Continue!

I'm in so much pain!

Sigh!

I can't take it easy!

Why is it like this!

I feel terrible!

It can't be like this!

It's like this today!

How can it be like this!

It can't be like this!

It can't be like this!

I feel like if I continue writing like this!

It's meaningless!

I feel like I'm guilty as a human being!

I feel terrible!

How can it be like this!

How should I put it!

Or is my thinking just a formality!

That explains the problem!

The problem has been highlighted!

Being like this!

It's also a form of art!

Annoyance!

How can it be like this!

I feel like I can't continue writing!

There's a possibility that I might stop updating at any moment!

I don't want to write anymore!

It's meaningless to write!

It's just like this!

It's terrible!

And I'm going to accept the challenge!

I'm just a little bit!

I don't want to live anymore!

How can I meet such a person!

It can't be like this!

It's terrible!

Sigh!

I'm so annoyed!

It can't be like this!

It's like this!

Continue!

It's not right!

I can't take it easy!

I really want to kill myself!

I want to plant this despicable person!

It's so terrible!

I don't want it to be like this!

And I have no choice!

I hate it to death!

This guy!

He's a silly dog!

Continue!

I'm guilty as a human being!

It's just like this!

Annoyance!

My thinking is just a formality!

What do I have to worry about?!

I should be more open-minded!

I'll live one day at a time!

It's all the same!

I just have too much hope!

In the end!

I don't have the ability!

To bear it!

It's terrible!

So it's still hard to be a human being!

It's just like this!

Continue!

This is a difficult writing process!

I don't want to say anything!

It's terrible!

I can't take it easy!

I can't do anything about it!

I can't avoid it!

Reality!

I have to continue writing with difficulty!

I've had enough!

How can I meet such a person!

I'm going to completely cut off all ties!

Go!

This life!

It's so sad!

It's terrible!

Sigh, how can it be like this!

This is something I didn't expect!

And I told myself I can't hate it!

I can't do this!

Why!

Humans are like this!

That's why I say my character is flawed!

I hate myself!

It means that my existence is a mistake!

It's fine if I'm dead!

Dying is just a matter of time!

I just want to see the world!

Sigh!

The flaw in my character is too great!

It can't be fixed!

This is something instinctive!

This is the result of long-term learning!

Sigh!

He again!

How about it!

The only thing I can do is to!

Stay away from him!

That's it!

I have to be ruthless!

I have to get rid of this guy!

Well, he's educating me like a dog!

He's not going to cripple me!

I can't take it lying down!

I've had enough!

How can there be no conflict!

But life is short!

There's only this one time!

I didn't do it well!

I just didn't do it well!

No matter who it is!

I'm doing the right thing!

Not the person!

That's it!

It's terrible!

It's really!

I'm guilty as a person!

No choice!

I can't do it!

What I need to do now is to be independent!

Leave this unbearable family!

That's it!

Continue!

Life is so difficult!

Go!

Continue my life!

And life!

Is it!

Tragic!

I just don't understand!

Why is it like this!

It's not good!

I can't!

This guy is too much!

I really can't!

Continue!

I can't do it well!

Seriously!

What kind of family is this!

What kind of scum is this!

I don't want to get married!

I can't get married!

Forget it!

I'm such a moron!

I should still be destitute!

That's it!

How should I put it!

This isn't a big deal!

It's not to that extent!

This isn't a big deal!

This world!

It's so shameless!

I can't do anything about it!

For me personally!

To get married or not!

It doesn't mean much!

That's it!

But my thoughts!

It's not completely useless!

At least!

I know what I want!

Whether my child goes to school or not!

It's my own business!

It doesn't matter if it's good or bad!

Even if I get in!

Tsinghua University!

I don't think so either!

It's glorious!

What's the use!

What's so great about it!

Just the concept itself!

It's wrong!

Well, it's a sin as a person!

Uncultured!

Thoughtless!

It's also a sin!

I've had enough!

Continue!

It's none of my business!

Life is like this!

It's not good!

I can still write!

A few books!

A profound novel!

That's it!

You can say that!

Well, that's right!

How do I live my life!

It's all over!

You can't blame me for my attitude!

I'm just a little healthy!

So!

In my name!

There's the word 'healthy'!

How should I put it!

These guys!

It's useless to say it!

I have to be aware of this!

Instead, I'm the one who's sad!

Why not!

Open one eye!

Close one eye!

What does it have to do with me!

Hate!

I'm the one who's in pain!

Why should I make life difficult for myself!

I can only say that!

I'm really flawed in my character!

That's how it came out!

Continue!

My difficult creation!

I have to be more open-minded!

What face and favor!

Will eventually!

Turn into nothing!

Why should I care about that!

I'm just that useless!

Continue!

This creation!

I have nothing to say!

My life!

I still have to do it myself!

My thoughts are too superficial!

I can only say that I'm still a hypocrite deep down!

I don't even want to do anything!

I only want to!

Be a caveman!

There's no other way!

I can't do that!

The so-called society!

Morality doesn't allow it!

I want to die!

I just want to see the world a little more!

There's nothing wrong with that!

A person's life is like that!

A good life!

A good life!

It's all the same!

But death!

There's nothing left!

There's no thought!

Being able to suffer is also a blessing!

Why do I say that!

A dead person doesn't feel pain!

A dead person!

That's freedom!

A human's life is no different from those living creatures!

That's how it is!

I still have to make use of what I've learned!

And create!

I don't want to live forever!

Become a god or something!

What's the use of that!

This is a painful process!

Not everyone will feel pain!

I feel pain and I feel pride!

That's how it is!

Pain is good!

I can still write a few books!

A sad novel!

Although people might not read it!

So what!

I'm writing it for myself!

This is my work after I pass it down!

I don't know how society will develop in the future!

But I don't look forward to it!

It's useless!

Actually, it's still!

The result of the struggle for survival!

To fight!

To survive!

There are things!

I shouldn't care!

I don't care!

Including my own life!

Death!

That's good!

Death is also a kind of enjoyment!

Death!

There's nothing left!

A person's life is like that!

Sigh!

The path of life!

It's so hard to walk!

But I didn't do well!

I want to be myself!

Not the self that others talk about!

What kind of person am I!

Don't I know it?

Yes, I'm lazy!

I'm also mentally ill!

I thought that everyone in the world!

You're all living for me!

But it's not like that at all!

It turns out that I'm also lying to myself!

I really want to go crazy!

I'm actually already crazy!

I'm not crazy!

I don't want to live!

It's similar to this!

It turns out!

I also know how to lie to myself!

I'm a mentally ill person!

I need to work hard!

I can't stay in a mental hospital!

As long as I can live!

There's no need to care so much!

This is because I'm too hypocritical!

I can't be hypocritical!

That's why!

I still have problems!

If I want to go crazy, I'll go completely crazy!

It's best!

This is what I want!

Otherwise, it should be given to me!

Sober up!

It's just that being a human is a sin!

I know how to use a computer!

It's also something that happened when I was 21 years old!

Compared to children now!

I'm illiterate!

But!

I didn't expect!

To be able to write such sadness!

The person writing the novel is me!

Not everyone can be sad!

And I'm a sad person!

I know myself well!

My sadness!

You don't understand!

How should I put it!

I can't stand such a life!

Perhaps life is like this!

Nothing is eternal!

I'm very pessimistic!

I'm very negative!

Nothing is worth me!

I'm happy!

I feel terrible!

How can it be like this!

It can't be!

Continue!

This is writing!

I'm too narrow-minded!

I have problems!

No matter what!

I have to be more open-minded!

It's just like this!

Continue!

This life!

This is a difficult creation!

Fortunately!

In the future!

There's no one who can hinder me!

It's also good!

It's just like this!

I'm very happy!

Life is so tragic!

I'm sure!

There'll be endless bitterness to vent!

However!

I'll eventually become numb!

You know it!

I won't become numb so easily!

I'm very pretentious!

But this is the problem of life!

It's not the kind of person who wants to kill!

This is also a problem!

A harmonious society!

How can there be such a person like me!

I'm very pessimistic!

Why is it like this!

I feel terrible!

Continue!

I have words today!

I won't say anymore!

I can just say it!

I still have a thousand words!

Yes!

I intend to write more!

Of course, not ten thousand words!

Originally!

I wanted to!

Throw away the computer!

But how should I put it!

I can't bear to!

This computer is expensive!

I use electricity a day!

It's at least one yuan!

If I calculate it this way!

The computer is too expensive!

And the Internet cable!

Two yuan a day!

Of course, it can't be calculated like this!

I can't live like this!

And I'm living at the bottom!

I know how difficult it is!

I have nothing!

Continue!

My difficult creation!

It shouldn't be like this!

I should be independent!

Sooner or later, I'll be independent!

There won't be a second 22-year-old in life!

I should cherish it!

I'm considered lucky!

Although it's a little tough!

Compared to some people!

I'm living a very good life!

Forgive!

I!

But I can write novels!

I'm also very lucky!

I have ample opportunities to express my feelings!

It's just like this!

Sigh!

There are so many things in life!

But I'm not good enough!

Because I've already gone crazy once!

So!

I'm still improving!

It's just like this!

I can go crazy!

It's also an opportunity!

As an imbecile!

My parents don't realize my problem!

Sigh!

My education!

People who affect me!

What is it!

How should I put it!

It's hard to say!

My personality is actually before I go crazy!

It's also like this!

A one-track mind!

Too serious!

It's just like this!

Sigh!

How should I put it!

I'm just such a person!

I feel terrible!

I'm not eating dinner tonight!

I'm just muddling through life!

It doesn't matter!

This is my own choice!

Even if I can't start a family!

I want to live on!

I just want to see more of the world!

How should I put it!

Suddenly, I thought it through!

I still have to continue writing novels!

I'm still lucky!

Of course, writing novels!

It's good!

At least I can express my feelings!

Although there aren't many returns!

I don't think so!

What's wrong with that!

There's a saying!

There might not be returns if there's effort!

And if there's no effort, there won't be any!

It's just like this!

I still have returns!

At least I won't go crazy so exaggeratedly!

This is still good!

I don't want to hate myself!

But writing needs!

I need such emotions!

I still really hate myself!

But it's not pure hate!

I like myself from the bottom of my heart!

I can't do that for others!

So true love!

Actually, in our hearts!

I love myself!

Damn!

Others are just substitutes!

I still love myself!

Of course!

It's wrong of me to say that!

But we are!

We evolved this way!

We still retain some characteristics!

Actually, the person I love the most is myself!

It's just like this!

I'm not selfish!

How can that be!

It's this feeling!

After writing this chapter!

I'm going to sleep!

Mm!

That's right!

Continue!

This writing!

This difficult writing!

I still have a lot of concerns!

I'm afraid!

I'm afraid people will know I'm crazy!

They won't let me live!

They'll go against me!

Actually, it's not like this!

They know I'm crazy!

It's fine!

I'm just worried about this!

I'm afraid people will target me!

It's this feeling!

I realize what I'm writing!

A lot of people can't understand it!

Actually, I'm not writing anything!

I'm just writing about a person's mental illness!

Thinking about life!

It's just that simple!

All my works!

It's nothing more than that!

Removing the gorgeous packaging!

And writing about this!

I don't even know this!

Why write a novel!

That's really a joke!

Of course!

This is a direction!

It can be said that!

Novels nowadays!

100 books!

99 of them are about life!

Cultivation is also a kind of life!

It's just that I haven't experienced it before!

It's fresh!

Actually, this kind of protagonist theory is not good!

This is individualism!

Why should I be the protagonist!

Outstanding talent!

There are all kinds of opportunities!

Actually, everyone will think of themselves as the protagonist!

However, people who guess people's hearts,

Are definitely scary people!

Damn!

What does it have to do with me!

I'm just guessing!

I don't understand others!

I don't even understand myself!

You asked me to write!

What kind of person am I!

I really can't write well!

Write it!

It's not complete!

People are complicated things!

However, after so many years!

I'm still a child!

I won't bear grudges!

Continue!

There's a fatal flaw in my character!

Of course!

There are advantages to this!

There are also disadvantages!

This is a kind of self-regulation mechanism!

Alright!

That's it!

Goodbye!

Tomorrow!

Goodbye!

I'll stop writing for a day!