I don't feel it myself! Oh, all kinds of suffering! Oh, what a sorrowful feeling! Oh, is it really okay to be like this? But I really can't choose! I've told you before! There's a way! There's really no turning back! But I don't think there's a way back! Oh, it's terrible! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, what a sorrowful feeling! Don't I know that! Oh, how painful it is! I don't feel it myself! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, what should I do about it! Oh, how painful it is! I feel it myself! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, there's no other way! Oh, my! How painful it is! Oh, how I don't know! Obviously I don't know that! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, what a terrible feeling! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, I was wrong! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, take it slow! There's no point in being anxious! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how terrible it is! Don't I know that! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how I don't feel it myself! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how sad it is! How can I be like this! It's my own problem! I don't feel it myself! Oh, how terrible it is! Maybe I still don't understand this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how I think it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh! What can I do? Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how I still don't understand this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how I don't understand this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What I think it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, what is this! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how I don't understand this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Think it is! Oh, how sad it is! What can I do? How painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, what is this! Oh, how terrible it is! Do I not understand this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Do I not understand this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how I think it is! Oh, how painful it is! I do not feel it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how can it be like this! Oh, how terrible it is! Do I not understand this! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! I do not feel it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! How painful it is! This! I do not feel it! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, forget it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, damn it! Anyway, it is not easy to bear! What the hell! How I feel! What the hell! How painful it is! What the hell! How painful it is! What is this! Oh, this is also my own problem! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how can it be like this! Oh, how painful it is! I am afraid I do not understand this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What else can I do? Oh, how painful it is! What else can I do? Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Let me think about it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Actually, I still do not understand it! Oh, how terrible it is! Let me think about it! Oh, how painful it is! I do not feel it! Oh, this matter! It is because there is no other way! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! It is impossible for me not to know it! Oh, how painful it is! I should have known it! Oh, how terrible it is! What is this! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how serious it is! Oh, how terrible it is! How many days have I owed it! I don't think I can make it up! It is good enough that I can write it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! This fortune teller! How painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! How painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! I don't know it! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! How painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how terrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how horrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how difficult it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! I must be more careful in the future! Oh, there is no other way! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how horrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! What should I do! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how should I put it! I must get used to it! Oh, how painful it is! Love is too painful! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, there are too many things that cannot be determined! I think I am just bored! Oh, the pressure of survival is too great! Can I not face it? I don't have that many choices! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how sad it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how I think it is! Sigh, most of the time, I don't have a choice! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how horrible it is! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, how painful it is! Let me think about it carefully! Oh, how scary it is! What is this! Think about it carefully! What happened to love? Oh! Can I have it? Oh, I am afraid I can no longer love! But it is still painful! Oh, how can it not be like this! Oh, I find that some things are really difficult! Oh, this is actually very sad! Oh, I want to be with the person I love! But it is all nonsense! I still don't understand! My so-called love! It is just my so-called desire! Oh, even my survival is a problem! Actually, it can be said that I will not work for half a year! Basically! I can declare a natural death! Oh! I still don't understand! Oh, how painful it is! The person I love does not love me! This is such a pain in the ass! I used to think that this was a joke! I should have known that I was wrong! Why did I not understand! Oh! How painful it is! Oh, how scary it is! What can I do about this! Oh, I still don't know! Oh, desire is such a thing! I am unable to accept it myself! It is so painful! What is this! The only thing that can be explained is! I am still not determined enough! What else can I say! I have to face it no matter what! There is no other choice! Maybe this is what it means to be alive! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! How I feel! It is so painful! Oh, how scary! I still don't know! Oh, what can I do! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, it is also my own problem! Oh, I don't understand! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, what can I do! Oh! If there is no if! But I still hope that there is an if! How can I not love! Oh, how can it not be painful! Oh, damn! There is no other way! Oh, there is a price to pay for many things! How I feel! Oh, I still think! Actually, there is no other choice! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, what should I do at this time! So! When there is no other choice! What should I do! This is actually an endless desire! Oh, I have missed out on too much! I cannot be calm about this! But what I still don't understand is! Actually, missing out is also a kind of beauty! Why can't I understand! Oh, perhaps the best happiness is to miss out on it! If I can't even miss out on it! Oh! Oh, I still think! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, actually, it is very simple! There must be something that I cannot face by myself! At most, this is what I look like! There is absolutely no other choice! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, I will think about it myself! Oh, calm down! I am purely a liar controlled by my desire! I don't even know myself! I can only say that young and beautiful girls! All of them will move my heart! Is there any meaning to it! But this is purely a desire! Sometimes, I still don't understand myself enough! Because even I have to deceive myself! Oh, how painful it is! What is this! Oh, damn, how painful it is! Oh, I still don't understand! Oh, how should I put it! Oh, the greatest pain is that I can't miss it anymore! Why do I not understand! Oh, I can't control it at all! What about my own feelings! So! What's wrong with me! I fell in love with someone else again! Oh, how painful it is! The person I love doesn't love me back! What do I think! Oh, how scary! I don't feel it! Oh, let's take it slow! Even people like me have problems surviving, okay?! Do I feel that I have any meaning! Oh, absolutely none! But perhaps this is the so-called desire! The desire for a better life! I still can't tell the difference between desire and love! What the hell! What about my own feelings! How painful it is! There is absolutely no choice! What about my own feelings! Oh, how painful it is! Oh, there is absolutely no other way! Oh, I don't understand! What is this! Oh, all kinds of uncomfortable feelings! Oh, life is so hard! I must have confidence! Because no matter what, it will all be in vain! Then why?