At that time, I decided to work hard and stay away from online chatting.

Away from tourists.

I didn't watch female streamers. I learned from the painful experience and wrote a song of my life!

In the end, I went to work!

I didn't finish writing. I had the chance to write since November last year, but I didn't want to because the flowers had not bloomed!

It wasn't exciting enough!

But this time, I wrote later. I had to go to work this time last year!

I hope I can continue writing!

Although I don't have a sharp pen, I have a sharp heart!

Maybe if you ignore me now, I might forget about you in the future!

Maybe you don't even care about me!

Who cares if you forget or not? You are too numb!

Whoever meets me is unlucky!

Work hard on the keyboard and write all my love for you!

I will write until the end of time, until I can't write anymore!

I believe you will see it. I will go tomorrow and smash the net. I will smash everywhere. I hope you can see it!

I will smash the net tomorrow, but there is no traffic. I can't smash it. I will wait for three more days!

I hope you can see it. You know that I am writing about you!

You have to see it. Otherwise, it will be boring!

Maybe you will never see it!

But I only have a fantasy. You are silently supporting me!

I feel like I am deceiving myself!

I believe it. Why wouldn't I believe it!

It is always good to have hope. I can't lose hope in life!

Millions of readers are waiting for me to write. I am under a lot of pressure!

No matter who reads it, I have to write well. You know that my words usually don't count!

It's better than not saying anything!

I don't have the ability to give you a future!

I can't even protect myself. I am a poor writer who doesn't know what to eat!

I can't even take care of myself. Just like what she said, I can't do it!

I am suitable for running around in the countryside. I am not that crazy!

Fortunately, I took the medicine. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the chance to write!

The medicine I took seemed to be the cheapest. It was about 6 yuan a bottle with about 100 pills.

I could take it for more than 10 days!

When I first started taking it, I had all kinds of medicine. The hallucinations were very serious. The medicine was also very expensive. One week's worth of medicine would cost more than 500 yuan. When I took those so-called good medicine, the hallucinations were too serious. I couldn't do anything. At least, I was aware of my condition after taking Subili.

I could basically take care of myself. Of course, my mental illness type was suitable for such medicine!

Different types of medicine was different. I was still considered lucky. I could write some books while I was sober!

Some things were not so good!

However, as he grew older!

I may become demented. I want to write while my head is still clear!

Otherwise, I won't be able to write in the future. Every little bit counts. These are the footprints I left in this world. You, me, and her!

I'm mentally ill, a simple schizophrenic!

I looked at the information on the Internet. The final result of my illness is dementia.

I don't even know why I became a retard. You might say that I'm a retard now, and I'm writing retards!

I don't think it would be great if I could write for the rest of my life. I'm 22 years old this year, so I can write until I'm 35. I might not even be able to write until I'm 25!

No one knew what the future held!

I don't know, I don't know how much longer I can write!

Maybe I won't write tomorrow. I want to go to work. I want to earn a living. How I want to lie in bed and eat until I die!

But I don't think that means I will do it!

I can't afford to do that. Hospitalization costs more than 4000 yuan a month. I don't have that much money.

Some of my fellow patients said that I should be hospitalized!

Can I afford it?

I can't afford it. If I had the money, I would have been hospitalized long ago!

I don't have the money. I don't hurt anyone. There's no need for me to be hospitalized. I don't have the power to attack!

The last time I went to the Third Hospital, I saw some of my fellow patients. They were all standing outside the window, looking at the outside world. The food in the Third Hospital was not bad.

I do want to be hospitalized, but I don't have that much money. I might not have the money to be hospitalized for the rest of my life!

Luckily, the medicine I take is cheap. 20 yuan a month!

Otherwise, I would have stopped taking it. That's why I'm both unfortunate and lucky. I still have medicine to take.

Once, someone did a questionnaire at the hospital and asked me if I had suicidal tendencies. Sometimes, I want to die. I have thoughts and actions. Of course, I'm not that stupid. I'm not that stupid. Someone said that I don't even have the courage to die!

I stopped for a moment. I had something to do outside. Living requires more courage. You might not be able to do what I do!

I want to face the pain of life.

I can't write without listening to songs!

I like you!

I'm going to get busy again. I have to cook. Today, I'll fry green beans and potatoes!

I'll fry two dishes!

One spicy and one non-spicy!

I'm going to be busy today. If I continue writing, I'll only be able to write in the afternoon!

I'm addicted to writing!

I want to eat fried rice cakes. I miss the taste of those years!

I want to dance in the square!

I just ate an egg. I can't write too much. I'm afraid I'll have a headache. If I have a headache, I won't be able to cook!

If only I could persevere.

Forgive me. I'm living in my own time and space!

When the novel is uploaded, I will create a group. If you have any opinions, you can tell me what you want me to write. You can tell me whatever you want me to express. Thank you for your support. Welcome!

You can also chat with me!

The group number and how to join will be posted on the bulletin board and in the comments section. I won't write it in the novel.

Even if I write it, I might not be able to post it!

Pay more attention.

When the novel is uploaded, there will be a few more websites. It's best if there's a mobile version. I don't have internet. It's useless to use a mobile to access the computer. However, I still need to use a computer to upload. It's not easy to upload on a mobile phone.

I heard that there's free wifi at the Post Office.

But it's too far. I can't go there!

Time passed quickly. It's not long before I have to go and cook.

I've just written my status and feelings, and I have to stop. It's really uncomfortable!

Give me another half an hour!

I'm me, not you.

There's nothing important recently!

I haven't read or studied for a long time. I don't know why I can't understand those study books!

What business negotiations? What database? I can't understand them!

I'd better write my novel quietly!

I used to feel that life was boring. There were no miraculous encounters. I hoped for a miraculous encounter. I didn't expect that what I hoped for would come true. I won the lottery.

Mental illness is my biggest miraculous encounter. It's the beginning of my miraculous encounter. Life is full of challenges.

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I've played too many games. I've played all kinds of games. In the end, I've changed to someone who doesn't play much. I don't know how my novel is like with you. Maybe there's an answer long ago. I can live without anything. It's just that I'm muddle-headed!

The sun isn't too bright today. My phone doesn't have much battery. I need to charge it later. I'll listen to songs as long as I write!

Here it comes, Hamlet's tears

I've started singing

The night rain is swirling, the umbrella is broken.

… ….

You're so beautiful, crying in the wind. I'm so tired of ignoring you.

In the past, I didn't understand what the provincial number meant. How many did I save? Is it 6?

I don't know how to use the provincial number. I'm used to using it indiscriminately.

My writing level has always been limited. When I was in high school, I only knew how to use commas, periods, exclamation marks, and rarely question marks!

This is my writing level. I don't know where I got the courage to write. I've never participated in any public writing. My essays have never been read aloud.

This has also become my regret. I'm doing poorly. Who would read my essays? No one. So I want to write an essay that will be read aloud!

Other people's essays have been read aloud time and time again, but no one reads mine. Even the colonel's essay has been read aloud. Those people don't write. What are they doing? Asking me, a person who doesn't know how to write, to write an essay!

What are they doing!

I've said before, what is a novel? It's a kind of

Thing that can bring us joy and move us!

Forgive me. That's what I said, but I can't do it. I said I'm in the front, but I'm behind.

But those people's writing is better than mine. I need to work hard to learn. But I have my own style of writing.

Everyone's writing is about the same. There's no development in literature and art!

If you're used to big fish and big meat and want to eat wild vegetables, you're welcome. Look for me!

There's a feeling of being sucked dry. It's like having my blood sucked. Fortunately, blood can be regenerated.

I'm still not enough. I need to absorb more nutrients. Otherwise, my body won't be able to take it.

There's a feeling of being separated by three years.

So sad!

There was a faint sadness in her eyes!

I'm at 9: 15. Yes, maybe my pen name will be 9: 15. This pen name is so artistic.

I hope it's not registered!

I'm at 9: 15.

It's quite deep and meaningful. I went to cook.

I slept and had a dream. When I woke up, I realized I'm a silly dog!

I did some boring and meaningless things and still felt a special sense of accomplishment. It's amazing. I've had enough of being so silly!

I want to give you the world, but I realize I can't. What can I do?

I'm guilty. Being silly is also a sin.

Sigh!

I have to sing a song before cutting my pulse!

You're dead. You're taking things too hard again.

I feel the pressure of living is huge!

I can't do it!

I'm suitable for running around in the fields!

I've taken medicine!

Medicine doesn't seem to have any effect. I have to do it once a day!

I should go there.

I'm a dog. Without a silly dog like me, the planet is spinning. I can't accept this reality. I'm not willing.

So what if I'm not willing? It's all because of those novels that I've read. Now, I'm going to pay them back!

I want to break the so-called individualism!

I want to write rubbish. I want to ruin the reputation of novels!

I'm drunk just thinking about it. I'm thinking too much. I shouldn't have said it!

I feel that living is a crime. I'm really guilty as a person. I've harmed a few gay people. Although I'm also a victim, I don't want to be a sinner. Sigh, I'm really guilty as a person. I can't afford to eat. I'm guilty because I can't afford to eat!

Don't look at me holding a computer and writing shitty novels all day. I seem to be very happy. I'm someone who can't even afford to eat.

I can only say that I'm a person with a sense of crisis. Having food to eat today doesn't mean I'll have food to eat tomorrow!

I'm really guilty as a person. I actually don't know how to farm!

Looks like I can only divide those who starve to death. Otherwise, I wouldn't eat so much every day. People only starve to death, not die from overeating. People only die from poverty, not from wealth!

I'll definitely die a horrible death. Just think about it. Of course, starvation doesn't only refer to food. Poverty doesn't only refer to wealth!