer!

I want to live an easy life!

But I have no choice!

Of course!

This is what I think!

I have already started!

It would be a waste not to write!

I have a chance to write!

I still have to write!

I might have to start lying!

I won't lie!

How can I!

How can I survive!

It turns out!

That's how bad I am!

It doesn't feel good!

No one wants to be a bad person!

Of course!

Except for exploiters!

It is all for the sake of making a living!

What is the point of pretending?

You are the big brother today!

You can be the big brother forever!

No!

That is how it is!

I can't say!

There is still a possibility!

That is how exploiters are!

They have to do it!

They are exploiters!

My way of thinking is not good!

I can't do it!

Exploiters!

How should I put it!

It is like this!

I am a good person!

I will not resist!

There is a huge flaw in my character!

Sigh, I feel terrible!

Why is it like this!

Other than being mentally ill!

There is also a flaw in my character!

I am a mental patient!

And it is a flaw in my character!

I still don't understand!

Actually!

There is no need to label me so much!

People are like this!

Why can't I be like this!

I just want to live well!

I will still take medicine!

It will kill me!

It is not so good to live!

I still want to die!

I don't know how long I can live!

I feel that I will not live long!

It is okay!

Dying early or dying late!

It is all death!

Why should I!

I am conflicted!

My death!

It is not that important!

I don't feel it!

Without you, the earth!

It will not change!

Of course, everyone is like this!

This is a cruel reality!

I thought I could save the world!

Actually, I need the world to save me!

It is not that I cannot save myself!

It is because I am not qualified!

I have!

These abilities!

But I still have them!

My abilities!

It feels like a coincidence!

It feels like it is not too good!

It is easy to create!

Actually, someone who has some experience!

Can write something like me!

Works!