The psychosis of an individual

Chapter 42

It's enough!

This is my opening line!

I can't write the story I promised!

Could it be that I was born unable to write a story!

It's enough!

I can't accept it!

Sigh, I can't accept it!

I just can't accept it!

It started to drizzle!

The Heavenly Qi was enough!

It made people feel a sense of lethargy!

I'm masturbating again!

Every time I think of myself, I'll act up!

I don't even dare to masturbate!

I'm also scared!

Yes, that's right!

Too troublesome!

There's nothing to care about!

Bathing in the blue sky together!

There's nothing for you or me!

It's all for everyone!

Tears kept flowing down my cheeks!

I don't know what sadness is!

The tears were about to fall but stopped!

As I spoke, the tears fell uncontrollably!

Could it be that this is sadness? I don't understand!

I used to be a happy-go-lucky person!

Can't I come back?

My tears!

Once again, it fell!

I don't know who they fell for!

It's probably because I can't accept it!

I can't write a story by myself!

Those bullsh * t essays have crippled me!

I've really accomplished nothing!

I still have to make huge changes!

It's easy for me to become the main character!

I'll write about myself!

I'm scared!

I'll sink deep into it!

I can't extricate myself!

Writing a story is a very painful thing!

Thinking of my sad and bitter life!

How can I write a good story!

It's always been others bullying me!

I've never bullied others!

How can I write that kind of ruffian style!

I'm a good person!

I'm a person who has been deprived of tone!

I have more tolerance!

It's mine, like a tortoise!

I'm bullied in school!

I'm afraid of getting expelled from school for fighting!

I'm afraid of having to pay medical bills!

I'm tolerating!

I'm out of society!

I don't dare to hit people!

I'm being bullied!

I'm being threatened!

I can only swallow it!

I'm afraid of killing people!

If I want to hit, I'll kill them!

Otherwise, who will hit them!

In case they find trouble in the future!

If they want to, I'll kill them!

You think I'll be afraid of you after hitting them?

That's just a novel!

As long as you're around, I'll pounce on you!

If you hit a dog, are you afraid that the dog won't bite you?

Evil must be eradicated!

That's the principle!

I'm afraid of going to jail!

Although I know!

Mental illness!

It's fine to hit people!

But I can't do that!

Society!

They're already biased against us!

I'm the new generation's mental illness'!

I must make a good reputation!

I must know the law's!

Of course, that's under normal circumstances!

If you make me angry, I'll take it. I won't say anything more!

My life isn't worth that much!

It was enough to trade one for another!

Who cares? What law?

This law is only applicable under most circumstances!

I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of living a painful life!

Are you bullying me for not having guts?

I've had enough!

I've been suppressed since I was young!

It's strange that I can write a story!

I've been hurt too much!

I can't write!

I'm not an ordinary person!

I'm born weak!

I've had enough of being bullied!

I'm bullied everywhere!

I can only lie to myself!

So I still have to work hard!

When my illness acts up!

It's like this!

If you continue to write like this!

I'll find someone to kill you!

Who dares to do that with me around!

I've said it before, I'm not afraid of death!

I'm afraid of living a painful life!

They only bully me when my illness acts up!

Death is a matter of minutes!

Living is a matter of decades!

It seems that death is very scary!

You said that it's more painful!

I don't want to die yet!

I still want to play games!

I haven't maxed out!

I still want to dominate the world!

I can't take it easy!

It's just like this, I always like to trap myself!

There's nothing wrong with that!

Although it's not like everyone can't write!

But you can persevere!

That's your problem!

It's not important what you write!

What's important is your attitude!

No matter how well you write, it's just empty talk!

It's like a dream!

There's nothing to be envious of!

Everyone has to have their own unique characteristics!

Isn't that right!

Not everyone has the same way of expressing themselves!

It's time to write something!

Old tricks!

Although no one reads mine!

I still have to write!

This is a matter of attitude!

I don't have the writing skills of a god!

At least I have to have the attitude of a god!

It's not scary if I don't write well!

I can't give up!

No matter how well you write!

It's just empty talk!

It's just lying to yourself!

Giving people false hope!

Even if there's really immortality!

I won't want it!

Being alive was a very difficult thing to bear!

If I can live a day less, then it's a day less!

The xianxia genre nowadays!

It's usually individualistic!

What extraordinary background!

That's enough!

A person who cultivates immortality and seeks the Dao!

Just a small break!

Difficult to achieve the Dao!

It's just a fantasy!

But it feels very real when written!

It's obvious at a glance!

Of course, only people like me who don't have a strong will!

Will believe it!

Use your brain a little!

Some believe it!

Like immortality, I definitely don't believe it!

I don't want to live that long!

Let me ask you, why do you live so long!

To maintain world peace!

To be afraid of monsters!

To demonize the world!

If you want to put on a show, then do the whole thing!

Otherwise, why do immortals live so long!

The existence of devils was to be beaten up!

Demons don't die no matter what!

I can make it up!

Let's talk about demons and immortals!

They have the same force!

No demons, no immortals!

It's a bit like a man and a woman!

But this is even more profound and complicated!

I can make it up if I have enough!

I still have to write something!

It's still not enough!

It's still far from enough!

The mountains and rivers are good scenery!

I have to relax!

Let's have a pleasant song!

This music is very moving!

It made people feel restless when they heard it!

Yeah, dance!

This song is nice!

It's just those few songs!

That's right, it's this Happiness Consultant!

It's also very nice!

I won't talk about it anymore!

Listen to the song quietly!

Write the direction of your heart!

Don't care if it's good or not!

What matters is whether the emotions are expressed completely!

Some people say that I only rely on adrenaline to write novels!

At least it's not in vain!

I can write about it!

Looks like I have to recuperate well!

I might not be able to write when I'm old!

I'll write more when I can!

No wonder it hurts when I write!

There's nothing to fuss about!

I have to change my mindset and seek development!

I'm the kind who has nothing better to do!

I have nothing better to do!

That's the influence of others!

I won't say anything!

Then I'll use time to prove it!

I typed wrong again!

Yes!

Yes, that's it!

I can write if I'm human!

I even read it once!

A guy in the teacher's office!

Writing about online games!

Those who write about online games really haven't played it before!

They're still pretending that they haven't played it before!

There's almost no skill in games nowadays!

It's all about attributes!

And equipment!

It's about who has more money!

That's how I play it!

Just like what a certain young man said!

All games either cost money or time!

I also believe in it!

How many people have been harmed by this game!

I'm a victim!

But I'm still playing it!

It's true that if you don't go crazy, you won't survive!

Who said that!

I must worship it!

Sincerely!

He switched to another song!

Li Bai said!

Li Bai said!

So exciting!

So classic!

And!

A huge 1500!

I finally blurted it out!

No one can ask me how to write it!

I can write it however I want to!

Who cares about me!

I'm a huge hurdle!

I really like to play games!

That's right!

That's how it is!

It's too irrational!

Games poison people's lives!

I remember who said that!

Playing games is just going around in other people's worlds!

I have a premonition!

If I persist in writing!

My work!

It'll be even more exciting!

This feeling came unexpectedly!

I just lack life observation and life experience!

If I get used to it!

I'll definitely be able to write a good work that I'm satisfied with!

I was scolded by my editor yesterday!

I flared up yesterday!

I teased my editor!

She said I wouldn't write anymore!

She said I didn't keep my word!

She said she looked down on me!

After I swore an oath to the end of the world!

I barely managed to get by!

My beautiful editor!

Just thinking about it makes me happy!

Let's call it a life diary!

A series of books that I write!

I'll write them in the future!

They can all be categorized as a life diary!

Why aren't there such novels!

Fantasy novels are mainstream!

You know that I can't write fantasy novels!

My imagination!

It was strangled in the cradle!

When I woke up!

My head hurts!

Strange!

Why!

I'm still naked!

I'm only wearing underwear!

The scary thing is!

My hands have turned blood red!

What's wrong!

It's been like this ever since I read the Heaven Peering Scripture!

What should I do!

I feel very uncomfortable!

I want to shout, but I can't!

I'm speechless!

This was a pitch-black world!

What's going on in front of me!

I can only see my own blood red hands!

I can't see anything else!

I'm so scared!

Heaven Peering Scripture!

It's a good thing!

It's best if it's a remnant of the Heaven Peering Scripture!

Finding things is also a topic!

I won't write anymore!

I can't write fantasy novels!

I have no imagination!

My imagination is only limited to!

Dream on!

I want girls!

You're asking me to make up a story!

That's also impossible!

I'm not enough!

I still need to experience and write more!

I still have 800 points left!

Actually, it's still a bit more!

That's enough!

I want to dance!

Yes, that's it!

Oh oh, fall in love with me now, fall in love with me!

What now!

What song is this!

I can't do it!

I can't write fantasy novels!

Nine out of ten novels are fantasy novels!

This isn't an exaggeration at all!

Maybe one out of a hundred novels is realistic!

I'm addicted to fantasy!

I write like this!

I haven't seen it before!

But there might be!

Some people say that I write like a certain man!

That's enough!

I haven't seen much of his works!

Some people say that I'm overestimating myself!

That's enough!

Society's views are too mundane!

How can such a person write a novel!

How can he lead literature!

Absolutely impossible!

Protagonists are all different!

That's enough!

And I'm the toiling masses!

Just this point alone is enough to leave you in the dust!

I don't have any obsessions!

That's a big explosive point!

Yes, that's it!

My obsessions are very deep!

I need to develop them deeply!

Very tiring!

That's right, that's it!

I still need to work harder!

I'm just a casual person!

I'll write whatever's popular!

That's enough!

Fanfiction is popular too?

I don't think I've heard of it!

I remember it being like this!

I've heard of it before!

I want to speak to you from the moral high ground!

I don't think it's a big deal!

I don't dare to look at a certain man's works again!

I'm afraid that people will say that I plagiarized!

I've only seen it once!

When others said that I'm similar to him!

So I went to take a look!

It's similar to what I wrote!

It's like they're carved from the same mold!

But he's tall, rich, and handsome!

And I'm just the toiling masses!

A certain man's writing style!

It's very similar to me!

I can't bear to look at his works!

I don't want to write anymore after reading it!

I don't have the courage!

His tone is similar to mine!

But it's indeed better than mine!

I've already forgotten about it after reading a little!

I just casually clicked on one!

It's probably about the people's livelihood!

It's even hotter than mine!

It's even more direct than mine!

Even if you beat me up, I wouldn't dare to write like that!

I don't want to work anymore!

It's still very uncomfortable when it flares up!

I still need to restrain myself!

I need to be self-disciplined!

Yesterday, when it flared up, I fantasized and threatened!

Write that kind of thing again!

Then I'll be done!

What's there to be afraid of? It's just a rotten life!

There's also something I don't dare to say!

I'm afraid that people will laugh at me!

Talk about me, talk about anyone who writes for a long time without accomplishing anything!

How pitiful!

I hate it when people say I'm pitiful!

Of course, if I persist in writing!

I'll have to face it sooner or later!

I can't not face it!

When it's normal!

I can handle it!

When it flares up, I can't do it!

It's like I want to die!

When it flares up, I'm emotionally trapped!

I feel extremely inferior!

I don't want to live at all!

I feel very useless!

Very hateful!

I'm a failure!

Very bad!

This is retribution!

Who asked you to think about women!

Not thinking about women is just a matter of time!

If you do, then it'll be serious!

I'm afraid it'll affect my work!

I want to stay away from women!

I'm afraid it'll flare up!

When it flares up!

My mood will be at its lowest!

I even want to die!

I'm not making this up!

Don't look at me now!

I'm like a dog, writing novels!

When it flares up, I can't do anything!

I just want to have a good sleep!

I don't want to do anything, not even eat!

I don't want to live at all!

I'm afraid of this!

I'm afraid it'll affect my work!

I don't dare to tell others that I'm sick!

It's true!

I don't even tell those who play games with me!

I'll tell my editor!

I'll also write a novel!

Yes, that's it!