Now!

Eat!

No appetite!

Swallow my saliva!

Saliva!

Yes!

Sweet!

I don't know!

What illness is this!

Drink water!

It doesn't have any taste!

Sigh!

This problem!

Drink water!

I don't feel anything!

Damn!

It's been a long time!

No!

Drink it!

Drink it!

Remember!

Last time!

Drink it!

It's already!

Three months!

That's what happened in the past!

Damn!

I don't know!

What taste is it!

Damn!

I remember wrongly!

Last time!

Mid-Autumn Festival!

Drink it!

That!

Drink!

Caused!

I even!

Had diarrhea!

I even thought!

I was going to die!

I was also very annoyed!

This situation!

I didn't explain!

At that time, I really thought I was!

Almost dying!

It seemed like!

The discharge was!

That kind of!

Liquid!

That kind of thing!

Damn!

I thought!

I would die!

I recalled that feeling!

I was also annoyed!

I felt uncomfortable all over!

My body!

I felt very cold!

I thought!

I was going to!

Leave this world!

Damn!

Of course!

This was the effect of writing!

Damn!

At that time!

I was really scared!

I was scared of myself!

I couldn't take it!

What if!

I died!

My novel!

There was no one!

It was written for me!

Damn!

I was dying!

Novel!

Who would continue!

Sigh!

This feeling of diarrhea!

It was also very annoyed!

No!

People who had experienced it!

Wouldn't understand!

I still had!

Severe diarrhea!

Damn!

Most importantly!

I haven't taken the medicine!

I thought of myself!

It's possible!

That's it!

I can't write anymore!

I'm also very annoyed!

These few days!

It had been close to half a year!

There weren't any major problems!

That's right!

I fell down once!

I caught a cold once!

And there's also!

Diarrhea!

Just once!

Sigh!

I don't know anymore!

This problem!

Damn!

Continue!

This problem!

I think!

I'm also annoyed!

It seems like!

There's no good news!

Signed!

Almost!

Possibility!

Zero!

Damn!

I've already signed the contract!

I've lost all hope!

Sigh!

This is hard to say!

This book!

No matter!

How is it!

I have to continue writing!

But!

Tell me!

There's an accident!

It's also hard to say!

What if I die!

Damn!

It's crazy!

Who knows!

There are all kinds of problems!

I can see!

I'm writing a novel!

I'm also very lucky!

What do you think!

Damn!

I'm very envious!

A certain author!

Damn!

He's simply my idol!

He actually!

Has!

Wife support!

It's like this!

Wife!

Where?!

I want it too!

For!

Art!

Sacrifice!

Yes!

This problem!

Damn!

It's hard to say!

I think I'm feeling terrible!

I don't know anymore!

I'll continue!

Damn!

Sacrifice for art!

Damn!

Such a girl now!

It's not easy to find!

Someone who can support a family!

True enough!

This is all!

Life!

Why!

I don't have such a good opportunity!

In my heart!

It's very unfair!

Same for!

Someone who writes!

Damn!

Why is life!

Circumstances!

Such a big difference!

After all!

He is!

Blessed!

He!

I'll talk about it later!

Wait for me!

Write!

When it's about time!

We'll talk about it later!

This way!

An author!

A simplified version!

He's very supportive of me!

I'm more touched!

Yes!

I know!

People who can support me!

How many can there be!

Damn!

He asked me!

He wanted my contact details!

I'm writing every day!

No time!

Chatting!

I also want to chat!

I don't like to chat with!

Talk about men!

Damn!

Now!

Use!

Socialize!

Software!

That's right!

It's just that!

Look!

It's just other people's activities!

Now!

Very little!

I'm chatting with other people!

This is for writing!

It's not very helpful!

This is!

Very good material!

Damn!

Such a good resource!

Why can't I use it!

Sigh!

Right now!

One month!

It's started!

30 yuan!

Traffic!

Damn!

Writing novels!

I can't earn a single cent!

Damn!

I don't know anymore!

Sigh!

If I didn't have a job!

How can I!

So!

Willful!

Actually, it's my job!

That is!

It's not dispensable!

Sigh!

I'm just a piece of soy sauce!

Sigh!

Sigh!

I don't really want to do it!

A full-time writer!

A book that I write!

No one will read it!

Damn!

I feel that I!

Will compromise!

For!

Eat!

No!

No!

Do some!

Things that I don't want to do!

Damn!

No one is asking me to compromise!

I!

Don't know what to say!

Sometimes!

I've given up on myself!

Now!

Won't do!

Five buckets of rice!

Bend!

Impossible!

Now!

I have nothing!

Won't bend!

Just!

Starve to death!

Yes!

No choice!

Don't talk about writing!

I've found something for myself!

An excuse!

For my dream!

Struggle!

It's good!

For my dream!

To live a humble life!

But it's!

Vivid!

Dream!

Actually, this is a dream!

Perhaps!

A dream!

It's a kind of dream!

It makes people persevere!

It's something that makes people happy!

I think I have a rough idea!

I understand!

Sort of!

Dream!

Perhaps!

It's just that!

It's to miss!

Dreams are such things!

Sigh!

It seems that I don't have any dreams!

Damn!

This question!

It's hard to say!

My dream!

Is!

I can continue writing!

This is not a dream!

This is me!

Something that I do every day!

This is already!

It's nothing!

A dream!

It's just a hobby of mine!

Damn!

I can continue living well!

That's good!

This question!

Damn!

Story!

When!

Will come out!

I'm thinking!

Maybe now!

Or!

Time!

Immature!

There's still a long way to go!

Let's do it again!

Wait!

Actually!

This is in itself!

It's a kind of story!

It's what I'm best at!

Is!

My inner monologue!

Yes!

It's also the so-called saliva!

Damn!

This question!

I remember!

There was once!

Writing an essay!

I wrote!

Fists!

Of the same size!

Sweat!

From my!

Face!

Fell down!

This is also!

Done!

Mine!

Classic!

Works!

When I was in my fourth year of primary school!

There was another time!

Yes!

Writing an outline!

I wrote the longest!

I was practically copying the text!

Yes!

After a while!

I copied a little!

I never thought of it!

In myself!

The field that I'm the worst at!

It actually!

Became my hobby!

It's really enough!

I really don't know how to write!

I don't have any good works!

But!

Is!

A person like me!

Became a!

Author!

Really!

Fate plays tricks on me!

Because!

I believe!

I can definitely become a!

Author!

Damn!

This question!

It's also like this!

Damn!

Now myself!

Talking about writing!

It's also one after another!

Yes!

I really didn't know how to write in the past!

Sigh!

Now I!

Can!

Skip!

Understand!

Sigh!

I'm really full of emotions!

Actually!

Just thinking about it makes me angry!

Myself!

My creative experience!

It's just like this!

In the past!

I didn't like writing!

Because I didn't express it!

My own desires!

Sort of!

This question!

Sigh!

I don't know anymore!

Alright!

It's just like this!

Sigh!

Uncomfortable!

This question!

Sigh! Continue!

Damn!

Think of a question!

Damn!

I don't know anymore!

How would I know!

I'm just like this!

I'm so easily confused!

But I remember a sentence!

The easier it is!

A person who is confused by others!

The more one can go!

To confuse others!

This!

This sentence!

The time of writing!

It's been a long time!

When the illness flared up!

So!

Writing!

Actually, there's no turning back!

I can go!

The water is out of the bottle!

It's going to spread to the whole world!

Sigh!

Damn!

Now!

Adapted!

The writing at that time!

I think!

Very good!

It's all very good!

Unforgettable!

But I just forgot!

Sigh!

This question!

It's also frustrating!

I thought!

I'll become!

Actually I!

Don't know!

I also hope that I can maintain such an attitude!

Sigh!

I still don't understand!

Writing!

Of!

Principles!

Of!

Of!

What is the foundation!

That is!

A kind of feeling!

Giving people hope!

Touching others!

It's that simple!

This question!

I've also thought about it for a long time!

Actually!

I still don't quite understand!

First of all!

Moving myself!

That is to confuse myself!

I can't even fool myself!

How can I deceive others!

Why!

Care too much!

These!

Words!

My limitations!

There are a lot of them!

I don't understand!

Why do I have to deceive myself!

Sigh!

I feel!

I can't continue!

I feel so heavy!

I feel so stressed!

I thought!

After tomorrow!

I don't have it!

The ability to write books!

This is what I'm afraid of!

It's like this!

I'm also afraid!

I've lost my ability!

Sigh!

I feel fear!

I feel grateful!

This is a must!

I can't abandon myself!

Otherwise!

It's just like this!

The question!

It's very simple!

But I've thought too much!

Perhaps!

This is life!

Life!

Yes!

A show!

An audience!

To watch a show!

The feeling!

It's also different!

I thought!

I can do better!

But this!

It's just like this!

It makes me feel touched!

Can I continue?!

Suddenly!

The pressure multiplied!

However!

This is indeed!

This is an opportunity!

Yes!

Sort of!

It should be!

Sigh!

Annoyance!

It's just begun!

Writing!

It's best not to!

It's too smooth!

I'm afraid I can't take it!

More experience!

Some!

Yes, writing!

It's helpful!

Those!

Beautiful memories!

They can only stay in my heart!

I miss them so much!

Do you know!

I miss them a lot!

Sigh!

I'm a heartless person!

These memories!

It's a kind of emotion!

It's a kind of hope!

It's a kind of anticipation for life!

I don't quite believe in myself!

Just like!

I don't believe in others!

I just don't believe in my feelings!

Sigh!

Sometimes!

I can only go!

I believe in myself!

Except for myself!

Actually, I!

I'm also a liar!

Damn!

I even lie to myself!

I'm not a good person!

Life is very shameless!

Sigh!

It's an uncomfortable feeling!

The path I took in the past!

I can't go on it anymore!

Perhaps!

I can only miss it silently!

Sigh!

This!

I miss it!

Feelings!

It's really hard to say!

Actually, I!

I can walk on it!

The path of a writer!

Luck!

There are many factors!

This is what I have!

I'm happy!

However!

It's also my character!

It's related!

I don't know!

Feelings!

Everything!

It's too coincidental!

Feelings!

I'm not used to it!

I don't know!

This problem!

The world!

Change!

Perhaps!

I've changed too!

I think!

It's just like this!

Everything is too sudden!

Perhaps no one will think of it!

I can become a writer!

But it's my own accumulation!

Material!

Indeed!

A lot!

Yes!

How should I put it!

My memory!

It's still alright!

Sometimes!

I write my own story!

I still!

There's a hurdle!

I can't get past it!

I can't take it!

This uncomfortable feeling!

What should I do!

I don't know!

This problem!

I don't know!

Do you still remember!

These problems!

Sigh!

I don't know!

These things!

Those in the past!

Scenery!

It's just!

In the past!

I!

Go!

I still!

Remember!

Some!

Have these things!

Bring them!

Writing!

It's very good!

I guess so!

Sigh!

I don't know!

This problem!

Sigh!

Damn!

Continue!

I'm thinking of you!

I don't know!

Actually!

I'm still the same!

Think carefully!

I haven't changed much!

Why can't I write well!

It's because!

I can't!

I have a correct understanding of myself!

This is my main problem!

I've thought too highly of myself!

I've believed in myself too much!

I've placed too much emphasis on what I have!

Actually!

This is the feeling!

I've returned it!

This state!

As if!

I've returned!

Many years ago!

Damn!

So!

It's just like this!

I want to write a story!

It's about to start!

Yes!

Perhaps!

I don't know!

This problem!

Is also the same!

It's just like this!

I'll continue!

Actually!

This is the kind of person I am!

Alright!

Audacious!

Forward!

Forward!

I'm afraid!

It won't solve the problem!

I can't face it!

The challenge is my problem!

Sigh!

This problem!

I can't continue!

See how I deal with it!

This problem!

Actually, I haven't changed at all!

I'm still me!

I'm still Xu Jian!

Why would I change!

Who am I!

I'm Xu Jian!

I am!

Seventh in the school!

First in class!

Damn!

I'm afraid of ghosts!

Damn!

It's also the same!

Sigh!

Actually!

This is the state I want!

It's always been there!

Something!

It's hard to change!

Xu Jian!

It's Xu Jian!

It can't be anyone else!

No matter how I write!

It's only me!

Damn!

I'm sick!

It's a little serious!

My current feelings!

Got it!

I thought!

It's hard to write!

The state I was in back then!

So!

This state!

It's always been there!

Actually!

I've always been there!

This state!

True enough!

This problem!

I don't know!

What should I do!

My work!

I still have to continue!

But!

There's something different!

This problem!

Sigh!

I plan to!

How do I write it!

Perhaps!

It'll start soon!

Damn!

Myself!

This stage!

It's too sad!

I'll write my own!

Difficulty!

It's indeed a little difficult!

There's a feeling of time and space dislocation!

I still can't control myself!

There's too much nonsense!

Sigh!

Write a novel!

There's no nonsense!

How do I write it!

Are you still going to let me!

Write a novel!

Damn!

This feeling of mine!

It's also very frustrating!

I'll write a novel now!

I have this feeling!

Actually!

I don't have this feeling!

The things I write!

Although!

I can read it!

But!

It's still passable!

I'm still!

I've forgotten!

Myself!

The state I was in back then!

I can't be like!

Other!

Writing a novel like that!

I should have forgotten!

Or!

I should have forgotten!

Fixed thinking!

Indeed!

There's no saving it!

Even if I'm crazy!

It's still the same!

Sigh!

Frustration!

Thinking!

Fixed thinking!

It's very frustrating!

I can't handle it well!

Alright!

That's it!

See you tomorrow!