Xu Jian, you rascal! What do you want! Sigh! Some things! I don't understand! I thought so! Sigh, is this really okay? Sigh, I don't understand at all! My own feelings! This way! It's really not okay! But I don't have any choice! Sigh! It's really enough! Of course, it's useless! I thought so! This problem! All these things! What can they change? I'm a joke! My own feelings! Sigh! Alright, use your energy to write! I only realized it now! I don't have any works to write! Sigh! It's really enough! Don't tell me I don't know! I thought so! I think I don't know about this either! My own feelings! Sigh! Actually, I don't understand! Sigh! Alright, don't be too serious! My own feelings! Sigh, this can't be helped! I don't understand! Is this really okay? Sigh, it's meaningless! These things! Sigh, I actually collapsed like this! Damn! Sigh, the feeling of lying down and waiting for death! Sigh! It's really enough! Is this really okay? Sigh, I thought so! It can't be like this! Even if I don't have faith, I still need to have faith! There's nothing wrong with being alone! A person's mental illness! It's indeed a person's mental illness! A lot of things! I don't want to write any of them! Damn! How painful is this! Anyway, I don't know! Sigh! I'm actually afraid of pain! Sigh! In the end! But I realized I don't have any choice! Sigh! I actually think like this! Then there's no other way! This way! Is this really okay? Sigh, I don't understand at all! Just forget about it like this! I don't know about it myself! Sigh, I think so! Sigh, some things are hard to say! But I don't have a choice! Sigh! This thing is really like this! Let me think about it carefully! This problem! Sigh! It's really enough! My own feelings! Sigh, so that's what I want! I realize that these things are not what I want! My own feelings! Sigh! My own feelings! There's no meaning in it! My own feelings! Is this really okay? Sigh, I don't know! Is this really okay? Sigh, I don't know at all! I don't understand it myself! Is this really okay? Sigh, my own feelings! Actually, I don't know! I don't think I can do this either! Sigh, what do I know! Sigh, my own feelings! Sigh, is this really okay? Sigh, what a serious problem! I don't understand it myself! Sigh, is this really okay? Sigh! Forget it! I thought so! Sigh, I still don't understand! Sigh! Is this important? Don't talk to me, okay? This is affecting my writing too much! I feel that this book can't go on! Damn! This so-called story! It can't go on! Damn! Sigh, my feelings! It's too heavy! Can I do it myself? Sigh! Is this really okay? Sigh, I still don't know about it! Sigh, this kind of thing! Sigh! I have to think about it carefully! These things! Sigh! Remember those joys! Sigh! It's really enough! What I think so! Sigh, I don't think I understand! Is this thing important in itself? It's too heavy! It's not good no matter what I do! What I think so! Sigh! It's also a problem! What do I understand! Sigh! What a joke! These things! It's really enough! Sigh, can I understand it! This thing! Sigh, what I think so! I really don't know it myself! Sigh, use your heart! This thing! What I think so! Sigh, forget it! Feel the problem! This thing! Actually, it's not important in itself! I can't do it myself! Sigh, what I think so! Sigh! I still have to believe in my dreams! I can't do it myself! Is this really okay? Sigh, it can't be solved at all! Sigh, what a serious problem! I don't understand it myself! Is this really okay? Sigh, forget it! Sigh, I really don't understand it! Sigh! It's considered a problem! I understand it myself! Sigh, it feels too heavy! This thing! Sigh! There's really no need to do it! Don't I understand it! This thing! Sigh, I have to understand it! Sigh, in the end! I have no other choice! Sigh, there's really no turning back! Sigh! Damn it! I don't understand it at all! What I think so! Sigh, I still don't understand it! This thing, sigh! Forget it! Do I understand it? Sigh, can I understand it? Sigh, I really don't understand it! Sigh! It's really enough! All kinds of bad things! Sigh, I'm still alone! My mental illness alone! That's the best ending! What's the point? What I think so! I want to shout that slogan! I'm the master of my fate! Forget it! I can't decide my fate! Who will bear it for me? Naive! You're such a joke! Sigh! Do I understand it! This thing! What I think so! Sigh, I don't know it at all! What I think so! I don't understand it at all! What I think so! Sigh, it's meaningless! I don't know it at all! What I think so! Sigh! Is this really okay? Sigh, can I understand it myself? Sigh, this is indeed not okay! Sigh, this thing! It's really not important! Sigh, I'm not ashamed! You brat! What I think so! Sigh! I'm not holding it up! I'm obviously waiting for death! Sigh, this problem is so realistic, okay! Some things have to be said! Sigh, although I don't want to say it! But I still have to say it! If I don't work hard! There won't be any useful results! This is a problem of mentality! Sigh, so what? You'll still collapse! Is this important? It's really not important! I, Xu Jian, will always be Xu Jian! Something! I can't change it! This thing is too simple! Don't tell me I don't know it! This is really enough! I really don't understand it! What I think so! Is this okay? Sigh, I don't understand it at all! I don't know it at all! Sigh, forget it then! Sigh, the problem is so serious! I can't do it myself! Sigh! This way! Do I understand it! Sigh, I have to use my life to support it! Damn, that feeling of guilt! Guilt! And a sense of responsibility! Damn it all! Sigh! It's really enough! More than that, it's material desires! Sigh! Why can't I choose this way? I also feel very heavy! But there's no other way! It's good to be alone! Sigh! I'm either dead or alive! Is it really that important? Forget it! I definitely don't understand these things myself! Only now do I realize that I'm actually an emotionless person! Damn it! The life and death of others! It has nothing to do with me! Sigh! Is there any point in me saying these things? Sigh! Of course, this is a very realistic problem! But good people should live! Bad people should live however long they should! It's not important whether they die or not! Because there's nothing more unbearable than living! I feel it myself! Sigh! Is this really important? Sigh! What's important? Sigh! I feel it myself! Sigh! I can't do it! I have no other way! Is this really okay? Sigh! I can't do it! This thing! It's really enough! What about my feelings? Sigh! I can never do it! This thing! It's really enough! Sigh! I don't understand at all! This kind of thing! It's really enough! Sigh! Forget it! I thought it was! Sigh! I was wrong! Sigh! Xu Jian can't do it! He can't comprehend it with his ears! Sigh! Does this have anything to do with me? This thing is not important! Sigh! I thought it was! These problems! It's really enough! Sigh! I don't understand all kinds of things! Sigh! I feel that I don't know! Sigh! What about my feelings? Sigh! There's no meaning to it! Of course, this matter is too complicated to explain! Sigh! I have to put my heart into it! Sigh! I can't hold on! It's also not good! What about my feelings? Is this thing really that important? What about my feelings? It's not important! I have too many thoughts when writing novels! Sigh! But you don't have to say that I understand! Actually, this is the so-called thing that can change the world.