I've started writing! What do I want to say! It's so hard to eat melons! This is a headache! Haha! Life is so shameless! I don't know what I'm going to do! It's so painful! I need to think about it properly! I can't stay calm anymore! Sigh! This is considered a trap! I need to think about it properly! Sigh! I can't stay calm! What am I thinking about again! I'm quite confused! The pressure is too great! It looks like … This is a trap! This is a headache! I think I'm going to laugh! And then? I'm going to heaven! Don't I know it myself? This is a very difficult problem! My head will definitely hurt! Damn! This is really enough! The pressure of life is too great! This computer is lagging! I'm very speechless! I don't feel it myself! Sigh! There's no other way! Haha! Don't I know it myself? Sigh! This is the most depressing thing in life! It's too much! My feelings! Sigh! I can't stay calm anymore! Sigh! I thought so! I don't know! Sigh! These are the situations in life! I'm also speechless! Sigh! It's too tiring! This brain! It's probably tofu dregs! That's great! Tofu dregs or something! Actually, it's not that bad! I might be full of water! Damn it! Think about it properly! If it's still okay! It's really not okay! I can't stay calm anymore! Idiot! You can't stay calm anymore! My feelings! Sigh! Life! It's so painful! I feel like this! So what? It's not good! I need to think about some problems properly! Damn, it's so painful! Depressing! I might not know! There are some things! I can't grasp it! It's really too painful! There's really no other way to go! It's always been a trap! A lot of things! It's not something that can be achieved overnight! Hehe, including failure! Failure is such a simple thing! I won't! I still want to succeed! Is it really okay? I can't stay calm anymore! I thought so! Sigh, I really don't understand! Life's tragedy! Sigh, think about it properly! I thought so! It feels like a trap! There's no other way! I don't know! Sigh, it feels especially uncomfortable! Sigh! I can't do it myself! I thought so! Sigh, I'm speechless! Damn it! What else can I do?! There's always hope! Even if it's impossible! I still have to think about it! I can't stay calm anymore! I thought so! Sigh, how does it feel! I don't understand! Life and whatnot! What a failure! My own feelings! This could be a tragedy! Damn it! I can't stay calm anymore! I thought so! Don't I know it myself! Haha! It's all because the world is too big of a trap! What should I do! Dreams and whatnot! It's still too much of a trap! I can't even eat! What else can I do! Damn it! The pressure of life! It's really not small! I thought so myself! Just thinking about it makes my balls hurt! I have to say! There's no comparison! There's no harm! It's really enough! I'm not happy! How should I put some problems! Although I'm not miserable enough! I can't take it lying down! What do I mean! There are so many people who are more miserable than me! Sigh! Life is always so tragic! Sigh, how shameless! I thought so myself! Sigh, I don't really understand life! Sigh, it always feels like a tragedy! Hur hur! I feel speechless! And then! I don't really understand it at all! What can I do myself! Sigh, I don't know! Sigh, haha! What do I think! I don't understand anything! Sigh, what does this count as! Sigh! It's so sad! Haha! Don't I understand myself! Sigh, life is so depressing! Sigh, it's such a pain in the balls! And then! There's nothing else! Sigh, it's really a pain in the balls! A pain in the balls! You joker! Feel it properly! My own problem! This problem! It's getting a little too serious! I can't do it at all! Sigh! There's no other way! Sigh, life is full of holes! I can't do it at all! Sigh, it's impossible! Sigh! I really don't understand! Haha! I thought so! How does it feel! What should I say! Grandpa! What can I do! Sigh, I can't do it! I need to think about it! Sigh, life's problem! It's still a pain in the balls! Sigh! There's no other way! Sigh! And then! It's all a depressing feeling! Very irritated! It'll be fine if I take more medicine! Actually, it's brain damage! For people like me! I have a certain advantage! I can't stay calm! Idiot! How do I feel? Sigh, I really don't understand! Sigh, this is a problem! I don't know! Sigh, I really don't understand! It's really! Hur hur! I can't stay calm! Sigh, what's going on! There are mistakes! Even I can't accept it! I can't face it! And then! It'll be difficult to eat! I can't stay calm! I have to be more calm! There's a problem! Don't I know! Hur hur! I might be a joker! Haha! I still don't understand life! Why? I should be clear about it! Sigh, forget it! Life is always so depressing! How do I feel? Sigh, it's over! I'm sorry! This way! Is it really okay? I can't stay calm! I thought so! It feels like this! Especially bad! Damn it! This way! Life is so depressing! Melon eater! Isn't it not good? I thought so! It feels so depressing! I don't know! I have mixed feelings! The pressure is so great that it feels a little unreal! Unreal, this feeling! It feels a little like motion sickness! To put it simply! It's dizziness! That's enough of you! Damn it! Now, hur hur! I can't learn anything! Then! Nothing! Something that can't be calm! Then! It's over! How do I feel! Sigh, what is life! I can't do it! I feel like everything is a trap! Then! I want to think about life! I'm very unhappy! Then! It's really over! It's not easy! I thought so! I'm doomed! I'm doomed! Then, there's nothing else! I don't really understand! Sigh, what can I do! Sigh! I can't do it! Sigh! I don't really understand! Then! I'm speechless! Then! There's no other way! Sigh! I really don't understand! Sigh! What is life! It's always so depressing! Sigh! I feel! I really can't calm down! I thought so! Sigh, life is so heavy! Haha! I thought so! Haha! Kid, you're such a joke! I might not understand! I'm finished! Dumbass! You kid! Look at yourself! Is it really okay? Sigh, I'm so depressed! I can't do it myself! It's all a trap! I can choose! I really can choose! I feel it myself! I can't calm down! I really don't have a choice! Sigh! I'm so shameless! Then! That's it! Now it's so bleak! It's like a phone bill! I don't have any money! People who go to top up! Sigh! I can't calm down! Then! I really don't understand! I want to think about life! I'm not happy! I'm so tired! I thought so! That's enough! I'm not too happy! I'm depressed! Do I know myself? Then! I really don't understand! I thought so! Look at myself! Is it really okay? I'm not happy! Then! Sigh, there's no other way! Then! I really can't do it! Kid! Unstable state! This problem! I can't do anything about it! All mental patients are like this! I can't calm down! Sigh! I'm so depressed! Then! I can't do anything about it! There's no other way! Sigh, I'm done for! I don't understand! I can't do it at all! Sigh! There's no other way! Sigh, forget it! I don't understand! Sigh, this is considered a problem! I thought so myself! Sigh, I really don't understand either! Sigh! I'm done for! Sigh! There's really no other way! Sigh! I feel! These are nothing! Sigh! I really don't understand! These are my feelings! Is this considered a problem? Sigh, I really don't understand! Haha! I thought so myself! How do I feel! Hur hur! I'm not happy! Damn! These problems! They're huge! Sigh, there's no other way! Sigh! I really don't understand! Sigh! This is considered a tragedy! Don't I know it myself! Kid, you're retarded! I only found out now! It's possible that you have cerebral palsy! I can't calm down! Damn it! This! Isn't this not good! I actually have all kinds of headaches! And uneasiness! This feeling! This is really enough! I'm very confused! What is this considered a problem? Sigh, I don't understand! Sigh, I thought so myself! Sigh, what is life! It's always a trap! I feel it myself! How is it! Sigh! It's so painful! Is this really considered pain? Hur hur! Young man! I can't calm down! I have to think about some things properly! I can't calm down! Don't I know it myself! I have to think about it slowly! I feel it myself! Sigh, what is life! It's always a tragedy! I thought so myself! Aihaha! I can't calm down! Sigh, there's nothing I can do! Hur hur! Can't I do it myself? Sigh, this is how life works! It's a little complicated! I don't know at all! What the heck, I'm fine! I'd better complain a little! This TV series! The acting is too much! This TV series! I can only tell it like this! Haha! It's really enough! I can't look straight at it! Haha! I can't accept it! Sigh! There's no other way! This kind of situation! From my point of view! In theory! It's really impossible! Haha! How do I feel! Life is always! It's all a problem! Don't I understand it myself! Sigh, forget it! This matter! I can't feel it myself! Sigh! What do I think! What is going on! Can anyone tell me! How do I feel! It's depressing! There's a problem with this! I can't do anything about it! Other than a headache! It's just a headache! How do I feel! Sigh, what is life! It's all complicated! Aihaha! I feel like I'm going to heaven! What a joke! Watching such a TV series! My head hurts too! It's too fake! But this so-called packaging! It's still pretty good! I can't calm down! I thought so myself! How do I feel! Sigh, what is life! It's all a trap! I thought so myself! I'm not happy! Don't I understand! Sigh, this is a trap! I don't know myself either! Sigh! What is life! I can't calm down! Haha! How do I feel! Sigh, it's all so depressing! Sigh, what a tragedy of life! I want to go to heaven! Dumbass! You'll die a second time! I can't do anything about it! I'm different from ordinary people! It's totally different! Ordinary people go to work in factories! Play mahjong at night! This kind of life! I can't get through it! Because I'm very tired! I can't take this kind of suffering! Hur hur! I'm really not happy! It's really depressing! Just thinking about it makes me depressed! And especially heavy! How do I feel! I can't calm down! I can't do it myself! I have no choice! I can't say that it's all fate! There's such a trap! It's actually impossible! I can only say that I'm mentally ill! It might be acting up! I thought so! Hur hur! I can't calm down! I knew it! I can't take it! I can't calm down! I thought so! Sigh! It's like going to heaven! Dumbass! You kid! You're so funny every day! And then! I can't calm down! I feel so! I'm absolutely speechless! Sigh! And then there's no other way! I thought so! I really don't understand! Sigh, what is life! I'm not happy! This is a tragedy! Young people! That's enough! Hur hur! Don't forget some things! There's always hope! Although how should I put it! It's still very slim! Hope is such a thing! It can only be seen with a microscope! Only then can it be seen! Haha! Seeing because I believe! Or believing because I see! It's a trap! This matter! I'm in a dilemma! I'm depressed! There are too many traps! I've made a lot of mistakes too! Self-discipline ability! It's really too little! They belong to a group of people who can't calm down! Hur hur! Arrogance and whatnot! It's all a trap! I'm still casual! But arrogant and unruly! Forget it! I can't even eat! I've said it before! I'm a coward! And then! There's no other way! Sigh, I really don't know! I don't understand at all! And then! I'm done for! That's enough! Sigh, I'm also very speechless! There's really no other way! Arrogant and unruly! It's a trap! That's just a superficial understanding! Damn it! I'm not free and easy at all! My heart is especially heavy! It's so frustrating! It's not important! This is a negative evaluation! Damn it! Just thinking about it gives me a headache! What evaluation! It's not important! These idiots! I'm quite scared! Hur hur! What do they mean! I don't understand at the beginning! It's really, really! I don't know myself! Sigh, there's no other way! Sigh, what about life! All kinds of depressing! Sigh! I was wrong! Alright! Sigh, I can't calm down! I don't know either! Sigh, it's over! It's over! I feel it myself! What about life! It's really a headache! Think about it properly! I'm also quite a rascal! Disappointment and despair! Confusion! There's definitely no lack of it! Damn it! What else can I do! This is a complicated problem! Don't I know myself! Sigh! Abnormal mental state! There's definitely no lack of it! What about life! It's also very depressing! What about my own feelings! I'm not happy! What can I do by myself! I'm speechless! I'm confused about some problems! It's really enough! Damn it! What a pain in the ass! I can't do anything about it! Sigh, then! It's over! Sigh, what about life! It's always so depressing! Sigh, forget it! You're such a joke! Sigh, I feel! These scams! It's really enough! Damn it! I'm almost out of money! That's hehe! Sigh! Life! How am I supposed to think! Damn it! I'm not happy! I thought so! Sigh, I can't do it! I need to calm down! Sigh! My stomach is full of pig head meat! It's also a scam! What about my own feelings! I'm not happy! Then! There's nothing else! What about my feelings! Hahahaha! Sigh! Damn it! There's actually such a situation! It's just a problem with your mentality! You're hopeless! I can't do anything about it! I can't do anything about it! Sigh, what do I want to do about it! Sigh, I really don't know! Lie down! My body can't take it! My lifestyle! It's not very good either! Damn it! I can't even control myself! I can't restrain myself! Then! What a scam! Don't I understand! Sigh, what about life! It's all a scam! Don't I know! Sigh! I'm so depressed! What about my own feelings! I can't calm down! That's enough for me! Sigh! Life is always a little bleak! I'm speechless! Then! There's no other way! I'm simply laughing at it! I'm a good-for-nothing! This matter! Sigh, I really can't do it! Let me properly experience it! Sigh! I really don't know! Sigh, then! All kinds of scams! They're all things that make me speechless! Sigh! I really don't understand! Sigh, what about life! It's such a pity! It's really too much! I can't calm down! Sigh! I need to think about life! It feels really bad! Haha! What should I do! All kinds of haha! Don't I know! Sigh! This matter! It's really painful! I thought so! Sigh, it feels like this! Is it really okay? I'm not happy! I think so! I really don't understand! Sigh, it's really, really! I still don't understand! Sigh! What about life! It doesn't feel good! I thought so! It really doesn't feel good! I really don't understand! Sigh, it's over! I thought so! I really don't understand! My feelings! Sigh, life is always speechless! Don't I know! Sigh, there are some things! Maybe only those who have experienced it! Only then will they understand a little! Haha! Don't I know! Sigh, forget it! Feeling these things! I'm also very depressed! Sigh, I can't help it! What about my feelings! Sigh, life is heavy! What about it! Is it really not okay? Change the angle! Think about it properly! What about my feelings! Can't calm down! Haha! I thought so myself! Sigh, can't calm down! I don't know! Haha! Think about it properly! What about life! I'm not happy! I think so myself! I'm depressed! Don't I know! Sigh! What about life! It's really enough! Sigh! I need to think about it properly! Can't calm down! I thought so! Sigh! I don't understand at all! What about my feelings! I didn't know at the beginning! And then! I thought so! I'm not happy! Damn it! The pressure of life! It's too much! My head feels dizzy! I think I have a lot of problems too! Can't calm down! Haha! I'm not happy! What about my feelings! What about life! Not good! Sigh, forget it! This kind of trap! What about my feelings! It's really! Isn't it good? Hur hur! Life is so depressing! I can't do it at all! Sigh! I don't really understand it myself! Sigh, my feelings! These are all traps! What about my feelings! Can't calm down! These problems! I'm laughing at myself! Sigh, what about life! They're all traps! That's all I can say! Don't I know! Sigh, what about my feelings! Sigh, these are all very painful traps! And then! Can't calm down! Sigh, speechless! What about my feelings! Hur hur! I don't understand! What is life! I need to think about it properly! I'm simply a joker! A personality that seeks death! Also for myself! There's no other way! Alright, alright! Forget it! Kid, you're not calm! It's all tears! I've calmed down! That's not normal! I was born with such a personality! And then! Sinful! But mental illness! It's just one aspect! I have to say! There are too many mental illnesses! Someone as brainless as me! There are still some! This is fine, right? At least I'm alive! I'm not lonely! A good-for-nothing! What a joker! What about my feelings! Sigh, life is full of surprises! It's a very painful feeling! Sigh! Depressing! There's no other way! Sigh, the path of life! What else can I do! I'm depressed! I'm quite speechless! All these things! Sigh, that's enough! Sigh! I can't do it! Sigh! There's no other way! Sigh! I'm done for! You kid! That's enough! Sigh! Life is destined! Hehe! I'm not happy! Life is always like that! Is it really okay? I'm not happy! And then! There's really no other way! I definitely can't do it! Sigh! Haha! Kid, you're a joker! I feel like a good-for-nothing! And then! There's nothing else! What do I think! It's really funny! My heart is very heavy! I have to say! Mental illness! Delusion and fantasy! Whatever! It's quite serious! Damn it! Actually, it's not that bad! This is something I was born with! It's all a trap! How do I know! Because since I was young! That's how I look when I'm in pain! Haha! I can't calm down! I thought I didn't know! My desire to win is too strong! I can't calm down! That's not the problem! Damn it! I'm depressed! Haha! I feel it myself! But I have some advantages! What would I say! The so-called advantages and disadvantages! Theoretically speaking! They complement each other! It depends on my guidance! And to improve my understanding! Hehe! What does that mean? Advantages can become disadvantages! Disadvantages can also become advantages! What I want is not so-called victory! But a better life! Pain in the ass! That's really enough! Damn it! Personality factors! And my future experiences! It's also a trap! Paranoia is definitely unavoidable! Damn it! From what I understand! Mental patients are especially stubborn! Someone like me isn't too exaggerated! Damn it, why do I say that! All kinds of patients! I've seen it before too! I'm depressed! This normal person! It's a slap in the face to a mental patient! I can't look straight at it! Haha! Damn it! I was wrong! I shouldn't have known! I can't calm down! But I found out about it! This is just haha! The problem of mental patients! It's really heart-wrenching! It's too difficult! My case is still considered good! Some mental patients! That's a tragedy! What does that mean! Forget it! When my illness acts up! It's also quite painful! I can't take it at all! When my illness acted up six years ago! It's so painful! Damn it! I can't take it at all! View of the world! Completely collapsed! It's just haha! I thought! Worldview and whatnot! It's completely subverted! It's too terrifying! Haha! And then! It's actually all a trap! Recover! It's still quite difficult! It needs opportunities! It needs time to recuperate! It needs time to recover! Damn it! People like me! Don't write anything! I'm afraid I really can't take it! Depressing and whatnot! Although it's not considered depressing! Don't tell me I don't know! My life! It's already very good! How do I know! Some mental patients! Just thinking about it makes me cry! There's nothing I can do! Haha! It's really haha! A tragedy is not just a tragedy! It's over! What do I have to think about! These problems! What should I say! I don't understand! Sigh, I'm speechless! Haha! Kid, are you a joker? Or something! Why don't I know! Kid, you're really going to ascend to the heavens! Haha! I feel it myself! I'm not happy! Joker! I'm a fool! Kid, use your brain! Okay! I have to say! Mental patients are very difficult! It's especially not easy to live! These problems! They all exist objectively! Just thinking about it makes me feel uncomfortable! What do I want to say! Sigh! I'm depressed! There are some problems with being healthy! I think it's still necessary! Mental patients are always bullied! It's really enough! I thought so! Damn it! I'm not convinced! Can I still do it! Be a good person! Actually, the truth is always cruel! I thought so! The problem is simple! I'm too ambitious! There are some problems! I don't want to talk about myself anymore! In my world! Other people are very strong! Why? I'm very scared! And then! It's all a trap! So! This mentality! It's a little sick! But to a certain extent! Very strong! What does it mean to be strong! Hur Hur! I definitely don't understand! This is what everyone thinks! Look at your own angle! And where you stand! I'm especially not calm! Haha! I'm starting to feel a little lost! Not calm! Haha! I can't do it myself! Sigh, I really don't know! Sigh! It's all over! I have no other way! It's all over! I can't do it! Sigh, that's enough! Haha! I don't understand! Sigh! What about life! It's all so depressing! There's no other way! Sigh! I don't understand! Sigh, how does it feel! Sigh! I really don't know! Haha! I thought so myself! Sigh, I don't understand! Haha! I've had enough! My problem! It's a trap! It's a joke! I might not be clear about it myself! Haha! There's no other way! Think about life properly! I can't do it! Sigh, forget it! You're a joker! Haha! I really don't understand! Sigh, I really can't do it! Sigh, it's really enough! Sigh! I thought so myself! Sigh, it's too heavy! Sigh! Sigh, don't be afraid! What's the use! I'm very afraid! Sigh, what about my feelings! Sigh, what about life! I don't understand! I thought so myself! Sigh, I really don't know! I'm just a joker! I really don't understand! Haha! It really doesn't feel so good! Sigh! Life is so depressing! I didn't know at the beginning! Sigh! Haha! What about life! It's all depressing! Sigh, then! Sigh, I really don't know! Then! My ability to express myself! It's really not good! I'm done for! Especially! I can tell them all! My mood! It's very unstable! And then! I'm laughing! I'm not calm! Sigh, then! Sigh, I'm feeling depressed! What about life! It's all a trap! Sigh! I'm tearing up just thinking about it! And then! It's a scam! There's actually a power outage! This is too much! I'm very depressed! I've slept until now! It's all a trap! It's too stressful! Or something else! Hur hur! My heart is very empty! This is even more stressful! It's even more terrifying! Damn it! Hur hur! Mental illness! People like me! I'm indeed rather lazy! It's so painful! I thought so myself! This way! Is it really okay! I'm not calm! What about my thoughts! What about feelings! It's so depressing! So! Maybe this is called confusion! Hur hur! It's really enough! I'm not happy! Learning without thinking is brilliant! I belong to the category of people who are especially confused! My mind is empty! And then! Mental illness! It's indeed very serious! When I'm in a good state! Actually, it's still possible! What if it's not good? Hur hur! Sigh! Damn! There's actually such a trap! Damn it! What do I want to say! I might have to think about life! Research on some problems! And train of thought! It's very limited! Some principles are simple! But to be specific! It's still different! But there's no difference! I might not be clear about it! Haha! I'm still an idealist! More! This is a kind of expectation! I can't let it despair! It spreads throughout my entire world! This way! I might not be able to bear it! Sure enough, eat and sleep well! Be energetic! Compose like this! It's very easy! There's just no food to eat! Then feel something! Especially confused! This is really enough! I can't calm down! Haha! What do I think! These things! I think! Actually, it's still very tragic! I can't calm down! Idiot! That's enough from you! Take it slow! I'm definitely anxious! I'm scared! I'm not calm enough! And then! It's easy to not have anything to eat! I really don't understand! What should I say! Idiot! Take your time to think about some problems! Open your eyes! There's a problem! Sigh, I'm very shameless! I don't understand! How do I feel! Sigh, this is not easy! Think about it carefully! Sigh! The road of life is always long! What do I feel? Sigh, then there's nothing else! It's not easy! I can only say that! Sigh, there's no other way! There's simply no other way! I really don't understand! Sigh, what can I do? I need to think about it carefully! I can't calm down at all! Dumbass, that's enough from you! I can't calm down at all! Do I have any thoughts? Hehe, I really don't understand! Sigh! How do I feel? Sigh, I'm especially good at watching melons! Sigh, feeling! What's all this! Sigh, it's just too boring! I need to think about life properly! Sigh! It's not that easy! Sigh, I'm finished! Sigh, I really don't understand! Sigh, it's too scary! These problems! What can I do? Sigh! I really don't understand! Sigh, it's so sad! Sigh, it's really not that easy! Sigh! Think about it carefully! Actually, it's still okay! My spirit is too good! To be honest! I really can't get used to it! I'm going! There's actually such a trap! I'm speechless! Then! There's no other way! I thought I knew! Or what! That's really enough! Take it slow! There's no need to rush! Sigh! It's really painful! Haha! It's impossible for me to know! Sigh! I'm completely hopeless! I'm speechless! What should I say! Think about life! Or what to do! Sigh, there's really no other way! I thought it was! It's really like that! It's heavier! Then! There's no other way! But I have to say! The difference in ability! There's still a difference! I'm speechless! Just thinking about it makes my balls hurt! This is such a tragedy! Then! What else can I say! I can't calm down! Haha! Feeling this problem! It's not simple! I'm really speechless! Then! I really don't understand! Sigh! I feel like I'm not clear about it myself! Damn it! It's really heavy! Sigh! That's really enough! I can only say! I want to think about life! I don't really understand! Actually, these problems! In itself! It's more complicated! I'm not calm! I feel it myself! Sigh, it's really depressing! Sigh, it's really heavy! These problems! I'm really not clear about it! I can't calm down! I chuckle! Sigh, mood and whatnot! It's a little strange! Then! That's it! I'm really not calm! Then, I'm speechless! That's it! Sigh, my brain is in a mess! I'm actually only clear about it now! The feeling of being confused about life! It's really enough! I can't calm down! There's no other way! Sigh, take it slow! You brat! I really don't understand! I can only say! The accumulation of my life! It's not enough at all! Idiot! Think about it carefully! Damn it! I'm depressed! So! Could it be that I need the so-called pressure! There's a problem! I don't want to say anymore! It's all despair! Then! I really don't understand! Sigh! I really don't understand! Haha! Idiot! I thought it was! I really don't know! Damn it! Pay attention to what! Actually, there's nothing to pay attention to! Why do you have to be so deliberate! Isn't it not good? Haha! I don't understand! Think about it carefully! I simply have to continue thinking about life! Sigh! My brain is actually empty! This problem! I'm laughing! Oh my god! Because there's a problem! Put it in my brain! It's really too heavy! Then! I'm laughing! What a painful feeling! Sigh, I clearly don't know! Haha! You brat, that's enough! What else can I say! Think about life! Or continue thinking about life! I'm not calm anymore! This is too scary! Haha! Don't I understand? Sigh, I'm depressed! This is a thing! A very shameless thing! I'm not calm anymore! This is a problem! But it's not a problem! I'm still too young! It's so painful! I feel it myself! I'm not calm anymore! Haha! I think it myself! Haha! I really don't understand! My God! That's enough! Damn it! Something that I have! There's no way to improve it! Being retarded is also part of the reason! Mental illness is also part of the reason! Then! Not working hard! It's also a big reason! All kinds of pressure! It's also part of the reason! These problems! It's really annoying! Then! I'm afraid I can't accept it! I always think! I can do it! Sigh! Reality is so cruel! I actually don't know!