Let me tell you my plan!

I intend to give it to myself!

This book!

Write it!

A storyline!

However!

Not now!

Of course!

This!

I don't know!

Can it work?!

I said I want to write for three years!

I don't even know!

Why do I want to write for three years!

Damn!

Because!

Three years later!

I'll graduate!

That's right!

That's right!

Yes!

Damn!

It's a coincidence!

Of course!

I don't want to start a new book!

Damn!

It's a little contradictory!

I don't intend to start one!

I don't care anymore!

I can't do this!

I've made myself!

I've spoiled myself!

Damn!

I'm at it again!

Tricking myself!

Sometimes!

I even tricked myself!

I'm really!

I'm a scumbag!

Actually, thinking about myself!

Back then!

This book!

I had to start from scratch!

Why!

I wanted to test myself!

Sigh!

Could it be!

I'm really!

Schizophrenia!

I don't understand!

I'm not just!

Mentally!

Mentally ill!

So simple!

Perhaps!

More serious!

Alright!

I'll continue!

Nonsense!

That's it!

Can it be repeated??

Close and fade away?

Rui?

Lie Down ∑ Huai Huai Wei Xin Shi Hui Huai Wei?

Mo Shi Hui Huai Meng Yao Wei?

Na Xin Shi Hui Ai?

Shi Jiu Ou Zhan?

Alright, continue!

This afternoon!

I wrote it!

Too much!

Too much!

I can't upload it!

Phone restrictions!

So!

I had to cut my waist!

It's so painful!

I can't face it!

This is life!

So!

I'm so weak!

A nap!

I slept through it!

A long time!

Yes!

Three hours!

I haven't washed my clothes!

Damn!

This day!

I wrote too much!

My body!

I can't take it!

I have guts!

The feeling of motion sickness!

I slept!

A nap!

That's much better!

En, continue!

I can't think straight!

Maybe I'm not feeling well!

I thought!

I can't sleep!

But I only woke up now!

En!

Function!

I just recovered!

My current state!

I haven't recovered yet!

En, continue!

I don't know!

How should I write!

Now!

I might be at a bottleneck!

Am I right!

How would I know!

I still have motion sickness!

The feeling!

It's been a long time!

I wrote ten thousand words a day!

I can't take it!

What's wrong!

I'm not used to writing!

It's like this!

I feel terrible!

Yes!

What should I do!

I have no choice!

My heart feels empty!

I can't!

Hide my emptiness!

My whole person!

It's boring!

Sigh!

The girl I like!

Sigh!

Let's not talk about it!

That's a problem!

Today's chapter!

It hasn't been uploaded!

Upload time!

It's not fixed!

It's usually at night!

Yes!

I'll go and live the life of a full-time writer!

I might not be able to take it!

It's too tiring!

Really!

I'm now!

Writing ten thousand words!

I have guts!

The feeling of motion sickness!

Of course!

I'll adjust my state!

There's still a possibility to write!

Continue!

I don't know!

I!

How long can I keep writing like this!

But I lack life!

Experience!

I can't write good works!

Yes!

It's the same!

Damn!

Suddenly!

A little!

The feeling of being possessed by a ghost!

It's actually me!

I don't know!

There's no inspiration!

Or!

An explosion of inspiration!

In short!

In short, this feeling is very strange!

Yes!

I might!

Be able to change my style!

Horror novels!

I think there are people who really like my writing!

I can't bear to!

Change!

Of course!

This can't be changed just because I want to!

I'll continue!

My life in the city!

This is my strength!

Yes!

Although I'm not good at writing!

Now!

I don't want to be in a daze!

Perhaps!

I'll be in a daze!

I'll give up!

Hope for life!

I'm not going to hell!

Who's going to hell!

Continue!

Of course!

There's an element of boasting!

I want to!

When can I!

Hold hands!

A girl's hand!

I don't know!

I feel that it's far away!

When you hold hands!

There are many things!

Waiting for me to do it!

This is not just!

Holding hands is as simple as that!

This is a matter of a lifetime!

Holding hands!

No!

It's for free!

It's not like that!

I discovered a problem!

Why!

Something written by someone else!

And how I feel!

It's different!

Actually!

It's the same!

It's just that I'm following!

Myself!

Too self-centered!

The angle!

To write!

And this work was born!

Now!

I don't want to think about it for now!

Change my style!

I feel that I can!

Change!

But I don't know!

Can I!

I want to give it a try!

Writing like this!

It's not a solution!

It's a matter of time!

It's impossible!

In the future!

And to write such a work!

It doesn't feel right!

Yes!

In my hands!

What exactly is there!

Someone laughed and said to me!

God!

It must have been given to me!

It's something different from others!

I laughed!

Actually, this is pure!

It was complete nonsense!

Is there?

I don't think so!

I'm just!

How should I put it!

I'm just a lunatic!

A lot of lunatics!

They're all like me!

Actually, I'm not unique!

Of course!

That's not the point!

Confidence is given by oneself!

Unique!

It's useless!

It's just!

Just thinking about it!

There's a unique person!

But I can't do it!

A unique thing!

Isn't that a pity!

I know when I think about it!

But!

How should I put it!

People!

Are always!

Have beautiful thoughts!

I'm no exception!

I've also gotten tired of a girl!

I'm tired!

I met this person in the company!

The specific situation!

I don't want to talk about it!

Even though nothing happened!

But I still!

I'm tired!

Maybe I am!

Such a person!

Likes the new and hates the old!

Serves him right for not being able to find a girlfriend!

I'm not as good as I thought!

Maybe!

What kind of person am I!

I don't know either!

Today!

Ten thousand words!

Stop!

I need to rest!

There's a lot to do!

I can't just write a book!

Damn!

I didn't want to write at first!

These things have to be done!

But the truth is that I'm such a person!

The Xiao Qian of the past!

Didn't I love her to death?

Now!

Where's Xiao Yang!

Sigh!

I can't think of myself!

It's actually like this!

Indeed!

I'm not just stupid!

It's that simple!

I'm a beast!

Sigh!

Continue!

My stomach hurts a little!

Go and deal with it!

I realized!

The current me!

I don't miss her!

So!

I can't be there all the time!

I have her in my heart!

I also have my own space!

I'll get tired of it!

Of the feelings I have for her!

Yes!

I don't understand!

I can't!

Give it to her!

My everything!

I feel a little regretful!

Actually!

Sometimes!

I even cheat myself!

I don't know!

This is for!

Writing!

Or!

How is it!

Me too!

I'm doing it consciously!

It's just in the past!

But!

I really like it!

So!

I'm not that kind of person!

Now it seems that I'm that kind of person!

Why is it like this!

I don't understand either!

Do I not love you that much?!

I just realized that I'm!

A cold and heartless person!

A scumbag who likes the new and hates the old!

Scum!

Serves me right for not having a girlfriend!

But!

Bad!

I have to have principles!

A person like me!

That's enough!

Why am I like this!

I actually don't know myself!

Yes!

Damn!

My level of fickleness!

I can't accept it!

Although!

I just!

I haven't started yet!

I've started!

I'm harming others!

I'm harming myself!

My illness!

There's such a situation!

Doing things!

Being half-hearted!

Being distracted!

So!

I'm!

Making these characteristics!

Shifting to!

His feelings were stirred up!

Actually!

Look at what I've written!

It also has such characteristics!

The only thing that doesn't make sense!

That's right!

I can persist in writing books!

I don't understand either!

So!

There's a price for everything!

Perhaps I did it for the sake of writing!

I betrayed myself!

My feelings!

How would I know!

Of course!

I didn't realize it!

The seriousness of the problem!

Perhaps I'm just fooling myself!

I'm a person!

I've discovered some problems!

But that's not all!

My mental state!

The situation doesn't feel good!

Sigh, what to do!

Continue!

This life!

Damn!

A little!

It's hard to continue!

No choice!

This kind of life!

Yes!

I'm most afraid!

Watching horror movies!

I really can't take it!

Actually!

Although I!

I didn't do anything bad!

I did it to that extent!

But I feel!

Given my character!

It's only a matter of time!

I know myself too well!

What I want!

This is the problem!

Damn!

Now!

I've started again!

That!

True enough!

I'm a bad person!

I can't do it!

What good thing!

Continue!

This kind of life!

I feel very bad!

Sigh!

True enough!

It can be seen from this point!

I'm still human!

Other things!

Can't be seen in this aspect!

I know!

Sooner or later!

I want!

I'll be dispirited!

I'll talk about my experience!

Videos!

Of course, I've watched countless of them!

There was once!

I even video-called someone!

Of course!

I paid for it!

Because!

I saw!

Looks!

Doesn't meet my standards!

I didn't pay for it!

Sigh!

I can only say that!

My character is indeed!

It's a little improper!

Now that I think about myself!

Doing this!

Is it really okay!

It doesn't feel good!

A young girl in the prime of her life!

Is the most precious!

Of course!

Every time is precious!

Of course!

Video-Calling!

This thing!

It can be handled!

It doesn't have to be that person!

It's real!

I know!

Sooner or later, I'll be crippled!

In the hands of my desires!

Damn!

I always want to find a girl!

To keep her company!

It turns out!

I'm such a person!

Damn!

Not for other reasons!

Actually, to be careful!

Think about it!

This is also impossible!

Perhaps that's!

The world of demons!

Life!

Is very short!

Who will put!

All these!

Time!

Waste on this!

It's impossible to think about it!

At least I won't!

Not for!

Happiness and happiness!

Of course!

There's nothing wrong with this!

It's just that!

How should I put it!

This kind of feeling!

Society has changed!

Of course!

This is the most basic!

I can't say anything!

But!

This kind of ideology!

It's not desirable!

It doesn't have any form of emotions!

That is!

Pure desire!

It's just to look beautiful!

To look and so on!

Actually!

A lot!

A lot!

Men!

They're all like this!

I'm no exception!

I can only say!

I also have experience!

I feel that I'm!

Very bad!

Of course!

I do this!

It's my choice!

But I!

Interfere!

Others are not good!

Of course!

It's not that simple!

Just take it as!

Another world!

Actually!

Sometimes, I can be very shameless!

I do it for myself!

Desire!

Distress!

Why!

Of course!

No desire!

It's very strange!

I!

23 years old!

Damn!

These are all excuses!

Damn!

I'm just someone who likes beautiful women!

Sigh!

This can only be said to be my pursuit!

It's also the most primitive kind!

I'm indeed crazy!

There's nothing else!

I just like!

Others are young!

Beautiful!

Actually!

These!

Things!

I didn't intend to write them!

But now!

I still have these!

Habit!

This is endurance!

I can't!

Temptation!

Sigh!

What the hell!

What do I want!

I don't know!

I don't understand!

Sigh!

It turns out!

I'm like this!

It's just that!

It's not very good!

Speaking of which!

This is my fault!

Of course!

It's my fault!

The main thing is!

Like this!

Sigh!

My heart is very heavy!

I've said what I should say!

Now!

I'm also considered as!

Completely!

Exposed!

Actually!

This is nothing!

I realized that this might be the case!

Continue!

I have no choice!

When I find a girlfriend in the future!

I'll give it to her!

Read!

The book that I wrote!

I originally intended to!

Pass it!

This book!

To find a girlfriend!

Thinking about it now!

This is not very realistic!

Just thinking about it!

I've already!

Passed it!

At the age where I like to dream!

Now it's daytime!

I also want to dream!

Sigh!

What!

Online dating or something!

Beautiful women!

Love me!

Love me so much!

Can't extricate myself!

Is this possible?

Think about it!

Think about it!

This is impossible!

I'll also make such a mistake!

Perhaps this is a mental illness!

Although I!

Some things have recovered!

But!

Psychologically!

Emotionally speaking!

I haven't recovered at all!

I feel that I!

This is not good!

Of course!

I'm making things difficult for myself!

It's like this!

Yes!

I'll go!

Take it slow!

One breath!

I can't become a fatty!

I should take it step by step!

Of course!

Suddenly!

Change!

Myself!

I can't accept it!

If I!

Can change so easily!

I'm not mentally ill!

Of course!

This is not an excuse for me to be dispirited!

I haven't spoken English for a long time!

I have readers!

Speak my English!

They've learned well!

Actually!

Primary school students these days!

They're better than me!

It's just me!

I can express myself better than these!

This guy is strong!

Alright!

That's it!

I haven't spoken English for a long time!

I suddenly realized!

Someone commented!

I'll say it again!

Actually!

My English is just!

I'm just a primary school student!

It's just that!

I can express!

I'm more capable!

That's it!

Yes!

Alright!

Look!

That's it!

Soon-To-Be!

Time to eat!

Sigh!

Look!

See you tomorrow!

I can't put my life on the line!

I don't want to die!

Although!

I can still write!

But this won't last long!

Alright!

See you tomorrow!

I can't bear to!