Let's not talk about resting!

Today is Sunday!

But I'm not going to work!

So I'm not going to rest!

Yes!

Find an excuse!

I just want to slack off!

It's only a few more minutes until 10 PM!

I'll wake up too!

It's already late enough!

If this goes on!

That won't do!

Absolutely won't do!

This isn't good!

I'll go out and look for a job!

At most!

Ten more days!

These next few days!

The weather isn't good!

I can't go out!

Yes!

Xiao Qian heard about it!

I'm going to Shanghai!

Actually, the world isn't that big!

It's just that our hearts are too small!

We can't fit the whole world!

I don't know what kind of job I'll do!

If I do sales!

It's the New Year!

It's not fake!

Security, too!

I'll still be working on the New Year!

That's right!

That's right!

That's right!

Spring Festival 2013!

I think!

This sales!

Or!

Security!

It's the New Year!

It's the most stressful time!

That's right!

I don't know what kind of job I should do!

I can only say that I'm not capable enough!

I know how to do it!

Almost none!

I don't even know how to woo girls!

What else can I do!

I don't even dare to think about it!

Of course!

I am!

I keep on fighting despite repeated failures!

This spirit!

It's commendable!

Of course!

I'm still lacking!

Opportunity!

Of course!

My request!

It's also a scam!

Of course!

In real life!

I haven't met anyone!

Suitable!

Suitable!

I like them!

They all have partners!

For example!

Xiaoyao!

And Xiaoyang!

But!

Their age!

Indeed!

They're older than me!

College students these days!

What's wrong with them!

Didn't we agree not to date!

In the end!

One, two!

They were very passionate!

I!

Never dated!

People like me are not suitable for dating!

I have nothing!

Who's with me!

Who's the unlucky one!

How should I put it!

They won't give me any!

One or two!

That's enough!

The competition these days!

It's still very intense!

So I still have to fight!

And I!

Fight!

After all these years!

Still no!

Progress!

I haven't even held a girl's hand!

Furthermore!

I told others!

They even mocked me!

What about me!

What about it!

I'm also disappointed!

But this thing!

I really haven't held anyone's hand!

I'm 22 years old!

I don't know!

What about the opportunities in the future!

My girlfriend is like this!

I still need opportunities!

My first manuscript!

I've lost it all!

Because I've fixed a computer once!

My first book!

How should I put it!

I posted a paragraph to the east online!

A sentence to the west!

The manuscript is gone!

But I don't want to write anymore!

They're all real names!

Not too good!

This book!

They're all pseudonyms!

It's okay to think about it!

Girls are a scarce resource now!

We have to do well!

Find our own position!

But how should I put it!

Find a girlfriend!

The burden is heavy!

It's unbearable!

How should I put it!

Indeed!

The world!

There's no such thing as a free relationship!

It's just that!

I have to take responsibility!

It's enough!

You know!

My sense of responsibility!

It's almost zero!

It's not a negative number!

It's not bad!

This world!

It's enough!

Alright!

Thinking!

It's drifting!

Why did I want to study accounting!

It's mainly because!

I wanted to find an easy job!

I didn't think about it!

Whether I'm suitable or not!

And the adult college entrance examination!

Because I wanted to do it!

ceo！

This is true!

Damn!

In the end!

I'm a part-time professional again!

I didn't learn anything!

Sigh!

Unbearable!

If only I knew!

Learn!

Electronics!

Learn computing!

I didn't think about it!

This world!

I didn't know!

I'm useless now!

I don't understand at all!

That's difficult!

I'm the same now!

I can only offer my head!

That's to say!

Make my presence known!

But!

I'm such a dispensable person!

But I'm not sad!

This is within my imagination!

I'm a very low-key person!

This is good too!

Of course!

I'm just avoiding reality!

This world!

It's full of life!

Challenges!

How should I put it!

Life!

Although!

I can't quit!

I can't give up!

But!

I can have a good attitude!

That's the case!

But I can adjust my attitude!

Something happened to me!

What was I thinking!

Maybe from tomorrow onwards!

My writing style will change!

I'll be a god of writing!

But it's useless!

I've said it before!

It's just hard work!

Being unknown is also worth affirming!

It's good to read for yourself!

Of course, I don't have time to read now!

In the future!

When I have time!

Then!

I'll read slowly!

Maybe I'm not good enough!

Maybe I'm not serious enough!

But the only thing I can do is to!

Continue writing!

Write a feeling!

First, I have to feel happy!

In the past, I had an illusion!

I thought it was a novel!

It was written by me!

And at that time!

I can't write well!

My writing!

It's far from enough!

I had a serious auditory hallucination!

The auditory hallucination was caused by myself!

I had a serious illness!

I just took medicine!

That's it!

At that time!

I was also writing!

Of!

That year!

I!

18 years old!

I was writing!

What kind of story was it!

It wasn't written well!

I just broke away from life!

But at that time!

I was still able to write a plot!

I thought I was destined to become a famous writer!

But it was still up to me!

I wanted to write!

I just wanted to write!

It's fine if I don't want to write!

I had enough of my illness!

I felt that the whole world!

Was against me!

I had such a feeling!

I didn't think so later on!

But last year!

I wrote a few novels!

More importantly!

Which one!

Which one exactly!

I won't talk about it!

Anyway, it's actually this one!

It's the previous one!

The continuation!

The writing style didn't change!

They were all complaints!

Only the title was changed!

But that's not important!

I've read one!

A serialized novel!

It's called!

Zombie Drawing!

It felt quite good!

At that time!

It was serialized in a medical magazine!

I read it!

I was very happy!

I still have the ability!

I'm writing horror novels!

But it's really scary!

It's not death!

It's living in pain!

Death is a relief!

I can't write horror with my thoughts!

I can write about real-life horror!

I can write about my own tragedies!

Horror novels are only scary on the surface!

Ghosts hide behind people's backs!

They have superpowers!

They can control people's thoughts!

And they look very scary!

They can make people!

Die!

I also want to write about it!

I've already planned to write two!

One is a male ghost!

The other is a female ghost!

But I can't write it well!

It's really scary!

It's not about going to hell!

Hell isn't scary!

What's scary is!

My heart!

My fear!

Going to hell!

That's all!

But I don't really believe in these!

I remember in school!

I heard someone read a novel!

Climbing stairs!

The Gates of Hell!

How do I describe it!

This is the fear of reality!

And I can write it too!

Such a work!

I don't need to put in much effort!

I have a certain chance!

A mental patient writing a horror novel!

That's definitely easy!

Because!

A mental patient!

It's very scary!

What's scary!

It's the feeling in the heart!

Not at all!

Only!

Ghosts are scary!

If it can be perfectly combined with reality!

That's even better!

And such a work!

There's no lack of precedents!

I've read quite a few!

It's very well written!

And why do I have to write it!

Because there's nothing for me!

If someone else writes well!

It's someone else's!

I can't write it now!

I still lack motivation!

In other words!

I still lack motivation!

But my writing is scary!

It won't be too scary!

I'll fight for it!

I won't die!

Death isn't scary!

If I die!

I'll only die once!

What's scary is living in pain!

That's the feeling of struggling between life and death!

So!

I haven't thought of how to write it!

But I might not know how to write it!

Because I'm timid!

Actually!

I'll write about reality!

I'll write more!

It's even scarier!

Many mental patients!

My fellow patients!

They all feel that!

My words are very scary!

They!

Some people say that I!

Should be hospitalized!

But I don't have money!

What should I do!

Stay in a mental hospital!

There's nothing wrong with writing a novel quietly!

And I!

I don't have the capital!

Sigh!

But there's training!

Only then can I write good works!

That's what I think!

Perhaps!

I won't have anything to eat today!

Perhaps I won't have anything to eat for the rest of my life!

What I want is this feeling of misery!

But!

How should I put it!

I still want to earn some money!

It was for the royalties!

Actually!

That full attendance!

Even!

Internet fees!

Electricity fees!

It's not enough!

How should I put it!

Sign a contract!

There are many restrictions!

There are many people who scold me!

There are also people who support me!

But I'm thinking!

Why!

I want to write a novel!

I want to write a novel!

Is it for others to read?

I want to express my feelings first!

I thought that I'm mentally ill!

I have special privileges!

But I don't!

This is a problem!

I still need to think!

Actually, I'm not mentally ill!

It's not important!

I'm just mentally ill!

A novel!

Venting my emotions!

It's also possible!

I don't have friends!

I don't have any in real life!

But how should I put it!

My personality is like this!

Yes!

That's right!

I still lack experience in life!

It's really scary!

It comes from life!

The horror of school-related stories!

And the horror of real life!

I have to write my plans!

Of course, it's me!

I definitely can't write well!

There are many factors!

It's causing me to write badly!

First, it's negligence!

Practice!

My foundation is weak!

The things I write!

Possible!

Let's not talk about it!

It's possible in the past!

The things I write!

Even!

I don't even have 50,000 words!

I can't feel anything from that!

Of course, this still depends on luck!

It's not like that!

Hard work is necessary!

Maybe I'm destined to fail!

But at least!

I once loved it!

Sigh!

Lack of practice!

Lack again!

Experience in life!

How can I write good works!

I still need to be grounded in reality!

I don't know the future!

How will I write!

This is the problem!

It's writing!

It's scary!

And it's a Sanda novel!

But I write a proper novel!

It's very difficult!

Why do I say so!

The reason!

There is!

How should I put it!

I lack guidance!

I'm just writing by myself!

I just!

Can!

Write!

I still can't write well!

But it's hard for me to define!

The form!

And it's still relatively new!

Some people say I'm like a Tieba writer!

And me!

Even a Tieba writer!

I've never seen it before!

I don't know!

I know about Tieba!

It's just a forum!

There's nothing to say!

Yes!

How should I put it!

Competing for plot!

Competing for character!

I can't compete with others!

But my writing!

It's still quite simple!

And sincere!

It feels like a local novel!

Such a novel!

Now it's getting fewer and fewer!

I see very little of it!

It's just textbooks!

On those!

Suddenly!

This is!

Changing the times!

A local novel!

Based on me!

From a personal point of view!

Of course, I won't write about others!

I don't understand!

Of course!

A local novel!

It's being slandered!

That kind of thing!

I've read this kind of thing before!

It's enough!

But it's useless!

Single dog!

Still single dog!

It's more like that!

This makes girls hate it even more!

It's enough!

My novel!

It's also considered!

My autobiography!

I think!

If you read it!

You didn't discover it after so long!

I'm also an urban novel!

Of course!

My experience is limited!

I didn't write about the characteristics of the times!

This is where I'm lacking!

Of course!

This is where I'm lacking!

Actually!

A person!

It can also reflect the times!

Humans are the products of the times!

Of course!

This is the general direction!

There are also exceptions!

I can't!

Represent the times!

Most of them!

I only!

Represent myself!

Mentally ill!

I can't represent anything!

Mentally ill!

There are all kinds!

No matter what!

A person's growth!

Can't leave!

This society!

And the times!

My point of view!

Maybe it's not good enough!

Of course, I've already written it!

That won't do!

Actually, I'm just!

Talking!

Just like with people!

Just like having a heart-to-heart talk!

Talking!

I'm not writing!

I'm reading!

I can't figure it out!

How can I say it!

It's very stressful!

I still have to look for a job!

Think about it!

It's a headache!

Sigh!

Wait a while!

My shoes!

Wash them!

I'll wash them in the afternoon!

I'm always lazy!

This isn't good!

I'll go to the pressure!

There is!

Challenge!

There is!

I can't take it anymore!

What should I do!

I still have to adjust my state of mind!

There's nothing wrong with this!

I can't adapt to work!

But there's no choice!

What do I eat if I don't work!

I don't have it!

Capital!

I don't go to work!

My parents are just ordinary workers!

My stress!

It's still very big!

I don't think I can do it!

I can't work on the railway!

This piece!

I think I can!

I can't!

I still lack training!

Sigh!

I don't know what to do!

What job is good!

This is the problem!

I don't know anything!

Sigh!

I have my own problems!

I don't want to talk about them!

There are many problems!

I'm a virus!

Now!

How should I put it!

I have a plan!

To find a job!

To stop updating!

But there are still uploads!

I can't adapt!

But there's no choice!

In order to survive!

In order to write novels!

In order to have a better life!

I should work hard!

When I see this chapter!

I might have already found a job!

I've started to work!

Possible!

Can!

Write!

500,000 words!

Before I find a job!

Well, no matter what!

I've saved it!

Two months' worth of manuscripts!

It's enough!

I still have to adjust!

I feel that I can't do it!

I'm afraid!

I'm afraid of being fired!

I still have such concerns!

Sigh!

Life!

It's too troublesome!

I want to be more relaxed!

Condition!

I have to adjust!

By the time I'm done, it's already noon!

I'll take my medicine!

I'll go and cook!

I'll take my medicine in the future!

This is also a problem!

What to do!

I'll get a cup of water!

I'll bring it with me!

I'll take my medicine!

I still have to take it!

Continue!

Well!

I'm still afraid!

Not tomorrow!

The day after tomorrow!

I'll go to grandma's house!

The road isn't dry yet!

I can't go!

I have to go!

It might be the day after tomorrow!

I'll go and look for a job!

Well, that's it!

I'll continue writing!