It's coming!

It's coming in the afternoon!

Today is the 28th!

2828 kaka means to be rich!

This is an advertisement!

This money is hard to earn!

Shit tastes bad!

That's right!

My road to signing a contract is long!

Just thinking about it makes me want to cry!

Sigh!

This is the cruel reality!

But!

How should I put it!

This is also good!

This should make me persevere even more!

Not for anything else!

Just for this breath!

People live for a breath!

Why should I admit defeat!

Why can't I be stubborn for a while!

Although my ability is limited!

But I still have to be stubborn for a while!

This is life!

Although life!

It's mostly about rascals and compromise!

Why can I be stubborn!

Just once!

Don't I even have the right to choose!

There are all kinds of people in this world!

People like me also need to exist!

Why can't there be!

I can't take it easy!

I feel a strong force blocking my path!

I have to persevere!

This is my stubbornness!

I just want to write something!

Although I also want to become famous overnight!

This is undoubtedly annoying!

I have to encourage myself!

The road ahead!

Wait for me to explore it!

There are already a lot!

Martyrs!

This is not a personal issue!

This is a matter of principle!

This is a matter of integrity!

No compromise!

This is my goal!

Why should I compromise!

Although I have already compromised!

I want to hold my head high!

Live proudly!

I will never lower my head to exploiters!

And I won't deliberately smear it!

I'm just stating the truth!

I won't write anything fake!

I only write about myself!

I see it!

I hear it!

But I also want to have changes and breakthroughs!

I want to challenge myself!

Must!

I might write a fantasy novel!

It won't be good!

I feel it!

How should I put it!

So I'm writing a novel!

The person I have to defeat is myself!

I have to defeat myself!

Otherwise, I won't be able to write anything good!

What's the use!

I write these things!

It won't change anything!

It will only increase my sadness!

This depends on my attitude as a person!

As a person!

Originally!

I'm living for myself!

Looking up!

I've done it!

How should I put it!

It's just like that!

I won't compromise!

And I've been compromising!

But overall!

I want to live for myself!

I want to tell the whole world!

I'm selfish!

People are People!

Not God!

My ability is limited!

I can't make a fortune!

I might not even be able to afford to eat!

This is my sorrow!

We don't understand the world of the rich!

And!

Play all kinds of tricks!

And I've eaten one meal!

I can't feel the next meal!

It can happen at any time!

I'll starve to death!

As a person!

I still have to have a sense of crisis!

There's nothing wrong with this!

If I don't work hard!

I'll starve to death!

It's just a matter of time!

I failed to sign the contract again!

Actually, I signed the contract!

It doesn't mean much!

I just want to get some full-time attendance!

Sigh!

Uncomfortable!

In the end, I didn't get any!

This is also expected!

Life is full of rascals!

I've finally experienced it!

Actually, this is nothing!

It's my laziness!

Wishful thinking of writing a novel!

Getting rich overnight!

Becoming famous overnight!

Don't think that I didn't think of it!

I did think of it that way!

Otherwise, I wouldn't have persevered for so long!

That's why it's idealistic!

Naive!

It's also good!

It's not necessarily a bad thing!

I thought I would become famous!

But!

Actually, for a writer like me!

It doesn't mean much!

It's a burden!

I just want to live a carefree life!

That won't do!

That's why!

The thought of laziness kills!

That's how it is!

But it's good to have hope!

I don't know myself anymore!

Why write!

Maybe!

I don't understand anymore!

It's not good to think too much!

It's better to be down-to-earth!

There are so many writers!

They don't have much money!

They're still writing!

And what's the big deal about me!

I also want to be one of them!

Although it's destined!

I won't be popular!

It doesn't feel useful to be popular!

It affects my writing!

Actually, this is a world for one person!

No matter how many people I write, it's for one person to read!

Based on my own experience of writing!

Writing is definitely not for the sake of!

Everyone!

Of course, it's for the sake of myself!

I don't understand others at all!

I don't even understand myself!

I don't understand!

Why!

I want to write novels!

Maybe it's interest!

This thing!

I can't explain it anymore!

Maybe it's hope!

I can't accept it!

I don't write novels!

What can I do!

Writing novels is my only way!

For a mental patient!

Although he's mentally ill!

Writing!

There are many problems!

Of course, there are advantages!

He will be better than anyone!

He will believe in himself!

This is very important in creating a character!

But there will also be flaws!

My writing skills are almost zero!

I don't believe in writing training!

Why!

If it's a famous writer!

It can be mass produced!

That's impossible!

How should I put it!

Writing novels!

This kind of thing!

It's free!

It doesn't have to be like that!

It can also be like that!

Writing novels!

It's a kind of communication!

There's no need for so many restrictions!

As long as the feelings are real!

It won't affect the stability of society!

It can also be done!

I feel!

In this aspect!

I still have some conflicting feelings!

I'm too emotional!

It's just a personal problem!

If it's not handled well!

It becomes a social problem!

On this point!

I have a deep understanding!

Of course, this is also subjective!

It's not very objective!

It means that I think it's right!

But others might not agree!

This is my point of view!

It's called subjective!

As I write, I write!

I realize!

I can write!

I don't have many words left!

I have 2,100 words left!

It's going to end today!

Sigh!

I have to enjoy it!

The joy that 2,100 words bring me!

Actually, I can write!

I'm already very happy!

Everything else is mental illness!

It's mainly a formality of thinking!

The trouble I caused!

I can't wait to go on TV tomorrow night!

And then that award!

I really do have such thoughts now!

I did have such thoughts!

I can only say that I'm too much of a formality!

As a writer!

Can I keep a low profile!

Of course, most of the young people!

They're all like that!

More or less impetuous!

My motives are too impure!

It's like liking a girl!

I only like her good points!

Look at her face!

Then her face is good!

Her figure is good!

Everything is good!

These are my true thoughts!

I feel that I'm retarded!

How can such a person be a writer!

What are you doing being a writer!

It's just a beautiful wish!

There must be something!

Of course, it must be something idealized!

We must not reject it!

We should be more positive!

We can't be half-dead!

I feel that I've completely given up on myself!

I have such a feeling!

I don't feel it anymore!

I can't live without a beauty!

This woman!

That's true!

I'm the one who can't let go!

Why do you care about girls!

They don't flaunt their beauty!

Can there be such things?

None of them are so beautiful!

Will I like them?

I'll blame others and myself!

As for me!

I won't!

Who asked these girls!

So beautiful!

So beautiful!

My brain!

It's definitely flooded!

I really want to!

Make myself!

Kill myself!

I hate myself too!

My vile face!

I don't even want to see it!

I'm guilty!

Continue!

But beautiful things must be preserved!

Purely liking is fine!

No way!

We must be friends!

Sigh, it's uncomfortable!

There aren't many beauties to begin with!

They're so popular!

Girls are a scarce resource to begin with!

Maybe I have a girlfriend!

We can't talk about it!

No!

I can't write!

There's no sense of balance!

How can you write a novel!

You have a beauty too!

How can there be such a good thing!

Girls are a scarce resource to begin with!

They're a scarce resource to begin with!

I'm mentally ill!

I don't have money!

I don't have the ability!

Reality is cruel!

And I haven't realized it yet!

When I realize it!

It might be too late!

I have such a feeling!

Why do I say that!

There are many reasons!

Humans mainly want to survive!

To live a good life!

And to follow me!

To eat and wear!

I might not be able to solve it!

I've finally realized my problem!

To follow me!

I might not even have food to eat!

So to pursue!

I can't live the so-called high-end life!

And I can only be down-to-earth!

To pursue!

A commoner's life!

I might not even want to have a wedding!

But I never expected!

Weddings can actually make money!

Forget it, it's just this once!

It's just going through the motions!

I don't want to have a wedding at all!

Is it enough to just get a marriage certificate?

I'm looking for someone like that!

There are fewer and fewer people like that!

I don't have a choice!

Otherwise, I definitely wouldn't be like this!

Before my illness acted up!

I'm a hypocrite!

Just like that!

I hate myself!

Just like how I was in the past!

Sigh, I still have to find a down-to-earth girl!

She's better than anything else!

She's pretty!

I can't afford it!

People will always grow old!

I can't even think about it!

Be a writer, my ass!

Maybe those Ms Perfect!

How old would they be!

I don't even want to look!

I might vomit every time I look at it!

It's better to find an average one!

That's the quality I value the most!

Kindhearted!

An average one will do!

Love for work is a must!

That's all I have!

But!

This is also a high-quality girl!

More than Ms Perfect!

More popular!

Level!

Higher!

And more practical!

How should I put it!

And Ms Perfect!

Temptation!

Not just a little bit!

I can't resist the temptation of Ms Perfect!

To pursue!

Ms Perfect!

Sigh!

But everything is not set in stone yet!

I haven't been taught a lesson by Ms Perfect!

Indeed, I can only learn after I've been tricked!

But I can't take such a loss!

I'm a mental patient!

I definitely can't take such a huge blow!

So I don't want to be hurt!

There was only one!

I have no choice!

This is a process in life!

This is a choice between ideals and reality!

Of course!

It's not that exaggerated!

But it's also very important!

I can't take the blow!

Give birth to a child!

Run away on your own!

How do you expect me to raise it!

In the future!

I'll look for a partner!

I'll have to make some things clear!

I'll have to be honest with them!

I've seen a lot of things like this!

Sigh!

These girls!

What will they do!

They'll definitely marry us mental patients!

What a loser!

About this!

I still have to recognize it!

I don't have a choice!

As I said that!

I want to cry!

Why do I have to cry!

It's someone else's fault!

Why do I have to take responsibility!

This is a societal problem!

You know I'm a good person!

Actually, this is also good!

I don't care so much!

Is it possible?

It's impossible to not care!

I still don't want to!

To have such a girl appear in front of me!

Sigh!

Uncomfortable!

What if she's really good to me!

Sigh!

Life!

It's so hard to make a choice!

Some things still have to be thought through!

I'm indeed a good-for-nothing!

Following me won't solve the problem of food and clothing!

I'm quite clear about this!

Sigh!

Can you!

Don't be so direct about me!

Brother Jian!

Be more reserved!

Just say it!

I still have to work hard!

The kind with a boundless future!

Forgive me for being direct!

Marriage is for living!

It's not for show!

I should be more honest!

It's fine if you don't like me!

I don't have to be conflicted!

It's not that I can't live if I don't get married!

There are plenty of people who are mentally ill and not married!

There are both women and men!

There are all kinds of people!

There won't be one more!

En!

That's it!

Finding a ward mate or not was another problem!

There are too few!

There are too many scams!

That's it!

Female ward mates don't like people like me!

I can't speak either!

What!

I've said everything!

In their words!

I'm a scum!

I've only said what's on my mind!

Then you're hopeless!

I can feel it!

My own quality!

It should also be improved!

My quality!

It's enough to be able to find a partner!

There are many restrictions in this world!

Playing a game!

There are different levels!

That's enough!

No way!

And I'm just some!

Cannon fodder!

Cannon fodder!

I'm also enlightened!

I don't think so!

Those so-called experts are so powerful!

Didn't they use money to achieve that!

They could also be internal players!

Actually, my mentality is wrong!

Then why!

You need to be more powerful!

I need to be weaker!

Damn!

I can't figure it out!

Now I'm back to reality. Why do you have so much money!

And I can't even solve the problem of food and clothing!

That's the problem!

The sad thing is that I feel so good about myself!

Why is it like this!

I'm worth thinking about!

Reality is cruel!

I need to be more open-minded!

That's the attitude of a person!

I'm not good enough!

I'm just a formality!

Official thinking!

En, today is the eighth paragraph!

I'm going to put it on my phone!

I'll start uploading it tomorrow!

This eighth paragraph has 200,000 words!

Front and back!

I've already written it!

400,000 words!

En!

It's worth being happy!

I don't feel any change!

Actually, I've changed a little!

I still haven't changed!

Look!