This is a new beginning. I always like to indulge myself!

My novel doesn't even look like a human or a ghost!

I can't do it!

I'm going to continue nagging here. It's enough!

At 2 o 'clock sharp, I might not have this kind of opportunity to write novels in the future!

My head is hazy!

It's as if it's empty!

I'm very sleepy, but I still have to write!

The weather is very hot, and the sun is very bright!

It's obviously summer!

I did it again just now!

That's enough!

I'm too indulgent!

My desire is constantly expanding!

I might self-destruct!

I have nothing to say!

In this impetuous society, there's a very impetuous me!

I have nothing to say to myself. I've scolded and hit, but it's useless!

I still can't change, I still have to do it!

That's a problem!

A very serious problem!

I can't make any more promises!

I have no face!

If I had a gun!

What would I do? Shoot myself!

You coward!

My sins are monstrous. I don't want to live anymore!

Living is a very painful thing for me!

Why did I commit such a monstrous mistake!

And I don't want to change!

This is a huge mistake in my thinking!

What kind of person are you if you don't change your mistakes!

I just feel that I'm not in the wrong. I see that you're panicking!

I feel that I'm guilty and can't do it again!

I have an extremely deep sense of guilt!

I've done wrong.

I don't want to be forgiven!

To be forgiven!

A mistake is a mistake. This is a mistake of principle!

It's fine if I'm lazy.

Not only that, but my thoughts are also obscene!

Something shameful had happened.

It's a bit shameful. I think so!

This is a big mistake!

I need to be ruthless and change!

Only then can I not commit any more crimes!

Forgive me for being conservative!

I feel that I'm guilty!

Do you really feel that you're guilty?

Really? Really?

Or, sometimes there was, and sometimes there wasn't!

You admitting your mistake is like farting!

It's fine if it's just one or two times, but you've probably done it more than a thousand times!

This mistake had not been made in a day or two.

A thousand times!

You beast!

Did he not take his medicine?

Those who had eaten it before, this was a matter of character!

Not upright!

You can think about it, but don't show it. This is your fault for publicizing your evil deeds everywhere!

What are you trying to do!

This was a problem!

Was it shameful for him to be high?

It was a difficult question, and I couldn't answer it.

A fly never bites a seamless egg!

That's the logic, blaming this and that every day!

Actually, the problem lies with you!

I must turn over a new leaf. I can think about it, but I can't show it!

This is where you're wrong!

Sigh, I'm not being affectionate, I'm just indulging myself!

If I were a woman, I would definitely be someone that no one would want!

Unrepentant!

She was someone else. She was unrepentant even when she was in the wrong. If she was selling her body, why didn't you do the same?

This was a problem!

It was a very serious question!

I will do my best to discuss this issue!

Of course, there wouldn't be any results!

This involved the fundamental problem, what are people for!

To live, to survive!

If there were too many of such things, there would be evil deeds!

This was a greenhouse that would lead to crime!

The whole society would be in chaos, and there would be dates every day!

Date this and that!

This was not only related to the individual, but also related to the survival of the entire human race!

Taking care of yourself would save the world!

This sentence was not wrong at all!

Now that I was typing, I just needed to type, and type fiercely!

I was getting more and more skilled!

And the positioning!

The feeling!

It was really good!

Right now, my typing speed is considered above average!

I could even think and type at the same time, and express myself to my heart's content!

I really don't understand this!

I still need to learn more!

This was a very profound and unavoidable question!

Don't make it difficult for me, I really can't explain it!

Alright!

I was too naive and stupid!

I was really tired.

I had to finish this chapter before 3: 30!

I need to sleep for a while!

I had a very strange dream!

I dreamed that I was at the train station and dropped something!

I couldn't find it no matter how hard I tried, and I woke up in a panic!

Dreams were always so strange!

It was as if they really existed!

I couldn't remember!

It was very difficult to recall!

Today was 5/12. I wanted to start a special chapter, but I didn't prepare in advance, so I went to sleep last night!

I owe it to you, I will definitely take the safety of the people as my responsibility!

I will never indulge!

Every day was a special day worth remembering!

It wasn't that one day was very special!

Actually, every day was Valentine's Day!

And I was celebrating Singles' Day every day, painfully writing my chapter!

There was nothing that wasn't painful!

Even getting on the bed was tiring!

What's more doing things!

Now my teeth hurt!

Why?

I don't really eat sweets!

I just don't brush my teeth!

I have to brush my teeth more often in the future!

How can I not brush my teeth!

My teeth feel like I've smoked before!

I don't smoke, and I don't drink!

I heard that people who don't smoke or drink are very selfish!

I can't deny this point!

But those who smoke and drink, some of them are very bad!

How can you explain this!

Don't run away with half of it, only knowing how to brag!

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Li Bai said, It's a very nice song!

It's only that nice, really!

I think so too!

I'm about to start struggling, are you mentally prepared?

It's starting!

Are you looking for a beating!

You dare to talk about me, this is my own business!

I'm talking about you!

So, come and hit me!

You'll never be able to hit me!

Because I don't even exist!

Don't you know!

Aren't you in a computer?

You're controlling me through the computer!

My brain has been installed with chips by you!

It's just like in the movies!

Hur hur!

That's right, is it possible!

Do you think it's possible?

Sister is right, you should listen to Sister!

That's right, our children are going to be sold!

I sent our children, and your and Sister's children!

They're all sent to elite schools!

Nonsense!

I haven't done it for so many years!

I extracted DNA, you can't do anything about it!

I think so too, right, Sister!

Sister is right!

We'll call him Big Brother!

We'll do you!

I want to dance with you!

Do you remember that day when you came looking for me, you couldn't find me!

So pitiful!

Shouldn't we meet him, don't torture him like this!

We can't do it, people like him will despise us when we meet him!

He can't, he's sincere!

Let's go and meet him!

You have to know that I've done a lot for you, wherever you are, I'll be there!

I'll follow you!

Those people you see exist for you, is it possible!

If you die, they'll die!

Ah, I can't take it anymore!

Sister, I'm wrong, don't say anymore, you devil, who are you? What right do you have to live, even your bones are smelly!

You're really sinful!

What are you living for!

I want to dance with you!

Walk over!

Remember to buy me high heels and sexy clothes, remember to bring money!

That's enough, you don't even exist!

I'll burn it for you!

Bah!

You silly dog!

I'll wait for you here!

Sorry, I don't like women!

Tsk tsk!

That's enough!

Alright, that's it!

It's just a simple illness!

It's within a controllable range!

If I really get sick, I won't be able to write a novel!

As he spoke, his head started to hurt!

I'm just scared!

But if you don't provoke me, I won't hit you!

Some patients will hit people when they have an illness!

Because he has a feeling of being persecuted by others, this feeling has lasted for a long time!

It's all there now!

But I won't hit people!

I'm taking medicine!

Based on my personal experience, this illness can't be cured!

Even if it's cured, it'll still be the same!

What do you think will be different!

Patients will be more sensitive, from my point of view, it's because I have a simple type!

So, it's not too complicated!

When I first had an illness, I couldn't stand the pain of the illness!

I felt like someone was persecuting me!

They pressed surveillance cameras all over my room!

It was all done by the school!

They colluded with my parents to stop me from being with her, and she didn't even exist!

Just like that, I started kicking doors, using steel bars to smash houses, kicking doors!

I hit people, took off my clothes and ran around!

I felt like I was the target of persecution!

Just like that, I started taking medicine!

Of course, when I was in school!

I've been to a psychological hospital once!

At that time, I spoke as freely as I do now!

But there's a difference!

I'm just stupid!

The kind that's naive and kind!

I didn't diagnose it at that time!

After going once, there's a high possibility of going a second time, or even taking medicine!

Taking medicine is considered light!

Hospitalization costs a sky-high price!

I can't afford to stay there!

I don't have money!

This illness is a serious psychological problem!

Some people say that I've been in love before, and that I can still fall in love, and that I'm a weirdo!

I've encountered it when I went to see a doctor!

It's also a tragic sight!

If no one cares about me, I'll starve to death!

I'll starve to death in bed!

If no one cares about me!

It's also because I'm open-minded!

It's really uncomfortable to have this illness!

I feel like I'm being persecuted!

Luckily, I'm open-minded after taking medicine!

I want to write novels!

I want to be a writer!

I want to be a writer with the most personality!

I won't have any regrets even if I die!

This way, I don't have to care about anything. Luckily, I know that people can't be reborn, let alone reincarnated!

Just thinking about it makes me happy!

Finally, there's no next life!

Living is a torture!

Living is worse than living, I still have to live well!

Many of my patients need my novels to bring them warmth!

Give them positive energy!

Thinking of this, I should persevere and continue writing!

Maintain a daily update of 3,000 words!

I'll expose myself first!

Those who need to share their experiences can leave a message!

I hope that no one in the future will get this illness!

Reality is so cruel!

I can't face it!

I can't face myself!

My overflowing self-confidence!

It's used to cover up my complete inferiority complex!

It was true that the more inferior one was, the more confident one would become.

These words were exactly what I wanted to hear!

All the good people are dead!

Those who are alive are all bad people!

That's what the older generation said!

I realized that I like to copy creativity!

That's what Er Wu said!

Thinking about it, it's true!

Why am I so unbearable!

There's no meaning at all!

The sun is very bright today!

The weather is very hot!

I seem to be the most unpopular!

I'm such an unsociable person!

Maverick!

It seems like I've been writing for an hour and a half, 3,000 words!

It's already uncomfortable to sit!

I'm tired of sitting!

This illness can't be controlled!

I have to control it!

I can't mess around!

To write a good novel, I have to work hard first!

If there's a chance tonight, I'll write a short story. That way, I'll break 10,000 words!

I'll sleep better than a dead pig at night!

I'm afraid I can't write it!

Now, I can maintain a daily update of 3,000 words!

If I knew how to write, I can also write 10,000 words a day. The main reason is that I've fallen too deep and can't extricate myself!

I'm writing until I'm in pain!

I can't control it as I wish!

An emotional troll can't write a novel!

I have to try more!

I have to be able to control it as I wish!

I can't write until I feel like crying!

That's too painful!

I haven't had enough yet!

I can't write for a year or two!

It's very difficult to have that kind of super control!

Many god-level writers have that kind of ability!

It looks like a similar piece of work!

The way to handle it, and the sense of immersion, the feeling!

I can see some of it!

I don't have that kind of ability!

I'm writing until I feel uncomfortable and can't continue writing!

I just have to break it off, and I can't control my emotions!

This was also required in some of the more exciting parts. This required an extremely strong control ability!

Just like what a certain author said, to move others, you have to move yourself first!

Of course, this is a problem of degree!

My current ability is limited!

I'm easily swayed by my emotions!

I believe that with my creativity, emotions, and persistence!

It won't be a problem to have a little fame!

You're bragging again!

I'm not. When I was writing the hydrology, I had already brought myself in, although I didn't feel touched!

I'm afraid of that kind of pain!

I really feel terrible when I write!

I'm clearly miserable, but I have to write as if I'm twisted!

So my future development path!

Is to make it as realistic as possible!

I have to create characters from my own point of view!

I don't know how to write fictional psychological descriptions for the time being!

I don't understand others!

I only know what I want!

Writing a short story at night and writing about my own weaknesses and pains is something worse than death!

Death is a short pain!

That's a long pain!

My head hurts when I recall it!

So not everyone can write an autobiography. Those who can write well are even fewer!

That's my style of writing!

What I need to do now is to accumulate more life experience, experience more, and realize more. This will be of great help to my writing!

I still need to recall more. I need to learn to endure pain!

I need to learn to face myself!

Only then can I write my own work!

Otherwise, it's a waste!