Today is Sunday, July 19, 2015. I haven't written for a long time!

I don't know what to do!

It seems like it will be difficult to continue!

I don't know how long I can last!

The requirements for my typing are even higher!

There are challenges!

There are also opportunities!

This is for me to type!

The training!

It's very big!

I type while lying on the bed!

Because there's no table!

Only a bed!

That's it!

My future work!

It might shrink!

But!

Where there's a will, there's a way!

I still believe in this!

As a person!

I should have such awareness!

But!

The difficulty!

It's very big!

Typing while lying down!

It's very tiring!

My mental energy is also very quickly depleted!

You know it!

I'm lazy!

Lying on the bed, I only want to sleep!

A few days ago!

On a dating app!

I wailed and howled for a while!

Now I've found a job!

It's a general worker!

There's nothing I can do about it!

Just thinking about it makes me uncomfortable!

How can it be like this!

The water in this!

It's very deep!

But perseverance is victory!

I don't need to be pregnant!

I don't need to go through confinement!

I don't know how long this job will last!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

How can it be like this!

If it's possible, please give me a lifetime!

I have a lot of regrets!

I've long forgotten your beautiful face!

I only vaguely remember your name!

That's sorrow!

Love is destined to be filled with sorrow!

Perhaps I was born to experience love tribulations!

How should I put it!

It's indeed a little tiring!

I can't type fast like this!

I don't know how long I can write in my diary!

I'll persevere for one day at a time!

That's the only way!

Sigh, girls all have partners!

One is more burly than the other!

Rich!

I'm thinking!

I hate the rich!

I don't hate the rich!

That's not very possible!

Why do I say that!

I'm struggling with life!

My own happiness!

It's often built on other people's pain!

This is my initial observation!

Why would I eat at a high-end hotel when I'm getting married!

Maybe I'm getting married!

I don't even want to have a wedding!

I have no money!

There's no need!

Happiness is given by myself!

Others can't give it!

In my opinion!

Happiness!

It's not for others to see!

Some things looked very beautiful!

But the reality!

It's not as good as it seems!

There are a lot of restrictions in the real world!

I can only accept it!

It's a lifetime!

As long as I don't starve!

How should I put it!

I'm I don't know

After all, I'm not an experienced person!

And I'm still a deeply involved person in the game!

It's just that my situation is more difficult!

This job didn't come easy!

I should cherish it!

I don't know how long I can work for!

I'm thinking!

In terms of ability!

I still have a problem!

I can only say that it's like this!

My thigh!

It's the table!

Writing like this!

It's really uncomfortable!

Extremely uncomfortable!

Seems like speed!

Maybe it's not much slower!

No choice!

I need to eat!

I need to survive!

I don't have the capital!

If I have a few dozen mu of land!

Ghost working!

But here's the problem again!

And I don't know how to farm!

But that's also impossible!

I'll take it one step at a time!

This isn't writing a novel!

I can still have my own plans!

Work is completely not up to me!

I've found many jobs!

There's no news!

It wasn't easy to get in!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

Sigh!

Life!

I don't know what story to write!

This is my dilemma!

I don't have the energy for you!

Think about the plot!

But I think!

Life is the best plot!

I always feel that I'm not doing well enough!

I don't know this job!

How long can I work for!

I plan to do a contract!

At least let me!

Finish writing this book!

Others!

I'll think about it in the future!

There's only one chance in life!

If I miss it!

There won't be any more!

I still have to cherish it!

But how should I put it!

Life's time is to be wasted!

How to pass it!

It's all pass!

I have my own choice!

I'm just looking for relaxation!

I'm looking for happiness!

I want to do it!

The greatest person in history!

What's that saying again!

I've forgotten!

In my imagination!

I'm no different from others!

This is the reality!

And my ability is still lacking in the future!

I need to adjust my state!

Work hard!

Of course!

This is the situation!

There are many girls now!

They're not single!

Only now do I know how precious girls are!

I can only say!

It's too late to realize this!

I didn't have the ability in school back then!

This was the cause of my tragedy!

There are more guys than girls to begin with!

Sigh, writer!

What's this!

Actually, the essence of it is to write things!

It's nothing!

Of course, this is a more straightforward way to put it!

Why don't you come!

It's so easy to say!

Writing also requires emotions!

Although being a writer doesn't have to be one in a million!

But I can persevere!

Definitely not many!

That's it!

I need to eat!

I need to survive!

Writing this kind of novel!

It can't support me at all!

My pressure!

It's quite big!

Getting married and having children!

These are all problems!

I definitely can't do it now!

Why do I say that!

It's mainly because my ability is limited!

It's not just that I have no money!

I have no sense of responsibility!

I hate myself!

This perverted feeling!

If only it wasn't like this!

Now I'm typing!

I can basically type blindly!

Of course, I have to look at the keyboard!

I have to be faster!

Typing blindly is also training myself!

However!

Looking at the keyboard!

It can train my eyesight!

Anyway, it's good no matter what!

Typing blindly is too mentally taxing!

I don't have that kind of skill!

I'm still improving compared to before!

How should I put it!

I'm just too demanding of myself!

There's no other way, I can survive!

That's the reality!

If!

I don't have to go to work!

I can also live a carefree life!

Then I don't have to do this!

But to live such a life!

I can't write a novel!

This life!

It gave me the ability to write a novel!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

Tomorrow!

It starts!

It's time for work!

I don't know if I can adapt!

Here!

There are many beauties!

I can look up to them!

They all have boyfriends!

Maybe I'm lying to myself!

I'm just looking for fun for my own life!

Looking for a reason to continue living!

I only understand now!

I'm a person who deceives myself!

But I like beautiful things!

There's nothing wrong with it!

I have the right!

My girlfriend!

I don't even know whose embrace she's in now!

Sigh, just thinking about it makes me want to cry!

This is an imbalance between supply and demand!

But there's no balance!

Looking at all kinds of beauties!

I'm drooling!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

I want to find one too!

It's fine as long as she's average-looking!

Actually, I'm not picky!

I'm average-looking!

That's already very good!

I'm smiled at!

I'm added to the list!

There's no longer that girl who eats cold noodles!

I know the price of cold noodles!

7 yuan a bowl!

Where's Changchun?

I haven't read geography books for so many years!

I only know a few cities!

Our Sichuan!

I don't know much!

Why!

The world is actually very big!

I can't see it all!

This is a kind of rascal!

There are many beauties!

But they already have a home!

Just thinking about it makes me cry!

How should I put it!

I don't know about the future!

What will happen to me!

Of course!

I can't be too negative!

I have to work hard every day!

Suffering is actually a kind of enjoyment!

That's it!

Looks like my typing speed!

It's still the same as before!

This is good news!

Mm, happy!

I paused for a moment!

I relaxed!

I want to find a girlfriend I can rely on!

Life isn't that easy!

A girlfriend!

It's not that easy to find one!

Although I've already learned how to sweet talk!

My ability is still not enough!

I can speak!

It's still very common!

Yesterday's weather was too bad!

I thought I'd spend the night in the city!

Actually, I don't want others to know who I am!

I just want to write in peace and quiet!

Who I am is not only important!

It's very obvious!

There are so many people who write novels!

And I'm a diary writer!

I'm also a writer!

That's it!

I want to find a girlfriend!

Actually, a girlfriend!

This kind of thing!

You're actually talking about writing!

Not too good!

It can't be like this!

Continue!

This is a difficult creation!

Life is so difficult!

My feet stink again!

Sigh!

I can't take it easy!

How can it be like this!

I have to work hard to face it!

Running away won't solve the problem!

That's it!

Today is Sunday!

Next Sunday!

I can rest!

That's the situation!

How should I put it!

When the time comes!

I want to go back once!

Alright!

It can't be like this!

Hehe!

I'm working!

I don't know how long I can work!

Just thinking about it makes me uncomfortable!

I don't know!

Mm!

Continue!

Sigh!

I want to find a girlfriend!

I want to live happily with her!

Sigh!

Uncomfortable!

My girlfriend!

Quickly jump out!

I finally understand!

Why would people cry when they get married!

That's because they've waited for too long!

When I get married!

I'll cry to death!

I have a feeling!

Mm!

I've forgotten your beautiful face!

This is my life's regret!

My life doesn't count for anything!

It's just too small!

I'm a small person!

Mm, that's it!

Continue!

This creation!

Continue!

My memory is limited!

Sigh!

This life!

It's just annoying!

I haven't connected yet!

That's it!

I'll wash my clothes when I have time!

I'm just lazy!

I remember when I was in Sha Gao!

My clothes were soaked for a long time!

That's also a memory!

Mm, that's it!

Continue!

Today's creation!

It's nearing the end!

I have this feeling!

If I'm not wrong!

That's it!

My feet stink!

That's enough!

Sigh!

It's really like this!

I didn't notice it in the past!

Uncomfortable!

Mm!

It's enough to write like this!

Of course!

I'm still writing 700 words!

I'm not in a good state!

That's it!

I'm stuck!

I want to absorb your soul!

I don't have such a thing!

As a poor peasant!

What do I have to say!

Uncomfortable!

That's it!

I'm no longer young!

I'm already 22 years old!

Sigh!

Uncomfortable!

Continue!

I don't have many chances left!

I'm going to be the richest man in China!

I want to at least!

Marry a Ms. Perfect!

Become a CEO!

Mm, 500 more words!

Writing still needs time!

An hour!

That's it!

Tomorrow!

I have to study!

That's enough!

I don't know if I can learn it!

What a tough life!

Uncomfortable!

I've had enough of these days!

Hehe!

Uncomfortable!

I'll sit and wait for death!

I'll lie and wait for death!

There's no other way!

Life is so tough!

What else do I have to say!

The days ahead!

I have to rely on!

I have to rely on myself!

It can't be like this!

Just thinking about it makes me sad!

I don't like other people controlling my life!

So!

I can't control other people's lives!

My tears are flowing!

Sigh!

Just thinking about it is enough!

I'll wash my clothes when I have time!

No matter what I say!

I'm also a psychopath who's on medication!

Not to that extent!

I'm just afraid to face it!

That's why I'm a psychopath!

A normal person!

Who dares to face a bleak life!

That's it!

Sigh!

Continue!

This creation!

Sigh!

Just thinking about it!

There's a lot of pressure!

There's no pressure!