Today's writing will continue!

Yes!

I don't know what to say anymore!

The person I love doesn't love me back!

It's still the same problem!

Yes!

Now!

21 points!

5！

Continue!

I like her a lot!

Yes!

I like her a lot!

If only we could be together!

I've thought about it a lot!

Maybe we're not suitable for each other!

I know!

What's my fate!

I don't know!

I know very little!

Typing!

It's also a messy rhythm!

Yes!

I'll go!

I don't like to work!

I like to write!

If I don't have to work!

That's good!

For the sake of food!

The price to pay!

It seems a little too big!

Yes!

But that's not worth mentioning!

Now, this chapter mainly revolves around!

The problem of a girlfriend!

Yes!

I'll continue!

I want to find a girlfriend!

Yes!

I hope to find a prettier one!

Yes!

I'll continue!

What to do!

I don't know!

Sigh!

Today's life!

It's also hard for me to get used to!

Why!

I can't think straight!

Wait!

Work overtime!

Time!

Jot it down!

Yes!

I almost forgot!

Well, I mainly want to!

How is it!

I don't know!

Wait!

I'll continue!

I don't know!

What to do!

I'm thinking about my life!

Yes!

I didn't think!

Sigh!

Speed!

It's a little slow!

I feel a little powerless!

Yes!

But!

There's no use being afraid!

I'm still a little scared!

She's very pretty!

I like her!

Although!

How should I put it!

What am I like!

Don't I know it myself!

That's right!

I can't talk about this!

I'm thinking about myself!

What should I do in the future!

This job!

I can't do it!

I can't maintain a family!

Yes!

What to do!

I don't know either!

I'm still thinking about it!

I'm writing something!

Yes!

And I tell myself!

I can write or not!

I didn't think!

I even lied to myself!

Yes!

Life problems!

There are many!

I can't handle it well!

Yes!

I don't know what to do!

Damn!

I really don't know!

This life!

Livelihood problems!

It's also a problem!

I know!

I might not handle it well!

But I have to handle it!

It's also necessary!

Yes!

Continue!

I can't just leave it be!

That's also unrealistic!

It's a problem no matter how I manage it!

After all, I'm also a man!

I have my own responsibilities!

To carry a family!

This is what I have to do!

Don't exaggerate!

It's also necessary to support myself!

There's still someone waiting for me!

I think I'm just thinking about it!

Maybe there's no one waiting for me!

I'm just!

There's an extra person!

Yes!

But to say that to myself!

It's too cruel!

It's just that!

She doesn't know me!

When she knows me!

Discovered!

Her existence!

It's all for!

Waiting for me!

Maybe!

Love!

We don't have to be together!

It's just that beautiful feeling!

I have to hide it in my heart forever!

I have to leave myself some hope!

There's nothing bad about it!

Damn!

My hope!

What is it!

My dream is to lead a good life!

But I know!

That's wrong!

The world!

Go!

Everyone!

Can lead a better life!

That's my dream!

Everyone can lead a good life!

Why can't I?!

Yes!

That's what I said!

Sometimes!

Being kind to others is also being kind to yourself!

Continue!

I want to continue!

Continue!

I'm thinking!

Does she know that I like her!

I'm not sure!

This is a problem!

I don't know!

I still want to know!

My next book!

I still have to wait!

Write or not!

Not necessarily!

Damn!

Life is always!

There are regrets!

Yes!

I should understand!

I don't know!

I've said it before!

Love!

It's not about being together!

The reason!

Instead!

The excuse to let go!

Yes!

You should understand!

I really want to!

Confess to her!

If I don't confess again!

It's too late!

Maybe at that time!

She's already married!

Why do I say that!

My experience tells me!

The class monitor I used to have a crush on!

Now!

She's about to have a baby!

Damn!

Can't take it easy!

I don't know!

Sigh!

That's a long story!

Can't take it easy!

I can only say that this is life!

We don't belong to the same world!

I feel that I!

Don't know why!

The ending of being in love!

It's not about being together!

Instead!

Remember it forever!

Or!

Forget about each other!

I understand!

I'm being fickle in love with myself!

Looking for a way out!

Of course!

I can ignore it!

I don't know!

I love you!

I feel that you're very!

Moving!

I don't know!

Am I doing it for the sake of!

Writing!

Getting close to you!

I have the ability to!

I've said something like that before!

Yes!

I don't know either!

I also have the same awareness!

Actually, feelings are things!

There's no need to experience it!

It's too much!

It'll hurt!

I can't take it!

I'm!

Suffering the consequences!

I don't know!

Do I like her or not!

To meet someone like myself!

A big hoodwinker!

Myself!

There's no other way!

Lying isn't scary!

The scary thing is!

I even lied to myself!

How did I find out!

Maybe it's just talk!

It's been a long time!

It's acting up!

It seems like!

My condition is getting better!

It seems like!

Writing novels!

It's really helpful!

My condition is recovering!

Yes!

Continue!

I want!

Let's see how I write!

I used to write like that!

It's too stressful!

Yes!

Damn!

I feel!

I'm doing it for!

Writing!

And writing!

I treat myself!

Not as a human!

Like a toy!

I treat myself!

Like myself!

Like a character!

Yes!

Damn!

What should I do!

I don't have a choice!

No choice!

I don't know how to write!

Continue!

I'm thinking about how to write!

Take it slow!

Don't!

Be anxious!

Remember!

There's one thing!

I said I didn't!

It's okay to say it again!

I remember!

At that time!

My mom!

Went to Ningbo!

Went!

Bought!

Underwear!

My mom!

Bought 5 yuan!

A pair of underwear!

There was a small detail!

My mom!

Took a 10 yuan pair by mistake!

Outside!

Waiting for change!

But I didn't!

Later!

I changed it!

A pair of underwear!

I found it!

A 5 yuan pair!

In the end!

I asked my mom!

Why didn't I buy it!

A 10 yuan pair!

My mom said!

I don't know when I'm seeing a doctor!

And I still need to spend!

How much is it!

Yes!

I remember!

Yes!

I only realized it now!

I'm lying to myself!

I even lied to myself!

No matter what, it's still me!

Sigh!

I can't trust myself too much!

Damn!

I don't have a choice!

Sigh!

I can't not trust myself!

Fine!

There's a limit!

Yes!

Continue!

At that time!

I felt that there was no hope for me!

I was!

In what state!

I'm in a minute!

I can come out!

But I know!

I'm not a good person!

I even lied to myself!

My words!

I can't believe it!

Again!

How many people!

I'm not lying to myself!

Sigh!

This is a choice!

My mom!

Left!

Goodbye!

That's right!

2011!

Chinese New Year!

At that time!

I'll start!

Roughly high!

Sigh!

I don't have a choice!

What to do!

My dad!

I have to think of a way!

Give it to me!

Enroll!

Originally!

Plan!

Enroll in the first-year college entrance examination!

Yes!

But!

I'm not enrolled!

That's it!

Enroll!

Roughly high!

I'm a little reluctant!

I can't think straight at that time!

What else do I want!

The college entrance examination top scholar!

Actually!

With my ability!

And my concentration!

It's not impossible!

The adult college entrance examination!

Actually!

I'm first!

Because no one is with me!

Competition!

I'm!

At least!

First in the county!

Mainly because I don't have any competitors!

Because of others!

I don't want to take the exam!

I'm the top scorer!

Got it!

A little!

Scammed!

But that's what I thought!

I don't know!

This is not important!

This attitude is very important!

No!

Others say that you're first!

You're first!

You don't have to say it!

I'm first!

I can only say!

I'm too good at lying!

I don't lie to others!

I only lie to myself!

I'm scum!

To this extent!

I can't accept it either!

Yes!

I only realized it now!

I laughed!

Later!

Just!

We're apart!

Finished writing!

This chapter!

Remembered!

Uploaded!

Yes!

Continued!

My mom!

At that time!

Treated me to potatoes!

Cold noodles!

I can't forget it either!

How should I put it!

Parents!

To me!

The sacrifice!

Indeed!

More!

I can't understand!

I remember one time!

When I was in junior high!

In Wenzhou!

And that kind of!

Sugar water!

Fifty cents a cup!

At that time!

My dad and I!

We went to the immigrant village!

At that time!

My dad!

Took!

Fifty cents!

He bought it for me!

One cup!

He didn't drink it himself!

Yes!

I continued!

Sigh!

When I was young!

When I was in third grade!

The me at that time!

My dad!

Let me!

Give!

One!

Give money to a disabled beggar!

I don't understand!

At that time!

I was just vexed!

I was a little clear about this matter!

I used it!

For many years!

Something!

Not really!

You'll understand in a day or two!

Don't think that I'm a memory monster!

Actually, I wrote!

This thing!

For me!

Dad and Mom!

Look!

It's a little tiring!

It's too long!

Alright!

Continue!

There's a lot more!

I'll continue the rest later!

This is just the beginning!

Yes!

My parents!

How should I put it!

Remember!

When I was young!

I knew how to ride!

That kind!

Tricycle!

I rode a tricycle!

I ran everywhere!

It was always at night!

Continue!

Yes!

When I was in school!

My results were okay too!

Mathematics was my specialty!

I could!

Forget it!

I was the best!

Of course!

I couldn't do it later!

I neglected practice!

Yes!

My consciousness!

As if!

As if!

It was as if it had been sealed!

Damn!

The main thing is!

I don't know!

Why did I have to continue learning!

In the name of love!

This song!

It's really good!

I like it more!

Today!

I want to write more!

Yes!

Why not!

The problem is!

Electricity!

It's not enough!

Continue!

The current me!

How should I put it!

I should write a complete version of myself!

Leave it to this work!

I've wanted to do this for a long time!

I thought that I wouldn't write like this!

But I still know how to!

Continue!

I have to!

Completely expose myself!

Yes!

I should be like this!

There's a good saying!

Even myself!

I can't face it!

How can I face others!

Yes!

I don't think that's possible!

To face myself properly!

My dream is to!

To let others live more lives!

Me too!

To be like this!

To be good to others!

Actually, to be good to myself!

But I'm not capable enough!

Start from myself!

Let you!

Look!

People!

What are they like!

Yes!

Although I feel!

Not very good!

My actions!

Even myself!

Are all lies!

I have nothing to say!

Alright!

Begin!

Next chapter!