It was now 9: 17!

I saw wrongly just now!

I thought it was 9: 19!

I thought it was 9: 20!

Such preconceived notions!

Not good!

I won't write tomorrow!

Tomorrow!

I'll stop updating!

In other words, I won't save any drafts!

I'll upload!

I'll continue!

Today!

It's July 7th!

How should I put it!

It's not July 7th on the lunar calendar!

That's hard to say!

However, today's date!

It's also memorable!

It's just like that!

Of course, I didn't witness history!

I have no right to say anything!

So be it!

I know that it's already a peaceful era!

Of course!

There's still a problem!

Sigh!

I want to say something!

Today, he was going to seriously create something!

Of course, I didn't really experience it!

I only thought about it!

This imagination!

It's too scary!

This is what I expected!

I'm not capable enough!

I can't do it!

I can only think about it!

I want to cry!

Sigh!

How should I put it!

I can't have such thoughts that are just for show!

I can only say that!

I had a dream last night!

It was about zombies!

I injected myself with antidotes!

What!

I injected myself with two!

Others injected themselves with two!

I was bitten by zombies!

Then it ended!

I couldn't take it lying down!

I thought I would die!

In the end, I woke up!

There were no beauties in it!

The one that bit me was a zombie!

Her feet were bound!

I saw her feet!

I knew she was a zombie!

A modern person!

There's no such small feet!

What kind of novel!

That's a good novel!

Let's dream!

Then!

It's another!

Awakening novel!

That's what I thought!

However!

Some works!

Are not like that!

They're too idealistic!

Not good!

I'm at a disadvantage!

I've been tricked!

I also want to write!

The story!

It's best if I can write it completely!

Write a complete set!

Just like!

Some novels are like that!

There's an ending!

It's best if I can write an entire life!

That's my creative dream!

However, life!

It's not that easy to write!

It's very difficult!

I'm thinking!

What kind of story do I want to write!

I can only say!

I've experienced it!

It's not enough!

I can't write that clear and logical feeling!

That's what I'm lacking!

If!

Even if I don't write!

Fantasy!

There's still a chance!

A chance to become famous!

However, the current me!

Can't do it!

I can't do it!

I'm looking for the reason!

One is that I'm afraid!

I'm afraid that others will look down on me!

I have a shadow in my heart!

My worries!

Quite a lot!

What I need to do now is!

Let these!

Turn my worries into my motivation!

Of course, at least they won't become obstacles!

Where should I start!

How should I write!

This is a problem!

How should I write well!

Write that I'm weak!

If I can write well!

It's also possible!

Actually, I'm also someone else!

Because that's already in the past!

Who knows who's who!

That's not important!

There are so many people in the world!

It's impossible to only pay attention to me!

That's it!

Uncomfortable!

However, this is the reality of the situation!

I'm just thinking too much!

I'm!

Xiaojian!

I'm a student at Tianhe Junior High School!

However, my consciousness back then wasn't strong enough!

I can't write like that!

I can't think like the protagonist!

This is also a problem!

What kind of method should I use!

To write!

I should use god's vision!

Actually, I don't understand!

I'm a mental patient!

I've been ill for four years!

2005!

I was in the first year of junior high school!

I remember!

Very clearly!

2006!

I'm still in first year!

I remember it very clearly too!

Because I repeated a year!

At that time!

I was lectured by my homeroom teacher!

When I signed up!

He took my English writing and asked me to recognize it!

I said I don't know it!

Just like that!

I repeated a year!

However!

This is also an opportunity!

I'm a person without consciousness!

I don't have a strong sense of self!

However, my grades also improved by leaps and bounds because of this!

Being in the top twenty was no problem!

Actually, I don't feel anything!

I even received an award on the rostrum!

I took a picture with them!

As for whether there was such a thing or not!

I can't remember!

However, this is my thinking that's just a formality!

Receiving an award is just a formality!

Learning is my own matter!

With others!

It doesn't matter much!

I've been poisoned like that!

I still have such thoughts even now!

I also yearn to receive an award!

I rarely take pictures with them!

Primary school graduation photos!

I took them before!

They're gone!

Junior high school graduation photos!

I also took them before!

However, they're all gone!

I don't have high school graduation photos!

Because I didn't graduate from high school!

University!

Didn't graduate from high school!

I also went to university!

Of course!

It's not that I didn't!

It's a long story!

However, my university!

I was also able to get in!

However, it's difficult!

Not really!

I can only say that!

My primary school classmate!

I mean, look!

Junior high school classmate!

I remember it very well!

Only from Wenzhou!

Let's talk about what I like!

My primary school classmate!

Xiaoli liked it for a long time!

At least ten years!

I still remember it!

Because I was in the first year of 2005!

It's been ten years since junior high school!

Sigh!

That was a chaotic era!

I can only say that!

The main thing is that my thinking can't work!

So many years of learning!

I can only think like that!

It's covered up!

This kind of thinking still exists!

My primary school classmate!

Dandan!

Not the taller one!

Another person!

Many people!

Xiaoli!

Let's not talk about their real names!

Many of them have already started their own families!

That's why!

We should look forward!

What are you saying!

I don't understand at all!

It's very simple!

I just want to be more open-minded!

Those younger than me!

They already have children!

They!

It's impossible that they don't have children!

My wish for many years!

Just like that!

Falling into the water!

Sigh!

This world!

It's so sad!

I've been looking forward to it for many years!

When my illness acted up!

I've been thinking about it!

Shasha!

Sigh!

I've met them!

I forgot!

That was two years ago!

I think!

There's a problem!

Sigh!

Life always makes people want to cry!

Shasha!

I didn't expect time to pass so quickly!

It's been two years!

Actually, it's been almost three years!

February 2013!

Do the math!

It's enough now!

Time really flies!

Brother Qiang!

I've also met them!

And Hui Ge!

And Brother Qiao!

These guys!

They've all developed!

I'm still stagnant!

I'm still hesitating!

I might starve to death at any time!

That's how it is!

Uncomfortable!

How can it be like this!

Life!

Like this!

It can't work!

I didn't expect knowledge to unknowingly!

It changed my fate!

Why do you say that!

Actually, I haven't changed!

It's just that!

Some things are changing!

I have to say that!

Actually, I haven't changed at all!

Actually, my attitude has changed!

Some things are just forced by rascals!

They've been covered up!

It's useless to say all these!

To me personally!

I have my own choice now!

I didn't have a choice in the past!

Actually, I don't have a choice now!

Life is such a rascal!

What I want to say is!

I still need to work hard!

Damn!

I can't not work hard!

I can only say!

The past me!

I don't think much!

The current me is fine!

At least I know what I want!

I just want to live!

I just want to relax!

That's it!

And the rest has nothing to do with me!

Various periods!

Various periods of confusion!

At that time, I didn't want to go to school!

I liked watching TV!

This is having no sense of time!

I didn't know how to observe society!

Later!

I had this ability!

I was nurtured!

I started to think!

Therefore, learning can still change fate!

In the past, I thought everything was fine!

Of course!

Now, it doesn't seem so!

Take me going to work as an example!

I'm panicking!

Why do other people set up vegetable stalls!

I can go to work!

This is the problem!

Can I change?!

I'm thinking about this world!

Can it live without me?!

I didn't think like this in the past!

I'm thinking!

Sigh!

Life is about constantly thinking!

Then!

To work hard to live!

Perhaps this is life!

Actually, this world!

Can live without me!

My value isn't that great!

But I want to!

Live with a thick skin!

I just want to see more of the world!

Maybe you will look down on me!

I don't even have the courage to die!

Death doesn't require courage!

Death is a matter of time!

There's no need to rush!

Just live well!

Wait quietly!

That day will come for everyone!

I'm also afraid of death!

My novel!

I haven't written much!

I don't have any works!

Actually!

How should I put it!

In my opinion!

It's useless!

There's an empty thought in my mind!

It can fake a world for me!

But this is ultimately just a fantasy!

Actually, how many people are there in the world!

It depends on what you think!

The past me!

What was it like!

I can't remember!

But look at me now!

I also know!

This is too idealistic!

What the world is like!

It's completely up to you!

What you think is your own business!

And how to do it!

But you can't just do it!

Everyone has a responsibility in a harmonious society!

Protecting others!

It's also protecting yourself!

I do believe in that!

I'm just too idealistic!

But there's no such thing as a stream of consciousness god!

Guide me!

That's it!

I'm just doing it bit by bit!

Accumulating abilities!

But there are still opportunities!

I have to say!

My opportunities!

It's still possible!

I'm thinking if I don't have these experiences!

Can I still write novels!

This is a big question mark!

I don't know!

Because this is already the reality!

But I still feel uneasy!

Why do I say so!

Actually, I feel a sense of uneasiness!

Uncomfortable!

Dizzy!

I feel that!

This ability doesn't belong to me!

However!

This gives me this ability!

Mental illness!

It's a huge setback!

It's also an opportunity!

My writing ability!

Although I already have it!

But it's not that exaggerated!

Of course, my endurance is still okay!

Not to mention the good or bad ability!

My character!

There's a problem!

I'm thinking why!

I have it!

Such a character!

Can it be replicated?

It doesn't feel possible!

I'm actually no different from an ordinary person!

It's just that I have more ideas!

To become a stream of consciousness!

It's a tough process!

But this is just a problem of mentality!

I'm just a formality!

What stream of consciousness!

It's pure nonsense!

It's just like that!

It's just like that!

I just lack the ability to observe!

And the ability to think!

Observation is to observe society!

Thinking is to think about society!

Becoming too early!

Stream of consciousness!

It's not good either!

It's too sad!

Do I count or not!

Is this important?

It doesn't feel important!

My goal!

It's to become!

A person who lives a more relaxed and carefree life!

But there's a price to pay!

Some things!

I have to experience it for myself!

Life is such a thing!

It's very complicated!

Must!

Think!

And this bit of consciousness of mine!

How should I put it!

It's also a glass of water!

It can quench a moment of thirst!

It can't be quenched!

This life!

My thoughts are lazy!

It's not just lazy on the surface!

It's lazy in the bones!

That's why I'm said to be lazy!

That's why I still lack practice!

That's why!

You have to say something!

I have nothing to say!

That's it!

Suit yourself!

We're one now!

I'm not having a good time!

You're not having a good time either!

But I'm having a relapse!

It's not that I don't have friends!

I'm really empty and lonely in my heart!

You don't understand!

Talking to me!

That's enough!

How can you be like this!

Sigh!

What's wrong now!

Him!

He said that I!

He said that he doesn't like me anymore!

I can't not like him even if I want to!

Because we'll be with him forever!

But this is mental illness!

This is splitting!

I'd better not think about it!

Mental illness!

I don't think it's good!

Society's recognition of mental illness!

It's not high!

Some companies!

Clearly state that they don't want mental illness!

That's enough!

They don't give me a way out!

Uncomfortable!

Sigh, what kind of world is this!

Bullshit harmony!

I'm definitely not the one who said that!

This society discriminates against us!

That's not good!

But it's useless!

It's useless even if I say it!

This is a social problem!

I believe!

Mental illness!

It'll never end!

But this has nothing to do with me!

Mental illness is just a sacrifice for social progress!

Mental illness!

The peace of the heart!

But I didn't choose it!

I was forced to do some things!

Actually, normal people are like that too!

Sigh!

It's all the exploiters' fault!

The main reason is that there's too many people!

The pressure is huge!

Of course, there's a lot of people!

Even if there's only one person!

They have to do it themselves!

I'm not saying that there's little people!

They don't have to work!

Just like monks drinking water!

That's the feeling!

But this problem is much more complicated!

There's still a problem with my thinking!

I can only say!

I should reflect on it!

There's a problem!

I don't even realize it!

I'm alive!

In essence!

It's all for a life!

I can live!

I can live a better life!

It's that simple!

Everything else is just empty talk!

Society is in chaos!

It's not good for me!

You think you can do it!

I can't do it!

How did you treat me!

How did I treat you!

I should be tough!

I should be tough!

This is the problem!

But reality is a little cruel!

There are some things that I can't do!

And others can do it!

But I'm not worried!

These people!

They died earlier than me!

And some people died later than me!

I'm happy no matter what!

I don't wish for anyone to die!

I'm just speaking the truth!

But!

Scam!

It's still going on!

Society!

I can't control it!

It won't change because of me!

Everyone can have their own thoughts!

So please allow me to say this!

From the looks of it!

I'm also a scoundrel of the stream of consciousness!