Damn!

10 points!

52 points!

Yes!

I feel that I'm not in a good condition!

That's it!

I haven't written it!

I've wasted it!

One hour's time!

Actually!

9 points!

10 points!

I've finished it!

I've only started now!

A new chapter!

This attitude!

It's not persuasive!

I'm doing this for the sake of!

Recovering!

Of course!

I didn't do anything good!

Now!

I kind of want to!

Sleep!

Sleep!

In the afternoon!

Write another chapter!

That's the plan!

I'll talk about it when the time comes!

I'm actually a bad guy!

I only understand now!

I've had enough!

I've been like this every day!

I'm too upset!

I have to say something!

Today's theme!

It's bathing!

Now!

I feel that!

Bathing!

This is a problem!

I haven't bathed for a long time!

Some people!

One week!

Bathing two or three times!

Yes!

I've been doing it for a month!

All!

I can't bathe!

Two or three times!

I'm mainly lazy!

I've even found an excuse for myself!

Saving water!

This way!

It's very wasteful of water!

It's not that exaggerated!

One week!

Bathing two or three times!

Of course!

I have no right to interfere!

But I can't not say it!

It's too wasteful of water!

It's really enough!

I'm just saying!

It's actually nothing much!

This is a problem!

Looking at it now!

This isn't good!

Of course!

It's someone else's fault!

We have to bear the responsibility!

I feel that it's natural!

It's not much better!

Speaking of it!

My thoughts jumped!

I thought of my!

Junior high school!

At that time!

I was a gambler!

Every day!

I played slot machines!

Game consoles!

Senior high school!

I'll go online in the future!

I'm too immature!

Now!

It seems that!

If there's no need!

I won't!

I'll do these things!

Of course!

It's like this!

How should I put it!

I'm very upset!

Continue!

Think about it!

Of course!

These are all excuses!

Don't use yourself!

Writing novels as an excuse!

Why do I have to look at other things!

Websites!

This is my problem!

And it's that kind of thing!

I feel that I'm not doing the right thing!

This way!

It's also harming myself!

It's not just harming others!

Thinking!

Jumping again!

Thinking of ten years ago!

In my pocket!

Even ten yuan!

I can't take it out!

At that time!

Potatoes!

Only!

50 cents a bowl!

Noodles!

Dumplings!

One yuan!

I can eat it!

Yes!

I think I'm very upset!

At that time!

One!

Meat dish!

Only!

One yuan for one!

At that time!

Most!

I'm envious of!

Eating in the canteen!

What they were eating was!

Stir-fried meat!

I can even add potatoes!

I'm really envious of such a life!

I also want to live such a life!

At that time!

Me!

It's just that!

One!

Ordinary people can't!

No matter how ordinary people!

I don't know!

What is it!

Me!

I've become so different!

It's time!

I'm not sure!

Of course, I'm also very ordinary now!

I'm not an anomaly!

This is my personality!

I'm different from ordinary people!

Actually, this isn't important!

Yes!

Sigh!

I like it very much!

At that time!

Steamed buns!

Twenty cents!

One!

Now!

I can't eat that feeling!

I've also said this before!

I still remember this!

Of course!

This isn't the main point!

I remember now!

I graduated from primary school!

I went for tuition!

English!

At that time!

It was really difficult!

Sigh!

I'm now!

Crisis awareness!

It's all very serious!

This has to do with me!

All these experiences!

It has a lot to do with me!

At that time!

I'm!

Riding a bicycle!

Yes!

That's it!

At that time!

Actually!

I'm already mentally ill!

At that time!

I haven't graduated from primary school!

How should I put it!

At that time!

I'm thinking!

Can I not go to class!

Go to class!

It's so tough!

Every day!

Running!

Very far!

Riding a bicycle!

It's also very difficult!

Can I be a robot?!

Take my place in class!

At that time!

I had such thoughts!

Remember!

At that time!

I'm!

Sixth grade!

12 years old!

Right!

I've had enough!

Actually, I can't feel all these!

At that time!

My mental illness!

It's already!

It's a little serious!

At that time!

I even took off my clothes!

Pants!

Running everywhere!

It's an instinctive fear!

Fear of the world!

This has to be said!

This isn't something to be proud of!

When I find a girlfriend in the future!

There's a need to say!

It might be the next generation!

Will be like me!

Mental illness!

It's possible!

It's genetic!

If I can't accept it!

Streaking!

Forget it!

At that time!

It's not my own thoughts!

The main point is!

It's too much pressure!

Myself!

I want to buy a game console!

It's really enough!

But there's no other way!

This is it!

A rascal like a little kid!

That's it!

I'm!

10 years old!

Left and right!

Already!

Learned it!

Streaking!

Can't!

Exceed!

12 years old!

Me!

Around 13 years old!

Still!

Wet the bed!

I can only say!

My development!

Brain development!

Play more than the average person!

Pay attention!

The highlight!

One of them is here!

My mom!

Originally!

Wanted to give it to me!

Buy a house on the street!

Look at me like this!

That's what they said!

I listened!

I'm also very touched!

Now!

My health isn't good!

They!

Gave it to me!

Raised!

40 years old!

Left and right!

Then!

My two younger sisters have grown up!

Who raised me!

Just!

House!

Who gave it to!

This is it!

My mom!

Why!

Wanted to give it to me!

Was!

Buying a house in town!

But I thought about it!

This sounds like!

Not bad!

But as far as I know!

Property rights!

There's a time limit!

I can't control it for that long!

That's such a long time!

House!

Can't!

Old!

That's also impossible!

If!

I don't recover!

I can only live that kind of life!

How did I recover!

I can't say!

Just like this!

I recovered!

I can still do it!

The average person!

Can't do it!

Of course!

There are frequent outbursts!

Damn!

I can only say that it's a beautiful idea!

That's it!

Of course!

This is just the beginning!

How should I put it!

Continue!

Me!

4 years!

Forward!

Call me mom!

Find me a partner!

I've said too much!

It's all tears!

My tears of blood!

Yes!

But I still can't find him!

I'm also anxious!

Perseverance is victory!

We can't waver!

I'll find someone I like!

It's also very fast!

The main thing is that I'm not determined enough!

I don't understand myself!

I don't know!

Am I sick?!

I really don't know!

Or is it the same for other people?!

I don't know about this!

But the only thing I find strange is!

I can't persevere on anything!

Writing novels can actually!

Persevere!

This doesn't make sense!

This doesn't make sense!

Sigh!

I remember!

Thinking!

Again!

Jumping!

I remember!

There's a kind of!

Fried chicken!

Shredded chicken!

That kind!

A little!

It was so sweet!

I wanted to eat it when I was young!

I called my mom!

She bought it for me!

However!

She!

Didn't buy it for me!

I saw!

That chicken!

It's also very small!

But it looks very delicious!

I still remember it!

Hehe!

Continue!

I still remember when I was in primary school!

At that time!

My mom!

Went to school to pick me up!

To tell the truth!

At that time!

I really!

Felt!

I embarrassed myself!

I actually!

A little!

Ran away from my mom!

At that time!

Sigh!

I have to talk about this in detail!

At that time!

I was still young!

Sigh!

I felt that I!

My family was poor!

I couldn't compare to others!

I felt a little inferior!

My mom!

Gave it to me!

Bought food!

I walked away from them!

Sigh!

I had enough!

I remember this!

Sigh!

I was like this!

However!

I wanted to!

Jump in thinking!

At that time!

My math results!

Were really good!

At that time!

I could do it!

Top ten!

Of course!

This was nothing!

Yes!

Later!

Fortunately!

I instinctively!

There were some!

I made a choice!

I left!

I became!

The current me!

That's not it either!

One day!

I could do it!

How should I put it!

This is a problem!

If I didn't go crazy!

I didn't want to understand!

I think it's just the same!

When I was in high school!

It was also the same!

I remember that time!

I felt!

My blanket!

It was very ugly!

I just didn't take it out!

Cover!

Every day!

It was very cold!

Sigh!

There was a short story behind this!

Tell it slowly!

I can't!

Jump again!

Actually!

It was crazy!

For me!

It was not necessarily a bad thing!

For my parents!

Say!

This was still better!

To follow!

Crazy!

After that!

I was a chatterbox!

How did I become a chatterbox!

I don't know either!

I don't know myself!

When!

So much nonsense!

Many!

Arrived!

Could write novels!

Sigh!

Damn!

What should I do!

I felt terrible!

My ability at that time!

Of course!

At that time!

I was!

Love!

Fooling myself!

I always felt good about myself!

Sigh!

At that time!

I didn't think so much!

I had no choice now!

I didn't want to either!

The story continued!

This was only!

Part of it!

When I was young!

It was!

Primary school!

At that time!

My parents!

Brought me there!

Went to the night market!

I saw!

One!

Pretended!

Cake!

Glass box!

I really wanted to eat cake!

My mom!

Didn't!

Give it to me!

Buy it!

I remember this too!

Yes!

Then!

You definitely want to ask!

You remember your mom!

I'll buy it for you!

What!

No!

Football!

Meat buns!

I can imagine!

And!

Drinks!

This again!

Story!

Speaking of which!

It wasn't over!

Let's not talk about it for now!

Sigh!

I've forgotten!

What was I going to write?

Let me see!

I'm thinking!

What was I trying to express?

Write!

I've forgotten!

I'll continue!

Actually!

I've always had a big appetite!

Back then!

When I was 18 years old!

I could eat!

Half a chicken!

At that time!

I just dropped out of school!

I was working!

I ate!

Chicken!

I used electric rice!

I cooked it in a pot!

Yes!

I thought it was delicious!

I've remembered again!

When my illness acted up!

I feel like crying when I think about it!

I don't want to talk about it for now!

I don't want to reveal anything!

Details!

Sigh!

Myself!

It was also very painful!

No!

People who went crazy!

Won't understand!

I'm also feeling terrible now!

What should I do!

Damn!

Sigh!

At that time!

That was enough!

The days at that time!

It was also frustrating!

This novel!

It made me wait for too long!

At that time!

I couldn't start writing!

There were no conditions!

Yes!

Continue!

This life!

Perhaps!

If!

At that time!

I could write a novel!

Perhaps I wouldn't go crazy!

Of course!

Those were all hypotheses!

Because I was already crazy!

Yes!

Terrible!

No choice!

Sigh!

What to do!

I couldn't get over it!

Actually!

Same age!

Compared to!

I was also very happy!

I was in school!

Already!

Read it!

Twenty years old!

Adult!

Undergraduate!

Graduated!

Also!

Twenty-six years old!

Yes!

Continue!

I was still far from it!

Damn!

Finally, I don't have to be like this!

I always felt that others were looking down on me!

Last year!

I had such thoughts!

At that time!

Writing a novel!

It was very stressful!

Almost!

Going crazy!

Yes!

Again!

At that time!

Almost!

Every day!

My illness acted up!

It was really painful!

I didn't dare to think about it!

Forget!

This paragraph!

However!

It was impossible to forget!

I couldn't!

The pressure was too great!

Continue!

I!

Go!

I was supposed to take a bath!

Now!

Here!

Here!

I can't do it!

At that time!

My illness acted up!

At that time!

Basically!

I didn't do much!

At that time!

I was really confused!

I felt it!

That!

Despair!

Yes!

I went crazy!

Later!

I myself again!

Lied to myself!

Of course!

I still believed in myself!

Sometimes!

Myself!

Was!

The biggest sinner!

Harming myself!

No one can harm me!

I can only harm myself!

Damn!

It was also very stressful!

I thought!

I would become a famous writer!

This!

I would say it!

There were too many!

At that time!

I realized that I couldn't!

I couldn't write anything!

Of course!

Unlike now!

I could write anything!

Also!

A few thousand words!

At that time!

I had practice!

My writing ability!

However!

I failed!

And then there was!

I stopped writing for a year!

And then there was!

This book!

Originally!

I didn't intend to write it!

I don't know!

Why?!

It started again!

I thought it was enough!

I thought about how I did it!

Damn!

I really couldn't accept it!

Myself!

I said I wouldn't write!

I could only say that!

I was making a fool out of myself again!

Sigh!

It was really!

Enough!

Originally!

I didn't intend to stop writing!

I didn't expect it at all!

I still wrote it!

Perhaps!

It started!

It was just a coincidence!

Actually!

Aiya!

It was all for!

Finding a girlfriend!

How should I put it!

Wait!

Look!

Previously!

Really!

How did I write it!

I forgot!

I really don't remember!

I still have some impression!

I mainly feel that I'm guilty!

How did I do it again?!

This is the most important thing!

Now!

It seems to be much richer!

Yes!

It could be considered as!

Going!

At a certain stage!

At that time!

Just started!

I don't know!

How did I write it!

Actually, this style!

It had been there for a long time!

It had been there since the first book!

I wrote it!