Sigh, I feel that these things! They aren't that obvious! There's really no other way! What can I do about it? Sigh! It's really enough! I really don't understand it! I feel like I'm about to die now! I didn't expect it to be like this! Sigh! Actually, love is cruel in itself! This is what I need to understand! How can I not understand it! Sigh! This kind of problem! I really don't have any other way! What can I do? Sigh! What do I think? Sigh, there are some things that I can't do anything about! This is someone else's freedom! Sigh, what's the most infuriating thing! Sigh, I can't face it! Some things! What else can I do? Sigh! So sometimes! We have to accept it! Sigh, I thought that there was no problem in itself! Sigh! I think I'm wrong! Sigh! This problem is obviously not good enough! Sigh, what can I do about it! Sigh, I really don't know! Think about it carefully! These problems! Let me think about what I should do! Obviously, I don't know! This problem seems to be very complicated! What do I think? This kind of thing! Sigh, I really don't know! There's no other way! Sigh, what can I do? Sometimes! I have to say! Sigh! I lose to myself! But obviously, I can't win against myself! Sigh, no matter what! I compete with myself! I lose all the time! Sigh! Indeed, I don't understand! What do I think? This problem isn't good! I think I still don't know! There's no other way! Sigh, what can I do? Sigh, it's really enough! Sigh! How do I know about it! Sigh, there are some things! It's really not very good! What I thought was good! Actually, it's not good! It's the feeling of novelty! Sigh! I think I'm really not very good! Sigh! That's why! There's a problem with my character! Sigh! It seems that I'm still not mature enough! Sigh! This is my problem! Sigh, I should know about it! What should I do about my problem? Sigh, it's really hard to think about it! Sigh, it's really hard to think about it! There's no way to know about it! I don't think I can do it! It can't be like this! Sigh, are you crazy? Sigh! That's really enough! There are indeed times! I like a person! Just because I think she's the ideal person in my heart! Maybe this is the so-called self-deception and the feeling of novelty! Sigh! I really can't accept it! What can I do? Sigh, I can't do it well! There are many unexpected things! I'm afraid I can't do it! Sigh! How should I put it! Sigh, my former opponent! There are indeed many of them! Sigh! I only know about it now! Why am I feeling so sad about myself! Actually, there's a reason for this! I'm not saying anything! It's easy for me to stand here and talk! Sigh! What kind of attitude is this! Sigh! What was I like in the past? It's not like I don't know about it! What qualifications do you have to say it here? Of course, this is the reason I'm going to say it! I'm such a failure! I can even write something! What about you? Can't you do it? Sigh! This problem is still not obvious! A fool! Sigh! Damn it! Forget it! I'm myself now! I don't even want to say it anymore! Too arrogant! Too self-righteous! I've always been so high-profile! There's no other way! I have no choice! Fate made me become a beggar! I only know about it today! Actually, I'm a beggar and a madman! The difference is only the size of a bowl! Sigh! I don't understand this! Me and a madman! Sigh, damn, I'm not that crazy! They say I'm crazy! They say I've changed! Sigh! Damn, you haven't seen these people before! However! I'm such a failure! I can't even be a madman! Sigh! Damn, what should I say! You really don't know the world of madmen! Sigh! Damn! A few days ago, I went to the streets! To buy groceries! Sigh! I saw a madman sitting there! Sigh! He's still here today! Sigh! This is a problem! Sigh! This feeling is very scary! I wonder what the hell it is! It's the feeling of a statue! But I know he's a person! Sigh! I realized! This kind of person! That's what I want to do! I realized! Why am I such a failure! Sigh! I don't even know it myself! Sigh! Life is a failure! I just want to be a quiet madman! I didn't expect that! My life has never! Been a failure! I can't even be a madman! So! Sigh! I still don't admit it! I feel like I'm going to collapse! My biggest fear is! I feel like I can't live anymore! A person pops up every minute! The feeling of beating me to death! The feeling of starving to death! You still don't understand what this feeling is! Only now do I know how afraid I am of death! If I'm not afraid of death! How can I be a madman! Sigh! I feel like my survival is being threatened! Threats! Sigh! All kinds of bad things! There's really no way! I really can't do it! Is this okay? I don't really understand! Tell me! How do I want to die! Sigh! Sigh! I'm not afraid of death! Maybe, maybe! It won't be like this anymore! But there's something more painful than death! That is to live! What do you think! Sigh! Actually, I'm not too sure myself! Actually, the most terrifying thing isn't death! It's living in pain! Then! Let me choose! It's living in pain! Or die! You know what I'll choose! Sigh! Sure enough, in the end! I still lied to myself! I've survived! There's really no other way! This matter! I think I always don't know! There's no other way! What do I think! Sigh, I feel a little pressured! I still have something to do! Something to do! Sigh, I feel so scared! Sigh! I really don't know! Sigh! Damn! I've been courting death recently! I think I've had enough! Sigh, I don't know! Sigh! Who's easy in life? Sigh! You're just teasing me! Sigh! There's no other way! It's as if anyone's easy! Sigh! I don't know! Sigh! There's no other way! There's obviously something wrong with this! What can I do? Sigh! I really can't do it! I really can't do it! Think about what I should do! Carry bricks or carry bricks! It's your choice! Sigh! Carry bricks! Do you think I can carry them?! Sigh! The problem is too simple! It's always very obvious! I'm getting worse! I can't relax anymore! It's really enough! Sigh! I can't do it! There's really no other way! Sigh, I really can't do it! Sigh, what can I do? I thought! Something like that! Sigh, it's so difficult! I feel that all sorts of things are wrong! Sigh! There's no other way! What do I want to do? I thought! There are too many problems! That's indeed not good! Sigh, I can't do it! Sigh! I'll just wait for death! Something like that! Sigh, something like that! I know very well that I can't do it! But I'll still do it! Sigh, this problem seems more serious! Sigh, I really don't understand! Something like that! I'm all sorts of things! I'm not sure! Sigh! I thought! My mind is in a mess now! I'm not in a good state! Sigh! Damn it! Is it good? Sigh, anyway! I just think! It's not good! I know that I can't even be a lunatic! Sigh! How am I going to write anything? It seems that … I'm destined to achieve nothing in this life! Sigh! I only found out now! I didn't expect it! This is even scarier than fate! Sigh! This problem feels very exaggerated! I'm very scared! There are some things! I really can't accept it! What can I do? There's really no other way! Sigh! What should I do? This kind of thing! It's really enough! Sigh! There's no other way! It's obviously not good for me to be like this! Sigh! What can I do? It feels like there's a problem! Sigh, this is indeed not good! Sigh, I don't think I can do it! It's really enough! Sigh! What can I do? Sigh, I can't do it! Is this good? I thought it was! It's hard to say! Sigh, what can I do? It's really enough! Sigh! There's really no other way! I can't do it! This kind of thing! What can I do? Sigh, all kinds of problems! Sigh, I really can't do it! What can I do? All kinds of bad things! Sigh, what can I do? I really don't know! Sigh! I think I definitely don't know! What can I do? Sigh! I can't feel the problem! This is not good! There's no other way! I don't know! Sigh! It's really not obvious! What do I think? Sigh! What the heck! This is the feeling of using one's life to create! Feeling one's life! No! It's physical strength! Bit by bit! Being consumed! This feels very shameless! Damn you! Bullshit! I really need to write something! Actually, it doesn't take much effort! As long as I'm in a good state! It's not a problem! It's tiring! I want to sleep! I definitely can't write it! But it's true! Writing something! I need to be in a good state! It's too sad! I can't write it! I'm too happy! I can't write it either! Sigh! What do you think? How should I put it? Anyway, I have to take good care of myself! You idiot! What do you want! Sigh, there's no other way! I can't do it myself! Sigh! There's no other way! It's really enough! Sigh! What the hell is this! Sigh, I always don't know! What do I want! Sigh, balls! I want to beat you to death! This idiot! Sigh! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! So I'm the one who hates me the most! Damn it! Can you save me some trouble! But then again! I don't even love myself! How can I love others! My body! I'm so weak! Sigh! I don't feel good! There's really no other way! Sigh! What do I want to do! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh! Damn it, this is obviously not good! Sigh, I always don't know! Sigh! Let me think! When have I ever been spirited! Sigh! Are you kidding me? I feel like I'm half-dead every day! Sigh! My state is indeed a little bad! There's all sorts of bad feelings! There's no other way! I can't do it! What can I do? Sigh, there are too many problems! Sigh! I feel like I really don't know! What can I do? I realize that my way of thinking is very wrong! Sigh! I'm so hypocritical! I actually don't know! Sigh! What do you think? How many mental patients aren't hypocritical? Sigh! I don't really understand it myself! This matter! It's hard to say! Sigh, there's no other way! I also feel that there's no other way! What can I do? Sigh, it's always not good! Sigh, I'm scared too! I should think about my life properly! It's not good to be like this! Sigh! This is a problem! I can't decide either! Alright, it's about time to say goodbye! Sigh, I hope so! I hope it's better!