A brand new day, a brand new beginning!

This was a day of competition!

En!

I don't want to find a girlfriend!

The burden is heavy!

I can't bear it!

It's not good to talk about this so early in the morning, but sometimes I can't help it!

To think, to pursue!

I'm very confused!

Isn't this called a moth darting into the flame!

As the saying goes, women are never free since ancient times!

Dating for a few months, suffering for a lifetime!

I really can't take it easy!

Maybe I'm very conscious!

I want to contribute to the survival and development of mankind!

I definitely can't do it!

Because I'm sick!

I'm the so-called genetic mutation ~ Actually, there's no such thing!

It's just made up by a few of my ward mates!

What about our genes mutating!

That's not very possible!

This is a very simple question!

Gossip is really a fearful thing!

That's why I don't talk to them much!

I can't do it either!

Think about it, how did I find out that I'm mentally ill!

I did a psychological test!

And what electroencephalogram!

Let's talk about my real thoughts when I did the psychological test!

It's just a general idea. Too much time has passed!

I think my attitude is still okay!

This is the attitude I should have!

En, that's right!

At that time, I was thinking about how I should do the questions well. It's mainly a multiple-choice question on psychology!

Psychological condition!

En, there are also some questions that are copied!

Actually, the questions aren't the key!

The answers aren't that important!

It's the attitude of the person answering the questions!

It's really hard to say about a normal person's attitude when answering the questions!

But I did stare at the teachers during the exam!

The teachers are all women!

En!

I was the last to leave for the first three classes!

For the last class, I left early because I had to catch the bus!

My academic level is limited!

I can only be considered to have entered the door!

To be able to score 347 points!

It's also a great fortune!

The full score is 600. If I can get more than half of it, maybe I can get into three!

Even a mentally ill person like me can score so much!

It was obvious that those who didn't do well in the exam were all problems with their attitude!

My brain is seriously damaged!

He had almost forgotten everything he had learned!

Let's not talk about my middle school exams. If I had the brains I have now, I could choose whichever exam I want!

But reality wasn't like that!

It's because I'm mentally ill!

Half of the people were left behind!

That was enough!

I remember once, I even got into the top three!

The attitude of a normal person!

I really don't dare to flatter you!

It's not that you're stupid, it's that you're not attentive!

His heart was much stronger than his brain!

This was the attitude he wanted!

Attitude determined everything!

We should work hard!

There was no pressure at that time!

I can't find an excuse now!

Now, he didn't even want to read!

You even dare to make your own decisions!

That was enough!

One look and one could tell that it was half-baked!

Regarding science, I don't have any opinions!

It mainly focused on the humanities!

However, the development of the humanities was inseparable from science!

Nothing could be independent!

It was all for the sake of survival!

Don't think so highly of yourself!

This was an extremely wrong way of thinking!

I made such a mistake!

That was why there was today's result!

If you ask me to do something, I won't be able to do it.

I won't be able to do it in my lifetime!

It wasn't too difficult!

There were!

I didn't want to do it either!

This was my lack of awareness!

If everyone thought like me and was so negative!

How could science progress!

This was a problem!

I didn't intend to do any scientific research!

I didn't even learn the most basic things well!

They could only talk about their thoughts and ideas with big talk!

That's my fault!

Forget it. If everyone was so strong, how could I survive in the future!

Some things had to be preserved. It wouldn't do if everyone was strong!

Then I wouldn't be able to do it!

Was I illiterate?

I was willing to be illiterate too!

Whether to advance or retreat was in your hands!

I only understood now!

No one could decide what you wanted to do!

Your parents couldn't control you forever!

Do whatever you wanted to do!

Fight for it when you were young!

I just wanted to see!

Everyone was strong!

Each generation was stronger than the previous generation!

But that wasn't all. This saying was wrong!

Individualism was an extreme ideology!

This was definitely not acceptable!

Take my younger brother as an example!

My two younger brothers!

They were all masters who bullied the weak!

They were still young!

One look and you could tell that they weren't educated properly!

This kind of person would endanger the stability of society!

So they had to learn more!

Change more!

I didn't say that I had been bullied since I was young!

Although I also bullied my younger sister!

I still felt a little guilty!

I was used to being bullied!

It was as if I was born to be weak!

What I needed to do was to work hard!

I didn't want to bully others!

What I needed to do was to not be afraid of trouble and not cause trouble!

Now I was also being bullied!

I was oppressed in all sorts of ways!

This was life!

I had to endure it!

Maybe I wasn't qualified to talk like this!

Although I didn't know much about the law!

Whatever you did to me, I could do to you!

You gave me a slap. Did you expect me to give you a candy to eat!

This was something that was absolutely impossible to do!

If it was candy, it would be a gift to the end!

That wasn't right!

You oppressed me today. I remember, I didn't want to oppress you back!

I wanted to send you to the end!

Let's see how long you can be carefree!

You're finished!

The whole world would be fine!

There was a problem with the current education system!

Individual thoughts were useless!

One person couldn't do anything!

But having an independent personality was more important than anything else!

That required balance!

This wasn't something that could be explained in a few words!

Hehe!

That was a problem!

Talking about education, I wasn't qualified!

What I've said is all representative!

My generation!

Was crippled!

I couldn't speak!

If I could speak, perhaps it wouldn't be like this!

So I had to work hard to speak!

Actually, it was the same no matter who came!

I've seen through it. Everyone was selfish!

That was impossible!

It was just a matter of degree!

Messing with society wouldn't benefit these people at all!

The ones who suffered from the instability of society wouldn't be the masses!

An official was still an official!

You have to understand this!

It wasn't that I said being an official was amazing!

It wasn't like that!

It was hard to be an official!

It wasn't as simple as what was written in novels!

This was very complicated. Take what I know as an example!

No matter what, I had studied politics for a few days!

Ideology and morality!

I had also studied it!

What could be done and what couldn't be done!

I knew that too!

Although I hated it a little!

Teaching me to be so weak!

Not daring to say anything!

More importantly, teaching me to endure silently!

And scolding people without naming names!

This was also very abominable. Ideology and morality were not learned well!

Whose personality did you learn from!

There were some things that I didn't dare to say. I could only beat around the bush!

I couldn't say that a certain someone was a fool!

I was smarter than him!

That's my fault!

That was a problem!

I wouldn't say that either!

That wasn't my style!

Because I knew that being smart was useless!

Being mindful was the key!

Attitude determined everything!

I wasn't afraid of being smart, but being mindful!

Smart!

Was it useful?

Did you think I was smart?

I said that!

Just like that sentence, you lost if you were serious!

But we still had to be serious and responsible for what we did!

This wasn't a show!

This was being intentional!

And I couldn't do it!

Unrestrained!

But some problems couldn't be like that!

Some problems had to be let go when it should be!

Serious when it should be!

Anyway, I couldn't do it!

This was an extremely irresponsible way of saying it!

Leaving it aside!

This was my personal problem!

I was actually a blank piece of paper!

Everything I had was given to me by society!

I couldn't deny that!

I still had a big problem!

I still had a lot of problems!

I should work harder to change!

Seeing this was enough!

I was just very timid and afraid of trouble!

I was just afraid. I didn't even know what I was afraid of!

A person was always balanced!

I was timid!

I needed more experience!

Being afraid of everything was scary in itself!

That was what the host said!

I hadn't listened to his program in a long time!

I didn't have time!

I still had a lot of problems to face in the future!

The pressure was getting bigger and bigger!

The burden was getting heavier and heavier!

Well, this was life!

This was exciting!

In the past, I always felt that I was very mediocre!

I was afraid that others would surpass me!

I couldn't let my honor flow away!

I couldn't take it anymore!

Although I was always being surpassed by others!

I was still working hard!

I had lost long ago. I didn't care about winning or losing!

I just wanted to survive!

Even if I won, it wouldn't be of much use!

Only now did I realize how laughable I was back then!

My dream back then was to be guaranteed admission!

To participate in the competition!

In the end, I was completely defeated!

I was categorized as a B!

I couldn't even get into A!

This was a tragedy!

Those who participated in it before should know about AB!

I won't explain!

It had nothing to do with this article!

My heart would hurt if I said it!

Was this equality?

This was the so-called education!

That was enough!

The college entrance exam was also categorized into AB. I didn't participate in it, so I didn't know!

Forgive me for being so stupid!

I participated in the adult college entrance exam!

It didn't seem to be categorized!

I couldn't stand that kind of thing. What categorization!

That was enough!

I had enough of this!

I was just a sacrifice!

An inferior student!

I had nothing to say!

It had nothing to do with me!

Even if the world was destroyed tomorrow, it had nothing to do with me!

Anyway, my life was worthless!

I was really angry!

Why did you have to categorize!

Didn't the Education Bureau mention it!

That was just for the fun of it!

They said to balance the education resources!

Since when was there balance!

What categorization!

I didn't think it was bad!

This was a problem of thinking!

It had to be done step by step!

Some people were indeed lacking in quality!

For example, I openly said that people's quality wasn't good!

This was a problem of character!

People could criticize me, but I couldn't criticize others!

Just like the saying, if a dog bites you, would you bite the dog back!

I didn't say it was impossible!

Can't we hide if we can't provoke them?

We can only blame ourselves!

There were all kinds of quality people!

I was too engrossed in my studies!

I thought that people were all alike!

Tao Yuanming, Fan Zhongyan, Yue Fei, Guan Yu and so on!

In the end, I didn't dare to look at it directly. I was too naive and stupid!

It was my fault!

This was my personal problem!

This kind of person!

It would be great if people like me died. No one would scold me if I died!

Just like the saying, all the good people are dead. Those who are alive are all bad people!

Forgive me for being so direct!

I just said whatever was on my mind!

I'm not a good person either!

I don't want to pretend to be a good person!

I'm also a selfish person!

This was wrong!

Everything you had was everyone's!

Don't think that your parents could give you all this!

That was absolutely impossible!

That was a wrong statement!

It was because of the sacrifice of thousands of parents that we were who we are today!

I was the son of the people!

We were all children of the people!

This society still needed people. I suddenly realized my own value!

As the saying goes, a drop of water can pierce a stone!

Don't think that you're useless!

Maybe you're that drop of water!

I hate myself!

I shouldn't have read novels!

I should have read more realistic works!

It wasn't something that was idealized!

Don't talk about the power of love!

I've read too much that my brain went bad!

Sigh!

Don't talk about being the best in the world!

I was poisoned by this!

I'll explain it in detail!

Now, I have to film well!

I have to be more realistic!

What I read was either too deceitful!

Either that, or it was idealized!

That's why I became mentally ill!

I'll explain it in detail!

I'll talk about my own experience!

I'll talk about my own thoughts!

I won't talk about it here!

I don't really want to talk about it either!

Because it was enough!